Kent's doreamon xD

Was suppose to update blog last night

But i had slight fever so i went to bed
early. Although right now
i do feel a little headache x/
But i'll be fine no worries =)

Yesterday Kent and i were having
a conversation on MSN.
He got bored and he started using
handwriting thingy on MSN :D
Reaaally hilarious!

*Mine is sooo bad l0ls*

*Look at his l0ls! its so good~*


After awhile Kent make me burst out
laughing after i saw this doreamon!
HAHA!
Its soooo adorable!!!! XD

*SEE! He is so good xD*

And i requested for a
Hello Kitty xD

• *Simply Adorable x3*

Kent is a really awesome friend.
Although we haven't met before we
share our problems with each other and
he's the kind of guy that would sacrifice for
his girlfriend x3
So if any of you girls do become his gf
CHERISH him!
If you lose him you will 100% regret :p

*Disturbing my brother :p*

Anyways. I didn't really do anything much today.
I know its halloween and everyone is going
clubbing and stuffs but i'll be staying at home.
Not in the mood to go out.
Thanks for guys your invitations to zouk, poppy,maison,
Euphoria and mamak yamcha.
But sorry to reject all.
I just want to stay home and relax my mind :)
Haven been thinking alot these days.

STRESS and PRESSURE!
FAN FAN FAN FAN FAN!
How i wish i could go taiwan again :(
Really miss it there.

Baby, its a wonder how you became mine.
Started with a perfect kiss, Can you feel the poison
set in now love?
The poison is slowly killing me.

My.Feelings.For.You

I'm proud of you

I'm thinking of you

I cares about you

I'm missing you

I want to talk to you

I want to be with you
I want to hear your voice

I hope you aren't in trouble

I'm thankful for the support you hand

I hope everything turns out all right

I want you to be happy

I want you to find me

I want to give you a gift

I think of you as a gift

I hope you are not too cold, or too hot

I want to hug you

I love you

I want to lavish you with small gifts

I admires your strength

I'm thinking of you and smiling

I want to be your shoulder to cry on

I want to go out with you and have a lot of fun

I think you are the world to me

I want to protect you

I would do anything for you

I want to be forgiven for anything i've done wrong to you
I'm grateful for your forgiveness

I want to laugh with you about old times

I remember every look upon your face

I need to know if anything is bothering you

I value your advice

I want to tell you how much i care

I want to stay up watching old movies with you

I want to share my dreams with you

I want to hold you in my arms

I want you to hold me in your arms

I treasures your spirit

I wish i could stop time because of you

I can't wait to see you

I wish things didn't have to change

I love you for who you are

I love the way you make me feel

I hears a song that reminds me of you

I want you to know that i'm here for you

I stay up all night thinking of you

I'm alive because of you

I wish that you would notice me

I want to get to know you better

I believe that you're my soul mate

I want to be near you

I miss your guidance and advice

I value your guidance and advice

I have faith in you

I trusts you
I believe you
And lastly
I'm glad you are my boyfriend.

Even if you dont feel the same way as i do.
The love i have for you won't change. =)
Xiao Ser ILY.

Head.Gonna.Boom.Soon

*MSN with baichi bii :) But he offline already =_=*

OMFFFFGGGGG!
My head is gonna BOOM soon!
There is so many pageant show awaiting me~
November 19,20,21,22 and 24.
But each requires a talent round.
Thinking what i should doooo!
I hate pageants shows but the prizes are veryyy tempting :p

I was thinking of dancing.
Hip hop? Belly dance?
I was thinking of Hip hop and belly dance fusion x)
But i am stuck when it comes to
choreographing steps!
Especially since i've never tried this 2 fusion before.

Its been 2years since i last choreograph
steps for dances.
And now i am lost >_<
Can anyone help me?!
GODDD !
I'm gonna die soon =_=
Maybe i should find classes just to get dance steps? =_=
Gahh. It's hard to find classes for hip hop and
belly dance fusion.
Been watching it on youtube for some ideas.
Was amazed at how incredible some dancers are :)
And i don't even know what song i wanna use =_=

Another week and Lian is coming back! :D
I can't hardly wait~
Been a year since i've last saw her :)
With her around i am guessing November
is gonna be a crazy month :D
And i know she'll eventually wanna go clubbing
and drag me along =_=

A neighbor invited me over to take a look at
his puppies.
He was giving them away.
It was sooooo adorable :D
The puppy name was 'Susu'
All my friends calls me susu too hahas!
He handed the puppy to me x3
Asked me to take it home but my mum said no cause
i already have 4 dogs to take care of at home >_<
But i really wanted it though T_T

I should start sleeping early instead of 5am
everyday >_<
And i always wake up at 9am.
My panda eyes is killing me >_<

Back to brainstorming :(

I'm just a bitch that loves you :D

Big Bang - Make Love

Found a sound that is seriously addictive :D
Well atleast to me.
The lyrics is seriously sweet <3
If any guys sings this to me i would melt for sure xD
I even uploaded the video with lyrics of it.
Have a listen to it guys :D

Sleepy :(

*I love leopard prints :D*

Today i went out to Timesquare alone T_T
Well cause my mum had to meet her
friend and she wanted me to
go with her.

Since i already went timesquare yesterday
i have nothing to buy anymore.
I really had noo idea what to do there >_<
But after 10mins of walking round and round.
I remembered someone works there xD

IKKI! xD
Hahas.
I went to anime tech to look for him
as he works there.
We talked for almost 2hrs xD
It's been awhile since i last visited him :)
He showed me his HTC diamond phone.
I really liked that back of it :)
Looks special.

After almost 2hrs my mum called me to go look for her.
Ikki was busy with customers xD
So i said goodbye and left.

After i reached home.
I online for awhile finding my bii still online =_=
He just told me he didn't sleep for a day.
*Baichi bii better go sleep na >_<*

And after awhile i went to help my grandma
with cooking for dinner :p
Why is it everytime when i tell friends that i'm
helping out with cooking their reactions will be like
"omg you? cooking? you can actually cook?"
>_<>
You guys don't have to keep laughing at me dammit~

Well after dinner i received a message
for another pageant show :D
I'll probably be attending for this one i guess. :D

Anyways i fell asleep at 12am+
and just woke up not long.
It's currenly 2.45am here :)
That's all to update now i guess.
Feeling sleepy >_<

I'm just a girl who is madly, deeply, seriously in love
with you :)

Just,Another.Sunday =)

Today i was supposed to go out with a friend~

But instead my mummy asked
me to follow my brother to sg wang
to eat an do some stuffs.
But i had plans with a friend >_<
But he had to work until 3pm+

Although i was planning that he could meet
up with me at 3pm+ in sg wang he said it
was better for me to go back with my brother
as he wasn't sure what time he would be done.

It was quite crowded today :/
There was a playboy event and a korean actor was there
. Cant believe his fans actually sat there and wait =_=
And in Timesquare there was And1 basketball tournament :)
But i left around 2pm+.

*Kor takoyaki yummy mou~xD*
*Dont eat and drive na~*

*Bored in the car :(*

*Kor look infront! Not at the camera >_<*

But before going back home my brother stopped
by McDonalds drive thru :p
And bought some ice-cream :3

After reaching home my friend smsed me.
Asking if i was home.
I said yea.
Although it was 4pm+ he came over to my house
and picked me up and go shopping again hahas.
So i changed into something simple :)
Was a little lazy to get out of my house >_<
Cause it was raining.

*In car again >_<*

We reached timesquare.
I went shopping :3
Bought a very very adorable leopard print
jacket :3
I'm in love with anything that have leopard prints :D

Then we ate at Food&Tea there.
I ordered spaghetti and jasmine tea ~
I wanted to eat toast but no more T_T
Didn't want to eat much but if i dont eat
i get gastric T_T.

After dinner i went home at 7.30pm :)
Kinda tired for now.
Nights guys :)

Past is past so let it go.
Look forward to the future.
I should't feel regretted anymore.
There is nothing i can do about it.

Alcohol.BBQ.Night.

Tonight is good night :)

I have never been this happy since..
i don't know how long l0ls.

My family had BBQ thingy to celebrate
my grandma's and 2 of my cousin's bday :)
*Happy bday guys :D*

Too lazy to write in details so i'll just upload pictures
instead :)

*Fire :D Captured by my brother :)*

*Its a Carlsberg night :)*

*Family BBQ-ing*

*So pity the crab >_<*

*My brother :D*

*My uncles :D The 1st one look like chicken wing seller xD*

*What am i doing? >_<*

After the BBQ. I came online :D
And saw vinod online. Hahas we on webcam~
CHEERS VINOD!
I finallly drank with you. Thru the screen xD

*Vinod with his Tiger beer xD*

*My brother brought CHIVAS in hahas*

*My Hello Kitty shirt!! xD*

*Took this with my camera xD hahas*

So yea vinod and i got high and started
talking all kind of crap xD
Laughed the whole time.
My cheeks hurts xD
And my back hurts alot cause i couldnt lean on anything >_<
Stupid chair.

Vinod come back on my birthday !!
You have to bring me to Quattro!
I wanna go to the winter side hahas.
God we were soooooo freaking high xD

Kent.
Thx for telling me about it =)
Although i already know about it >_<
But anyways thx :D
Once again you are a greatttttt awesomey friend :D

Bii~
I'm fortunate to have you.
Dont apologize anymore.
I'll wait for you. I promise.
And i won't break promises.

Only For Mabel! Dont bother reading.

Firstly this entry is not written by
Mabel.
I am one of Mabel's friend.
Dont ask why i wrote here.
Its a long story between us.
So dont have to bother reading this post nor
comment on it.

MABEL LOU PO!
I AM SORRY!
I DIDNT MEANT TO MAKE YOU CRY!
PLS FORGIVE ME >_<

Lou po arh~
I just dont want to see you get hurt
so i only say those stuffs.
You already cry almost 2 weeks.
Moody, and hardly talk.
I understand your feeling.
And that day when i call you i just think want
to talk to you about my problems but you
cried with me.
Only a REAL GREAT friend would do that.
Lou po you are really one of a kind.
You understand ppl so well and help with anything
you can.
24hrs there for the ones you love.
I'm sure everyone agrees with me on this.
And if your bf dosent appreciate you its his lost.

Not that i want you to break up with him
or what but i really dont want to see you hurt.
Over and over again you fall in love.
Over and over guys use you to show off.
Then dump you once they got bored of you.
You even used 2years to forget one guy who played you 99.
If this bf of yours dump you.
I believe you will use more than 2yrs to forget him lor.
You are serious about him. But is he?
Lou po i ask you.
When he is online does he talk to you?
Does he share everything with you?
And does he even say 'love you' or 'miss you'
anymore?
I really feel you love him more than he loves you.
All our friends agree too.
If he isnt willing to show his love for you,
I have alot of guys asking me about you.

Loupo~Not only i am worried about you.
Alot of ppl are worried about you too
and you know it.
No one is more important to us than you.
You always find ways to cheer ppl up.
You always smile and damn cheerful everyday.
what happened to it?
Your smile is a smile to die for,
it really have that warm feeling in it.
I know you 'fan' alot of things right now.
I saw how you fell down on your feet and got back up.
All by yourself without anyones help.

Lou po so please.
Forgive me T_T
I'm just worried about you because you are
really tooooo soft-hearted.
I dont want to see you suicide again.
Muacks lou po.
Wo ai si ni.

And babe take care of your gastric.
I remember i was talking to you on the phone
last night you suddenly cried in pain because of it.

CALL ME OR SMS ME T_T
after you read this.
I dont want to see you cry anymore.
Alot of ppl dosent.
Smile babe. :)

Its been too long..

Yesterday i thought it was just going
to be another day at home.
Online and chatting.
Well thats what i thought.

Until after i finished my bath,
slipped and fell on the floor,
my mum opened the door and said
"Get changed and your make up done
somebody wants to meet you"
"Who?" I asked.
"A man who you used to call 'dad'"

I was stunned.
My tears just fell and i asked myself
Is this for real?
After 6yrs he left me.
And after 6yrs of thinking to myself
'i will never see him again'

So my mum and i went to KLCC.
He was already waiting for us at a cafe
named 'the apartment'.
We went to look for him.

Standing at the door was him.
Waiting for us.
I couldnt smile nor say the word
'hi' but instead he hugged me.

It felt weird seeing him after 6yrs.
The feeling in me.
Is it hatred?
I completely ignored him.

After few hrs of being there.
Before we left my mum went to the bathroom.
Leaving me alone with him.
We had a few talk.
I cried.
Its been awhile since i last cried so hard.

He held me with his arms around
my shoulder as we left.
How long has it been since i've felt these
feeling?
6years.Its been too long.

My mum sent him to midvalley
as he had another appointment with another friend.

*Can you see those tears? They refused to stop falling*

Before he got off the car he said
'Dont worry, Dont cry anymore'
with a smile.

I'll be having dinner with him later :)

After 6years of wishing i could see him again.
It came true :)
I couldnt ask for anything more.

*I promised that i will smile :)*

Kentttttt~
seriously you are such a great fwennn =3
Sorry for making you worried >_<
And thx for always being there for me :)
i heart you too =]

Everyday i stare at my phone and
stay up till late at night
waiting for your message,
waiting for your call.
But as expected there is none from you
. I should just off my phone and throw it away.
And i should just leave you and disappear from your life.
Do you have any idea how much i miss you every sec?
Do you? and will you?
Love me? :)

Blah :)

Tired!

Slept at 5am last night and woke up
at 9am.

Went out with my mum.
Had breakfast.
Went home.

*Just before i left home :)*

After i got home i had nothing to do.
Internet connection were unstable.
So i camwhored.
New pictures can be seen at my facebook :)
Until a friend of mine called.

I pick up the phone thinking she was gonna
scold me cause i didnt answer her calls
nor text her for few days.
But instead, she was crying really badly.

The man who said he is 'serious' about her,
tells her 'i love you' everyday,
she trusted him.
Cheated on her.

He told her that he is busy working so he
couldnt go out with her today.
So she just went shopping alone.
She bought a necklace for the both of them
hoping he would love it and love her more.
And continued shopping to kill time.
Until she passed by a quiet area.
He was there with another girl.
Sitting closely, taking pictures, laughing away.
Instead of confronting him, she walked away,
threw away the necklaces and called me.

I was speechless when i heard it.
I was fucking stunned.
To think a man like him would hurt her.
I knew how much it fucking hurts as it happened
to me before.
For some reason my tears fell.
I couldnt bear to see her this way.
I managed to bring her mood up.
But ended up scolded as i expected >_<
After almost 2hrs on the phone before we hung up
she said to me
'Lou po, I hope your boyfriend is treating you well.
I hope you wont be in the same situation as me one day.
We all know how much you really love him but
how sure are you that he loves you back and not another girl?
How sure are you that he is really 'serious' about you too?
I'm not saying this to make you start thinking stupid stuffs,
i'm just saying it cause i really dont wan to see you
get hurt anymore.
I've seen you get hurt over and over again. Its enough.
You are too innocent, soft hearted, pretty thats why guys
take advantages of you.
And you keep smiling even when you know you want to cry.
I've seen how happy you were when you accepted him,
you called me and kept telling me how well you guys were doing.
But those few days you kept quiet about your
pain was because of him wasn't it?'
I paused. Silent.
'I believe in him lou po.' I said.
I told her to just drop that topic and we hung up.
Hopefully she is doing well right now.

Anyways..
My brother laptop died on him.
So he keeps using mine now T_T
Get it fix or buy a new one you cheapo!
And stop saying 'fuck you' to me every min
dammit ! >_<

I'm tired.
Worrying about my lou po :(
She got me thinking stuffs again.
*Sei yeh nei bei yan diu la >_<*

I'll end it here for today.
I did something very very stupid just now =_=
But only bii knows. lols.
Nights guys :)

Corny Drama with Vinod :D

Vinod and i were having our conversation
and suddenly remembered
a very very corny drama conversation
we had xD
Which happened 2days ago after Lian left
the conversation ;D

♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: fuck u vinod,love u lian,vinod u know u love me xD

CIOU!/\:love u lian
Le3!!~:ok ok
CIOU!/\:i noe u love me 2 mabel
Le3!!~:love u guys

	Le3!!~ has left the conversation.

CIOU!/\:hahaha
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: damn right i do! :D
CIOU!/\:wait u agreed wit me?
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: yea i did xD
CIOU!/\:who r u?o.O

The drama starts here :p
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: a girl u love and known for 13yrs xD
CIOU!/\:yea i couldnt hide my feelings 4 u
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: yea i know. which is way i wanna tell u 'i love u too'
CIOU!/\:i love u 2 but can we be 2gether?
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: yea i have waited long enough for u to say those words
CIOU!/\: y didnt u tell me sooner
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: i was afraid it might spoil what we have now
i couldnt bear to see u leave me
CIOU!/\: mabel...if u did tell me earlier than we could've spend more time wit each other
n make the moments last longer
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: oh god its too late to regret it now
CIOU!/\:well wat do we do now?do we leave it be?
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: or should we try long distance relationship my love?
u have no idea how much tears i shed for u the night u left
thinking about it now hurts me deeply
CIOU!/\: well if we tried out long distance relationship do u think it will go the distance
dont cry 4 me my love dont shed a tear 4 me
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: those tear couldnt be controlled my love
it just fell without me noticing and if u try long distance realtionship i am afraid u might cheat on me
CIOU!/\:no i wouldnt my heart belongs 2 u n only u
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: u have no idea how much that line made my heart pounded
CIOU!/\: baby if i noe u felt like this i would've hold ur hand so tight n neva let go
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: you have no idea how ur touch lingers around me
CIOU!/\: baby i stil remember ur eyes looked at me n wen then wen other guys use u
it made me so angry but i didnt want 2 do anything
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: because u r too gay to even defend me
CIOU!/\: didnt wan u 2 see the other side of me baby words cant describe the way i feel 4 u
n wat is goin thru my mind
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: you have no idea how much u have been on my mind lately
the way you speak, walk and laugh with me
i miss it badly. i wish time would just go back few months time where i could see you
and when i see you i wish it would just stop so i can stare at ur eyes forever
CIOU!/\:baby please stop the more i think of u the more it hurts me n i will always be waitin 4 u
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: why must you leave me my love why must you go so far
and you are only telling me this when i am with another man
CIOU!/\:i had 2 get it out it was killin me 2 see u suffer
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: you got it out at the wrong time for i am stuck to this man
CIOU!/\:mabel u r sufferin wit this guy
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: if you told me sooner i wouldnt have to be suffering
so you are the cause of my suffering
CIOU!/\:i was a afraid i dont wan our frendship 2 be awkard
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: i know..i was afraid of losing this friendship too
CIOU!/\:baby leave tht guy be wit me i will treat u much better than tht prick
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: my love i really cant so therefore you will always be my tangachi and nothing much for we had missed the chance that was given us
CIOU!/\:isnt there any other solution 2 this something tht we both can be happy?
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: no baby there isnt so please just leave me..i cant bear this pain anymore
CIOU!/\:baby remember this i will always be there waitin 4 u
♪♫ мαвeι aka міικу ♬: AND CUT!! omg what corny movie xD

It pretty lame and corny i know :p
And vinod thought i was for real! hahas.
Dont worry guys :D Whatever we said isnt real at all.
Just some gay ass drama :p
And Vinod is gay too :D

Pretty lame entry for today >_<

Goshhhh.

My face were so freaking pale
when i woke up this morning.
It was like i was half-dead.

My mum asked me to accompany her
to do some stuffs this afternoon.
I was too lazy to put on any make up
just mascara :p
and i wore high heels even when
i have a twisted ankle xD

Well here is few pictures of me
with no make-up on
except for mascara and my blue contact lens. :)

*There was tears in my eyes*

*No fake eyelashes , eye shadow or eyeliner*

So almost 90% of my without make-up
face has been shown >_<
Dont vomit guys~

And after she finished doing her stuffs
we went Great Eastern Mall :)
She needed to get her car wash so
we went supermarket and did
a little grocery shopping
for a BBQ birthday celebration
for my grandma and two of my cousin
which is on saturday i think lols.

And i received a sms from a friend saying
'Hey love, Lets go man-hunting'
Lols. Man-hunting? xD
I laughed at the message.
But i am not interested x]
Sorry babe :p
I've FOUND my man :D
And i'm faithful to the one i love :)

Its funny that my brother and i are
having conversation about a girl he likes
these few days xD
His first impression failed!
*Sat bai la you kor :p*
Cant help but laugh about it.
He never fails to make me laugh :)
Although he can be a real pain in the ass sometimes.

Its so freaking boring these days.
i've been stuck at home for about
a month already.
I wanna go out T_T
I'm gonna go insane from staring
at four walls every single day.
But i'm currently back to my cheerful self.
Wonder how long will it last.

And i currently in love with few song,
-Love Drunk by Boys Like Girls :D
-I Wanna by All American Rejects
-Sweet Dreams-Beyonce
-Xiao Pi Qi- Genie Zhou Wen Xuan
-Jie Wo Yi Bei Zi-Gary Cao Ge
l0ls actually there is alot more >_<
But yea awesome songs :p
You guys should check it out~

Hungry >_<
Didnt eat dinner at all~

Well.
I cant think of anything to write now.
So thats all for today :p

Bii~
I love you :)
And i mean it when i say it.

It Effing Hurts T_T

OMFG !! >_<
I went jogging this afternoon as usual.
I was on my 2nd round going downhill.
Suddenly i felt something weird
on my right shoe.
Like something falling off.
I looked at it.
OMFG the bottom came off!
My precious AND1 basketball shoes bought
from Echopark T_T
And its not cheap! >_<
Omg my favorite shoes of all time
is GONE!

So i walked back home to changed to
another pair of shoes since i havent jogged
enough for the day.
After i changed it, i started jogging again.
It wasnt as comfortable as my
dead basketball shoes.
So.. jogging, jogging and jogging~
Suddenly i pulled my left leg muscle
by accidentally putting too much pressure on it
and i twisted my ankle. T_T
It hurts like fuck, but i continued to jog home :)

So yea, Just another bad day for me.
But i am used to it.
Nothing seems right for me nowadays.
Shitty things happens.
But i have to choice but to deal with it.
Telling myself i have to be strong because
being angry about it dosent settle it.
It only make things worst :)

These few days there have been alot
of friends who have been concern
about me :)
Thx guys, i really appreciate it and
sorry to those who called but i rejected it.
I was not in the mood to talk on the phone.
But i am totally fine now guys.
So you are free to scold me >_<

But because of too many advices and
opinions and different point of view,
Its driving me crazy ! >_<
I know you guys are trying to help but
its polluting my mind at the same time.
So i think i'll just stick to my own instincts :)
Thanks anyways guys :p

And i promised a few ppl that i would
smile and be happy each day :)
I will TRY guys :p

Its kinda a short post for today.
Feeling sleepy, headache and
my ankle hurts >_<

'If love can bring you down, makes you cry
and makes you feel like dying means it important
to you.
But if you dont feel this way, it means your love
for something is meaningless'
*quoted by Kent :p*
So baby, Can you see how much you mean to me? :)