14.12.09

Brother and sister.
Vincent chow and Mabel chow.

Brother training muscles in gym.
Sister training muscles at home.
Brother succeeded in tightening the muscles on the arms.
Sister arms has be toned and slim alot.
Brother have huge leg muscles.
Sister have perfectly tone leg muscles.
Brother stomach abs have tighten.
Sister stomach abs have tighten as well.
Brother wants to get a tattoo when he is finished with his body building.
Sister is getting a tattoo soon.

Ahaha xD brother and sister.
Doing the same thing.
Getting the same stuffs.
We compare our muscles every now and then.
There is no bond that is closer than us.
Which is why we are unbreakable :]
*But kor dosent mean you can kick my butt anytime u want T_T*

Went to Sushi king with my brother and my cousin.
Ampang point there~
Sore throat could barely eat anything.
And since there was alot of customers, i wanted to cough
but i kept holding it back.
But few times i couldnt hold it back i covered my mouth
with my hands and coughed T_T
My stomach was hurting due to girls
'Time of the month' if you know what i mean >_<
And i was so cold T_T

Ampang point sushi king.
I last went there was on 09.09.09
When my ex brought me there for dinner trying
to apologize and make me go back to him.
But he failed.
I couldnt find ways to love him back as i've suffered enough.
I told myself i deserve someone better.
Someone who would understand what i want.
Respect me and treat me like how a gf is suppose to be treated.
And not just use me for his sexual desires.

I want a man who will
Love me for who i am.
Not just for the outside me to show off.
But love me for the inside too.
Even when i am in my worst , drenched in rain or
full of sweats.
He would still shows me off to the world.
Or when my clumsiness reveals itself.
Or when my stupidity that can make ppl laugh.
He would still smile or laugh and says 'i love you just the way you are'

But i've found my man.
Who makes me feels loved every sec.
Who makes me smile with every little words of his.
Who makes me feel warm whenever thoughts of him fills my mind.
And i still get butterflies in my stomach with unsteady
heartbeat when i think of him.
When i misses him badly, i want to hug him tight.
But since we are miles apart for now.
I just have to hug the rabbit for now.

Christmas is coming.
Can anyone share with me some ideas of
what to get for guyssssssss for presents >_<
Me and Jia Lin was talking about getting presents for out bf.
Underwear. That was the easiest present to get xD
Haha. But ofcourse i wont get it >_<
Have to go shopping shopping and search for presents~

Ate medicine quite some time ago.
I am feeling sleepy at 12.47am haha.
The effects of the medicine must have started haha.
But its still too early for bed :(
And with me coughing non stop i doubt i can sleep.

Mummy said going to Pavilion tomorrow.
Atleast a plan to pass time. :]

But anyways.
Nights :D

People say 'time will heal' to a wounded heart.
But its wrong, we just learning to live with the pain as time passes.

When i found you, i found the closest thing to heaven.
Next to you, i found the deepest love i knew.
I found myself, When i found you. :]

I know i am lame and boring.
Deal it with.

13.12.09

*Its very rare to see me with my hair tied up :D
Pocky sticks anyone? x3*

Before i start i have 3 words to say to two person.
SCREWWW YOUUU GUYSS!
TO VINOD AND JOHAN!!
hahahahah!

The prank yesterday vinod did was bull man!
Johan had a good laugh too!
And yea johan i know you can do better haha.
OMG! first time in my fucking life hahaha!
And i told Johan about me being an air-stewardess in the future
He said 'you are going to serve me, kristian and vinod.'
OMG! i never thought of that before!
HAHAHAHAH!
And i told vinod about it, now he keep saying how
he is going to torture me and i cant fight back because its
a job as an air stewardess to keep smiling and be polite =_=
DAMN! hahaha i know you guys too well!
Cant wait for us to meet in a plane someday.
Although i know how you guys are gonna torture me
but i know we'll have a good laugh :]
The four of us should meet in a plane one day ;]
As long as its not 'soul plane' hahaha xD

Anywayyyyyysss.
Went to pray today :]
The weather is soooooo hot >_<
Besides that nothing else happened haha.

But at the temple today, two couples were
there taking their wedding pictures ~
So nice >_<
But kinda pity the men who were wearing tuxedo
Its was seriously damn hot today.
But the wedding dresses <3
Goshhhhh >_<>
When am i going to get to wear wedding dresses >_<

Having sore throat :| Keep coughing right now T_T
I got a feeling that i am going to accomplish getting my abs soon~
My stomach is soooo hard xD
I asked my brother to pressed my stomach
He said 'Muscles harden but the shape isnt shown yet'
Thats so true T_T alot more working out to do T_T
I am halfway there >_<>

Ish~
I am having a craving for more pocky sticks
and cupcakes >_<
*cough cough*
Stop coughing please T_T
I know its gonna be worst throughout the night.

Night guys :]

You are perfect to me.

Fuck.You.Vinod. ..l..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
I cant stop laughing!
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!
I am goingggggg crazyyyyy!!

During dinner i received a sms from an oversea
number. The message in it wasnt a very friendly one
instead it said
'Hey baby wanna make love tonight?'
I thought wtf? who the hell send it to me.
I thought maybe some random dude playing around with
numbers from all over the world?
So i didnt give damn. I just ignored it.

Until Mr.Vinod Chandran came online and
we started talking. I told him i got a strange sms from an oversea
number today. He was like 'oh you did? what does it says?'
So i told him and i even told him the number
incase he knows WHO it is.
And he kept telling me to reply it i said no.
Why the hell should i reply when i dunno who it is.
And i have a hint it might be him because he usually says ignore it.
And because of his xD expression and HAHAHA reaction.
But he kept saying no and i though okay maybe its not him
cause he never does have any credit in his phone.
Even when he was in Malaysia, never once he have credit in his phone.
Except few times which got me damn surprised haha.

And i kept telling him to just admit that its him.
He said no and UK code is 23 US is 44.
That point there convinced me.
Because he is in UK.
So kept argueing with the yes and no.
Until he admitted it was him.
I was laughing my assssss offff so muchhhh!
My mum was in my room , she said i've finally gone mad.
I told my brother. He said vinod is such a fag. I couldnt agree more xD
Okay, me mabel chow got pawned by vinod chandran for the 1st time
in 13 going to be 14yrs.

Its like a wide open trapped but i threw myself in.
How stupid could i be? xD
And he start laughing when i said i received a sms from oversea.
All the way till the end.
And here i was frustrated to get an answer from him.

To make it worst.
Vinod said UK code is 23, and US code is 44.
I asked vinod 'wait so you are in US now?'
He replied 'no UK code is 44, i just fucked with you'
WTF !!!!!!! OMGOSHHHHHHHH!!
We were laughing like a bunch of looneys.
I got pawned twice! Twice! by Vinod!
OMG!
Usually its me who gets him for 13yrs and he finally got
me back! The disadvantage of having a friend to memorize your number.
Its a mistake that i made you memorize it back in school!
HAHAHA!

And right now he is so damn proud of himself.
That he have to write
Mabel chow swet sun got pawned by vinod chandran twice!
on his msn personal message.
HAHA.

I admit you got me going back there.
I hate to admit it but i will.
HAHA
Vinod FUCK YOU!
Never fails to make me laugh even when we are miles apart.
This is what i call, a true friend :]
Someone i can depend on for life.
Knowing you have my back, and deal with all the shits i am in.
14 years soon.
I hate vinod i really do.

I am so saving the message.
When you get back we are so gonna have a damn good laugh
when i show it back to you.
Once again, FUCK YOU! :D
I will get you back some day. I swear i will.

11/12/09

Allah, today another sien day.

Woke up at 9am today >_<
Surprising~ Usually i wake up at 11am?
lols.

It was so effing hot todayyy >_<
I got kinda cranky because of the heat haha.
Goshhhhh. I think for 1hr all i did was
hug the rabbit, lying on the bed and
was thinking of nothing.
How amazing was that? haha. very.

Then i started going through my drawers.
Until i found my dairy.
My 5th dairy.
I started a new dairy when i started a brand new me.
But reading thru it.
All there is nothing but sad memories.
The feeling of being betrayed, left out,
when i was totally innocent.
The amount of tears that feel while i was writing in it.
Those tears stains, they are still there on each page.
I was so emo back then.

But after breaking up with my ex,
The entries in my dairy wasnt as emo as before.
Because i finally felt freedom.
And i gained back all my friends whom i
couldnt talk to because of my ex.
I could finally go out with friends after 2yrs.

And after i met this bf of mine,
every entries was a happy one.
Except for a few, because..of something >_<
I love writing in dairy, because i can fully
express myself with anything and everything.
All the inner thoughts and feelings that cannot be told.
Even in blogs, i cant fully
express myself. Some things are
better left unsaid right? :]

Anyways, i went jogging in the afternoon.
With two of my stupid cousins x3
As soon as i got back, bii pmed me on MSN.
I told him i am getting a tattoo next month.
He said to get his name.
I told him to tattoo my name first then i'll tattoo his.
He said okay >_< Really baka bii~

Today it is my uncle's birthday i didnt know.
When everyone in my family came over
to my house i asked my brother 'what day is it today?'
He said 'Uncle's birthday today and yesterday was my aunty's birthday'
Omg i really didnt know >_< So went out for dinner.


The birthday cake is so cuteee~
Christmas birthday cake haha.
Aiyerrrr~The santa and snowman is so cute >_<
When my uncle took out the decorations i was like
noooooo dont touch it >_<

Anyways happy birthday to my uncle
and happy belated birthday to my aunty x]

Once the name is ink our body, it will be there for eternity.
Are you sure you wanna do it bii? >_<
I am just afraid you might regret one day.

baby, its our 3rd monthsary ;]

*Tell me that you love me*

Last night slept at 1am+
But woke up around 4am+ when i saw bii online :]
Tired and sleepy now.

YAY!
My phone finally can be used again~

My mum decided to buy xmas gifts for me and
my brother.
She bought my brother Sony Ericsson Aino phone
lols. both of them using the same phone.
one white, one black.
She asked if i wanted one, i said no.
She asked what i want, i said nothing.
Because i seriously have nothing in my mind.
Infact i do not need any presents.
But she insisted and said i must choose something.
One thing came to my mind was tattoo
because bii said before he wanted me to get one =_=v

My mum said okay to me getting tattoo.
But the problem is where do i get it.
And what should i get.
I am going to be an air-stewardess and no tattoo is
allowed. If i really do get it, i will have to take
alot time to find the right design.
Because its gonna be ink on you for the rest of ur life.
And its gonna be my first fucking ink.
But i wont get it so soon.
Maybe next year? :]

Went to pavilion today.
Havent been there in a long long time.
I finally wore my leopard high heels~
Missed it so much~
But my ankle still pretty much hurt.
I wore shorts out today.
When i was walking with me brother i said
'Kor , look at my leg muscles'
He was like 'i saw it i saw the muscles line'
Haha~ legs perfectly toned ;]
Even though it looks pretty muscular but since i am tall
and with high heels it looks super sexy ;3
Next mission getting my abs.
Might take awhile and alot of work out >_<
Hope i have the patience haha. When i wan something i tend
to be abit impatience >_<

On the way home, inside the car.
My mum asked if i really wanted a tattoo
I said maybe. Then she told my brother,
'Your sister really not afraid of pain at all'
My brother said
'She is like american girl attitude. Not afraid of pain,
what also not afraid. Just one thing different is
american ppl eats bugs but she is damn scare of bugs'
Hahaha >_<>
I have phobia of bugs. Even the tiny-est bugs i am afraid.
So if anyone just hold a bug in their hand and walk towards
me i will scream and run as far as i can =_=v
Bii~ dont scare me with bugs >_<

But honestly, if my mum wasnt so strict.
I would probably have chin piercing, belly piercing
and tongue piercing. These 3 piercing was what i desired
when i was 15 or 16 i forgot. But obviously my mum
said no. But kinda thank god that i didnt do all those.
If i did, wonder how i would look like in others eyes.

Right now, 1.47am, 11th dec 2009.
Its me and baby 3rd monthsary.
Yay~ i broke bii's record~ :p
Happy 3rd monthsary bii~
I loveeee youuuuu.
Mwarksss.
Thank you for still loving me~

Gosh, really tired right now.
Night guys .
Kinda short post for today :|

The reason i continue to breathe is because of you.
You came into my life and gave meaning to it.
I am smiling everyday because you once said you love my smile.
As long as you are around i will keep smiling for you.
And i know even when i am frowning, with your presence
the frown will eventually turn around :]
I really really love you so damn much! x3

Fooked.Up.Day.

*Xiao Ser is mine, hands off him girls ;3*

FUCKKK!
BAD MOOD!
MCB KNS KNN MAHAI CCB!

GOSH!
Nothing goes my way today.
not even one.
Just woke up to find that bii got a bad incident.
Got me worried sick.
When he went offline and i wanted to text him.
But the worst thing that could happen at the
wrong time.
My phone got BARRED! WTF?!
I wanted to comfort bii, let him know i am still there.
But i couldnt!! OMFG!
The whole day i couldnt help but feel bad not able to be there for him.

In the late afternoon, wanted to go jogging.
But my ankle felt weak so i thought
i might as well just practiced my dancing.
Not long, my mum called and ask me to go upstairs
and have dinner.
I thought might as well accompany her have dinner then
i can continue later.
But after dinner she called me to help her decorate
some stuffs. I have no choice but to say okay.
Barely even started, her friend called.
and she talked for hours on the phoneeeee.
And it was 8pm already T_T
So i just opened the door , went outside and sat outside
the staircase. Dark dark night.
Cooling with the wind breezing in.

And we finished the decoration at 9pm+
i think.
Saw bii's smses to me.
For some reason, after reading it there was a strange
feeling in me, what was it?
I took my mum's phone and texted him.

Then my mum wanna complain to me
about my dad and asking me to deal with him.
SIGHS. again.

After taking a quick shower,
internet was being a bitch.
so was facebook.
Me and jia lin got uber pissed.
Started swearing like fuck.

Both of us posted the same sentence on our fb status.
你是我的独家记忆,我却不是你的独家回忆.
You're my sole memory, but I'm not the only in your memories.
Something that describes our feelings :]

BIIII!
I am so sorry i couldnt sms you today.
Sorry sorry sorry T_T
Bii you should know i will always reply ur smses >_<
Except for today cause stupid digi barred me T_T
Baby dont be baka >_<
We are not like those spouses that have been married
long long time.

Baby, sorry.
Its true that we dont look like a couple in anyway.
But that dosent mean i dont love you like one.
I am sorry things have to be and feel this way.
I am sorry i cant give you everything yet.
I am sorry i cant be there when you need me.
I am sorry i cant see you when you wan to see me.
But lets not rush things bii~
'We still got our whole life to be with each other.'
Thats what you told me.
Even if we dont look like one or feel like one.
One day, we will.
So lets just continue what we are suppose to do.
Better ourself :]
Mwarks bii.. once again i am so sorry.
And i love you.

For awhile i thought of letting you go so you could find
someone else better.
But only tears fell from my eyes and i realized,
i love you too much to let you go.

09/12/09

Last night i have to sleep earlier.
And bii said dai sei to me T_T
I hate you bii T_T

Woke up and went out with my mum,
brother and grandma.
Early in the morning, my mum and brother
was pissed at each other.
I was the middle person again ofcourse.
A messenger =_=..

Went to Alor Gajar to pray.
Then reached back kl at 4pm+
Went to my mum's friend saloon for something.
The saloon where i regularly do my hair there.
The boss said my hair colour is shit, and
my hair is in a mess and he wants to help me redo it.
My mum said ok when she is free, me and her will
do our hair together~ Hehehe ;D

Reached home, as usual,
my brother went to gym.
Went jogging, went back and i quickly went
plugged in the stereo to my laptop. ;D
Continue dancing!! haha.
My ankle is going to completely heal soon.
After 2months :]
I can finally wear high heels back and ofcourse jog and
dance with no worries anymore.
Whee! I can see my abs line coming back.
Ngek ngek~ Gonna continue working on it.
Until i get the perfects abs i want. ;D

Was talking to Jia Lin on MSN.
HAHAHAHA!
Laughed like fucking mad ppl.
*And no babe, no OATS in my house!
If you are gonna bring oats its either you stay OUTSIDE
my house or THROW them away before you come in xD
Ahaha~ What happened to bringing good food in my house!
ISH!*
And the best thing one friend could even said to me was
'You should fast fast have sex'
HAHAHAHA!
Laughed like hell ~ What kind of friend would say that xD
A very good one.
And she even have to add 'ENJOY' at the end. xD

We made all the plans when she comes over to my house~
2nights 3days or 3night 4days.
1st day- shopping till 5pm, go sauna and jacuzzi .
1st day relax 1st~
2nd day- Jogging, dancing, swimming, sauna and jacuzzi.
*Babe can you handle it? ;3*
3rd day- Golf? exercise? or chill at home and bake stuffs ;3
*if she is staying for 4days*
Hurry up and come over already haha.
I need a new bikini!

Downloaded so many old songs :]
Like westlife songs, backstreet boys, aaron kwok, etc etc
Have to send them to my phone later~
So when i go jogging next time i can listen to it :]
Each songs, brings back one different memories.
Happiness, sadness, heartbroken-ness.
Especially Aaron Kwok- Wei Yi Se Cai.
That feeling i have when i heard it, cannot be described :]
Repeating it over and over again.

Too tired to write more.
My panda eyes =_= sighs.

Bii why do i love you so damn much? ;3