i am just a fool in love with another fool :]

Today not a very special day nor exciting
day but just wanna update my blog.

Went to KLCC with mummy today.
Its been a long time since we've both
went shopping.
Bought jackets from Zara and Giordano.
Underwear from TopShop :D
Kinda upset cause the Elmo underwear i saw last
month isnt there anymore.
Now its all superheros -_-.

Even Zara t-shirts are supergirl
and spider girl? lols?

Omg i hateeee my mum T_T
She passed by Coach, not only did she passed by
but she went in, looked for the bag
i loved and wanted, and said
'Do you want it?'.
*Ofcourse i want it! who the hell doesnt want a
coach bag?*
'NO' i said.

Sighhhhhhhhhs.
I hate it when things turns out this way T_T.

But i really appreciate the clothes she bought
for me :]
Its been long since she last bought
clothes for me.

*In the morning, had a bad hair day.
decided to tie my hair up.
Taken before baby called me :]

*With my hair down, messy -_-.
After i got home, decided to try on
my jackets.

Bii said he had a surprise for me.
I asked him
'Need to deliver to my house?'
'No.'
'On facebook?'
'Nothing to do with online'.

While we were talking on the phone
i was frying some rice hahaha.
Which ofcourse as usual, i accidenly
spilled some out, i dont know how.

Obviously bii wouldnt tell me what the surprise is.
Some how i said
'Since the surprise is tomorrow meaning there
is no surprise at all since its April fool'
*Silents. He laughed*
'How did you know!!' he asked.
Hahahahah!
I am so smart!

But the stupidest thing i did was to say
'I wanted to fool you about breaking up
tomorrow but since you know its
april fool i cant do it anymore'
The surprising thing?
He wanted to do the same, and both of
us thought about this idea months ago.

Epic so failed.

Then i was talking, he wasnt listening.
'I want to break up, you always dont listen to what
i say, i am fed up.'
And he was saying pls pls pls and i said
'Does it look like i am joking with you?'

I was sooooooooo sure i almost got him
until i accidently said
'I am serious BII'
I was praying that he didnt hear that.
'What did you said? You called me bii just now'
And he started laughing. When i heard him
laugh i couldnt help but laugh with him.
And i cant put on my serious tone of voice.

EPIC FAILED!

My baby 'nah' and 'pui' me.
He is just mad just cause i found out his surprise :p
There is always next year bii :p

I was reading astrology yesterday~
About capricorn(bii) and pisces(me).

Its hard to believe but i was so right all along.
As to how and why we are together.
Opposite attracts :]
Pisces is a dreamer whereas Capricorn is a realist.

The zodiac match of a Capricorn man and a Pisces woman
has all it takes to lead to long-term compatibility.
His strong personality will be the perfect support
for her fragile, vulnerable self.

He will make her feel secured and in time,
she will also help him come out of his shell
and express his emotions.
She will never ever try to dominate him
and will be like the wife who stands behind her husband,
as he conquers the whole world.

The relationship shows the highest rate
in the compatibility love chart.

Simply meant to be :]

Happy April Fools to you guys :D

You always know how to make me laugh.
Call me meatball again and i'll call you
'pai guat'.
You know breaking up is impossible :]
No one can believe how loyal and faithful i've
become. I used to flirt all day but after i met you,
i distant myself from guys. And i found myself
so in love with you. I was never like this.

7monthsary coming up :]

its time to forget and move on.

Bii, whatever you did in the past
is the past.
And whatever you did i have forgiven you.
But sometimes there are just pains that
you cant heal.
Infact time doesnt heal, we are just learning
how to live and deal with the pain.

There is no need to do anything special for me
as a forgiveness.
Because how we were in the past i truly
understand which is why i didnt blame
you but myself.

But then again, if that incident didnt happened,
would you realized whom you wanted?
would you realized how hard it is
to let a important person go?
And would you realized that it was me?
So therefore we should be thankful too.

I wasnt angry at you bii.
And i know those words i said were harsh.
Sometimes we have to punish those who misbehave
so they'll know what they did was wrong. ;D
I am sorry for saying words i shouldnt have said,
and words that hurt you. :(

Infact since everything is the past, just
broken down memories,
you dont have to feel guilty anymore.

No matter how many times that crappy incident might
haunt me from time to time,
it doesnt mean i will leave you and give up on you.

Those tears i've cried, the pain that i've
gone through, the time i've waited,
it wasnt in vain. But it was all worth it.

Those spaces in between my fingers wasnt
there for no reason.
It was there all along just waiting for the right
person to fill them in.
And yours fits perfectly.
I am sure our hand is joined up for a purpose.
The purpose of love.

I know how hard you have to work each day,
and how much problems you have on
your mind.

Which is why at the end of the day,
on the phone with you,
I would just say anything to make you laugh.
Acting like a child, with my stupid imaginations,
thats how i got the name 'Soh Bii' from you.
Being able to hear you laugh is enough to brighten my day.

Seeing you working so hard, i tell myself
i have to work harder too if i want
to get into college with you.
But from time to time i might have to trouble you.
As you know i am a super troublesome girl x]

That wasnt our 1st argument yet bii.
Now that you know how harsh my words can be
when i am in a not-so-good-mood,
please distance yourself away from me when
that happens again. I dont want it
to affect you.

2.42am. The phone call is still on,
the time is still ticking away,
and your sleeping.
I can hear your breathing and just realized
i've existed in another day of yours
and starting a new day with you in a few hours time.

You may have live in the world 3yrs without me,
but i've never live in the world without you.
We may have probably passed by each other
millions of times.
Never noticing each other.
But after 17yrs of my life, you found me.

And you changed my life,
my personality, my everything.
So you see, you play a damn important role in
my life.
Is it possible to live without you now? :]

And i was jk about updating my blog for me bii.
You have enough things to do at work already :]

Mother-in-law aka bii's mummy,
texted me asking me a question.
Surprisingly i answered it correctly,
i love having great memory.

After few messages later we said our goodnights
and she said she love me :]
I got this warm feeling from her :]
Texted her back saying 'i love you too'.
Feeling blessed to be loved by them.

he made my life better than fairytales.

Walaoeh~
I dont know what happened to me in the morning!
Contact lens put on, take out, change.
Repeating it for 10mins.
After that make up, 1st time screwed up.
Removed it, removed lens, washed face
and redo again.
Sucks again, repeated the same process and redo
again without contact lens as my eyes
were hurting.

Not used to seeing myself without lenses.
Removed again.
I decided to give my eyes some rest as my eye lids
were hurting already. So i went out
without make up.

Met up with bii later.
He kept laughing at me for looking like a kid
without make up >_<.
Keep calling me little girl!

So i decided to go to the washroom
and get my make up done.
Bii was kinda shocked to know how much
make up can change a girl's appearance.
He kept asking me 'how did ur eyes get so big suddenly'
I dont know but it just did >_<.

But he likes me without make up.
*So he can call me little girl*
He says i am like a 2 different person.
One innocent and kiddish look.
Another one is mature and i-dont-know xD

He put his arms around my shoulder
and i was playing with his fingers, guess what he did?
Points middle finger at me.
Points back middle finger at him.
'Fuck you' he said to me.
I forgot what i said back to him.
'You are suppose to say fuck me when i said fuck you' said my bf.
'Fine, fuck me' said me.
He gives a evilish smile.

6months ago we were
hardly-talk-to-each-other-at-all.
Look at us now.
Pointing middle finger to each other.
Making fun of each other.
And i am very sure we just love to tickle each other.
Because i sure do :p my bii's weakness~
Ngek ngek~ ;D

Oh i almost forgot!
My bii is VAINER than i am!
I thought i am the vain one who is crazy
about camwhoring but hahaha.
My boyfriend is THE vain one who always says
'Because i am leng zai'

Fine, i admit you are.
Which is why i stare at you all the time thinking
how did i get such a good-looking boyfriend.
But i know the answer is
'Because i am leng lui'
Ahahaha xD. I am jk about my answer.

Both of us got drenched in the rain dont ask how.
Hope baby wont get sick.
He have to work, and he doesnt have medicine with him :(
Take care of yourself bii.

When i got home my brother asked for his PSP.
Him: My psp give me.
Me: Oh shit i forgot to take it back from him.

Opens my bag just gave him his phone battery
and closed my bag.
*To act like as tho i really dont have it with my
damn-i-am-gonna-die expression on my face*
His face expression changed drastically like as if he
was about to eat me alive.

Him: Fuck you la, i told you many times already and you
still forget !!!!
Took out the PSP and threw it next to him.
Me: Damn no fun one la you.
He tries not to laugh. But ended up laughing.
GOTCHA xD

Because of going to Taiwan on the 6th.
I made my friend postponed his entry for his
hair competition.
Yup i am his model :D
19th getting my hair done.
22nd photo shooting. Hope he wins it :]

Oh i almost forgot again.
I just wanna say 'Go Fuck Yourself' to someone :]
I wont say who but i am sure you know who you are
if you still do read my blog.
And how many times must i tell you to check
the word CHEAP before you use it on someone?
Know why i ignored you instead of shouting back?
Because this is an act of HIGHLY EDUCATED person.

And what you did was LOWLY EDUCATED which makes
you cheaper than what you already are and that
my dear just made me worth 100 times than what
i was before. So thank you :]
..l.. a little gift for you. hope you like it. :D

2.17am. Time for bed.
Have to call baby to wake up at 7am.

Can you feel the magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me.
Fortunate isnt measure by money, but by
how much blessing and love you get
from your other half :]

goodbye coach, hello new watch.

*I miss youu

Morning went to Lot10 with my mum,
brother and cousin sister.
my brother and i went to Sg wang to collect
shampoos and stuffs.And he went to look for his friends. I sat
and wait -_-.

Went to Pavilion after awhile.
My mum kept asking if i wanted the Coach bag.
I have no choice but to say no.
Sometimes just because we love something doesnt
mean we have to get it.
Ahhh, so long and goodbye my love coach bag T~T.

But my mum kept saying why dont i want
anything anymore.
Why am i refusing things from her already.
Sometimes we all have to control our desires mummy.
Understand me. Like how i understand you.

Its always like this.
Whenever you buy something for me we end
up having mini argument.
But whatever you choose and buy for me,
i will always appreciate it much.
Especially at times like this.

*With the watccchhh.
Ellesse brand. At the price of RM400.

I still find it hard to believe i said NO to a branded bag.
Coach. A coach bag. Limited edition some more.
Applause for me please.
My brother said buy now think later.
I am not you kor!
Proves that i am not greeeeedy!
Gosh my heart hurts T~T coach bag sayonara~

Everyday i am saying coach coach coach.
I must have really loved it.
Unbelievable. haha.

Havent walked for so long.
My feet hurts. :(
When i go taiwan its gonna be early in the morning
walk till the next morning.
Meaning 1 or 2am T~T.

Empty stomach.
Except bread in the late afternoon.
Bii is gonna kill me if he knows T~T.
Shh~ Might as well let him read it from here >_<.
He wants me meaty meaty but i dont want T~T.

On the phone moments ago he asked from
the 1st day i met him till now how much weight have i lost.
Actually i am not so sure but i think between 5-10kg.
He said he loved me better when i was fatter.
I still am fat bii!!
Okay so i decided to see my 6mths ago picture and now.

*6mths ago.*

*December 2009*

*28 March 2010*

See not alot right?
Okay fine maybe its alot.
*Look at my face shape*
I am sorry biii !! >_<
Maybe being fatter than my boyfriend is not my thing.

*But see i am still chubby x]
Everyone loves pinching my cheeks T~T

Bii sent me a message saying
'Imagine, next time my baby cutting our son
or daughter hair and they keep complaining bout their
mummy. Isnt it so great? =)'

After reading it, i get this very warm feeling.
The warm-ness of thinking about
our very own family in the future.
A happy one with smiles, laughter and maybe
kids with tears after scolding them.

I am already thinking of my future family
at the age of 18 where most teenage would just
think where and how to have fun.

I must be seriously in love.
Knowing he is the one for me.
Knowing he is the perfect man for me.

The search for my future husband is over.
You are the one i only need.
1.17am. waking up at 8am later.
And i'll see you in the afternoon.
Gosh the excited feelings fills me up again.
I love you bii.

1 week without baby = gg.com

Yesterday night before going to bed i dont
know why i had this weird feeling in me.
The feeling that is so i-dont-know-how-to-explain.
Its like the feeling of fear of losing someone i love.
The fear of losing someone so damn important to me.

It was so hard for me to fall asleep.
But because of my headache somehow i did.
But bii called afterwards.
And i could hardly talk because i was still
struggling to get out of dreamland.

Today woke up feeling crappy.
Why? Ughh. I got my time of the month
yesterday but the pain started today.
omfg -_- hate waking up in the morning with pains.

Went out, came back home.
Bii called. Had our conversation till 7+
and i did my exercise for 2hrs.
I know i know, we are not suppose to exercise while
having period but i cant help it -_-.

So after a shower, i blew curls
instead of straight ;D
*applause to myself*
it took me almost an hr to finish it.
curling iron only need 10mins -_-.

*Without make up, how classic. -_-
Look at the curls x]*
And yes thats a pimple on my cheek.
Double classic.

*Me and kaka~*

*Both of them caught in the act!
Kissing? my dogs are lesbians omg.

My bii is in love with my petville pet more
than me. :(
He stares at it all the time.
He doesnt even stare at me for more than 1min.
I know i am not pretty to start at but still -_-.

6th of April i am going to Taiwan.
For a week.
omg omg omg omg!
You might all think its a good news for me but infact
its not. I mean its awesome i can finally go back
to my so-called second home but
1week without my baby? 1week?
1week? 1 freaking week?

And no, no phone calls for 1 week!!
OMG WTF!
How am i to survive? how am i to sleep?
How can i let him know that i miss him?
And how do i know if he's not cheating on me when i
am not around ;(
How how and how?

Is it possible to stuff my baby into my luggage? :p
Since he is pretty thin.
Thinner than me o(T~T)o
Which is why i am keeping fit but he keep asking me
to put on more weight which is totally
IMPOSSIBLE~!
You should put on more weight bii. Yes you not me.

Its 2.19am right now and he's
on the phone with me but not talking.
He is sleeping :]
I can hear him breathinggggg.
ehh is that a snore i hear? O_O
Nahhhh its not :( just breathingggggg.
SNORE BII!!

Sighs. I really dont know how the fuck
can i survive without him for 1 week.
I cant even survive without him for maximum
1hr? make it 10mins. nvm make it 1sec.
Yes that is how much i need him.
I've never felt so clingy to a man. never.

Whenever i am going overseas and if i have a bf
i would say 'cheh just a week, i definitely can survive'
look at me now! whining already when i am not gone!!
omg pls dont tell me i might cry when i board the plane -_-.

If he calls before i board the plane i can confirm
i will cry. Especially since i am such a emotional freak.
But obviously i wan to hear his voice before i leave.
or maybe when i am in taiwan, i can steal my mum's
phone and make a quick 5mins call :p
yea i should do that.

Nixon Ng Chia Wen aka Xiao Ser!!
Can you see how much i love, need and miss you? :(
Last night when i said 'I love you, dont leave me'
My tears fell because of my fear of losing you one day.
But i meant it when i said it.

But you keep giving surprises.
I know you expect them back from me but
give me time.
Time to think of one that might make you cry. :p
No matter how many times or whoever said
' i love you more than you love me '
we both know we are just loving each other with
much more than what we have and could possibly love.

I'll be back before you know it hubby.
With your clothes, mother-in-law's gifts, and so much more.
Just make sure you dont fool around when i am not here ;(
But i know and trust you wont. :]

Why oh why do i still get all excited and girlish with
those heart beating crazily feeling when i miss you?
You said you dislike me for being 'too perfect'.
I know i'll find the REAL answer one day.
We are a perfect match.
A match made not in heaven but a place
much greater than that.
My fate and your fate, are combined as one now.

endless surprises x]

Yesterday bii said he will give me surprise.
But ofcourse its something i never expected.
Especially not on facebook -_-.

He called me all of a sudden in the morning and
asked if i would be home at around 1pm.
I said i wasnt sure as i was going to go out soon and asked
him why. He said he have a surprise for me
and he wants to deliver it to my house.

I said you can deliver it to my house as my
grandparents will be home to help me
accept it. He said he wants me to receive it by
my own hands so change day.

The whole day i kept asking him what the surprise
was and he kept saying no he wont tell me.
Obviously no one would but i get very impatient
when it comes to surprises.

He smsed me and gave me 3 clues.
1st clue: Related to ur daily DIY job.
*pls dont think dirty things -_-v*
2nd clue: can see cannot eat.
3rd clue: Flying without wings.

I kept thinking and thinking and thinking
but i cannot think what it is.
And he texted me later saying he was drunk.
I wanted to use that chance to get him to tell me :p
But failed! ish T_T

But after he asked me to login facebook
and opened petville
this is what i saw.

*Aiks ~ Damn pretty~

*Alice in wonderland*

*Kiss my baby!*

He always gives me unexpected and
all of a sudden surprises.
Gosh. what else surprise is there to come?

This afternoon, i was in great eastern mall.
My mum was having tea with her friend,
and bii smsed me saying he needs to hear my voice badly.
My excuse, was to go MPH bookstore =_=v
and called him.

I saw this book titled
'Man wants sex, Woman needs love'
ahaha xD so true.

After i walked back to my mum,
her eyes were teary and she said
one of my friend's
*whom mother is also her close friend*
father passed away.

And my brother was like
'why are you guys making a big deal out of it'

i told him.
'You never lost a friend once so therefore
you will never know how one is going thru.
if one day one of ur friend is gone, dont blame
me for laughing for the words you said today.'

Sometimes you really need to watch ur words.
I dont want give u another slap.
You should know my temper when i am pissed.

Fuckkk. my head hurts like a bitch.
Medicine? does not word.
ahhh. eff it. who cares.
Happens all the time x]

Its unbelievable how much one person can change
when they are in love.
Deeply amazing.
Maybe love really can conquer everything?
Who knows?
Baby, I DO appreciate you. :]

motivating myself to lose 10kg haha.

Yesterday shitty shitty day.

During the afternoon time i got bad news
and my brother got involved in a car accident.

Thank god he was fine but the car wasnt.
I dont have his car photo and i dont
wanna ask from him >_<.

Went to the police station to make a report.
Walaoeh~ waited for 4hours.
Some more i waited in the car T_T
cause my mum brought one of my dog out >_<.
It started raining heavily.
Thunder boom here boom there T_T.

And the wind current walaoeh >_< damn strong!
i watched all the rubbish bin outside
being blown away whee~
and the car really felt like it could be blown away any min~
its was moving sideways. to be honest i was abit afraid -_-v

bii called me. Thank god he did T_T
If not i might die of boredom T_T.
The car was cold even after the aircon was off.

*my random photography shot 1.

*Random photography shot 2.

*Feels so emo >_<

*Emo-inggggg

* toy poodle miki~

Around 9pm+ i finally reached home.
I never missed my room so much T_T.

This morning called bii at 8am to wake him up
for work. But he kept sleeping back.
After 20mins he finally woke up.

Took 2 of my dogs out to pet saloon.
They finally got a haircut!
But kaka look like a guy already T_T ish.

*Hugo in the car. busy body looking behind

*my kaka. you see so ugly already T_T

* But i still love her.

This afternoon, my mum and her friend was
having a tea.
I kept quiet whenever her friend is around.
So he thought i am that emo emo type girl with
super negative thinking.

Then he started telling my mum that i am only
18 and i shouldnt be affected so much
with her problems, i should go have fun.
And many many other things.

But once i started talking to him i said
'I am not negative or neither am i emo.
I just like having my mind drifting somewhere else.
Just because i dont smile at all times doesnt mean
i am sad or whatever.
Yesterday my brother and mother was down but
i was happily chatting with my bf on the phone.
No matter how worst things can get i believe in
one sentence my whole life.
'Everything has a good side''

His eyes were widen.
He said 'thats the kind of girl i never expect from you.
a 18 and so mature. keep it up. i like it.'

People usually dont expect me to have
such mature thinking.
I dont know why. Maybe they think at the
age of 18 all teenage wants is just to have fun?

I am not all about having fun at all.
I am all about success and money-making.
Because i realize without these, its not easy to survive.
And i dont like or want to rely on a man
to take care of me and i just stay home and be a
house wife. Thats not my style.

I am independent, strong and i believe i can be smart.
My bii calls me tou fu. Meaning soft/weak.
I am going to prove it to him i am not.
He is the tou fu :p

its only 10.41pm why am i sleepy alreadyyy?
Diet diet diet.
Dont wan be meaty meaty~
dont want to have fats for bii to pinch ;3