squeals*

Currently 7.21pm.
Just finished dinner.
Nothing tastes better than home cooked meal.
Too bad bii have to work =(
If not he would be having dinner with me at home.

Currently sitting at my balcony.
Nothing feels better than 'fresh' polluted air.
And wind breezing across me.

This afternoon, accompanied my cousin sister
to the clinic along with my mum.
She had to get an operation done or should i say
stitches? =(

I wanted to wait outside cause i couldnt stand
the sight of flesh and blood.
But she needed me. She needed to hold my hand.
It was really hard for me to watch.
Even with my head turned aside, when she held on tight
to both of my hands she cried in pain.
Her sweaty palms, squeezing on to my hand so tightly.
That the blood of my hands stopped flowing.
And my fingers turned purple.
But even though it was painful, she didnt cried a tears.
But my mum and i were weak from seeing it =_=v
Shes such a strong girl =]
The doctor looked at me after she finished and gave me an evil smile.
Just cause i whined when she did my operation =_=

Reached home, called baby.
His voice stills make me smiles.
Still, yesterday was like a dream but it was reality =]

Okay i have been squealing the whole time on twitter.
What was it about?
*SQUEALS!*

Baby said if i am going to Taiwan next month,
he wants to follow too!
*Squeeeeaaaallss*
*getting all excited for no reaons tho =_=v*
Its not confirm yet but still him wanting to come along
just to be with me in a place far away.
Its way beyond what i expected from him.

I mean just imagine yourself with your loved one.
In a place across the world.
The feeling is so different.
Its like a fucking fairytale.
And someone who would go that far with you and just to be with you.
Wouldnt you feel you are the luckiest person alive?
Wouldnt you feel that you have finally found someone who loves
you with all their heart and treasures you to bitsy itsy pieces?

Well, i for one sure have =]
When i thought i was the only one who is silly around him,
he is much more sillier around me.
Laughed on the phone so much.
He kept asking me not to go Singapore =(
But bii i am sorry, it is confirmed.
Right now at this moment, i am missing him .
To the point where no words can describe how much i miss him.
I still get butterflies when i think of him.
Its enough to tell myself how much i love him.

We just started being official.
And started seeing each other more often.
But who knew, we have such limited time.
It hurts me that i still cry when i think about it.

But i know i will always stay faithful to this man of mine.
Because we are engaged.
But i am still waiting for my ring bii ;D
Its not official without the ring you know ;D
And i know him being my fiancee now, he will be my husband
few years later.

8pm right now.
I watched the skies turned dark.
wondering what is stupid bii doing.
I'll call him later tho :]

I cant live without this stupid but yet smart bii.

I cant even survive without you for a day.
Tell me how am i gonna survive when i am GONE.
Please tell me how baby.
You are the best thing i never knew i needed.
And its so clear that i need you with me.
Gosh you are making me crazy over you!
And you says it me who makes you crazy over me!
But the truth, we are just crazily in love with each other =]

4th monthsary baby :]

Met up with baby today :]
Its his birthday.
He was 2hrs late.
I wanted to be mad at him.
But when he adorably smiled at meeee my
heart melted and i could never be mad at him. never.

Instead of giving him 'normal presents'
like how every other people would give as presents
on birthdays or any occasions.
I decided to write him a letter and made
a heart origami with money.
I felt that money doesnt matter.
Infact its really the thoughts that counts.

Bii, that was my 1st time making a heart shape
out of money >_<
Sorry if it was ugly.
And forgive me for my stupid handwriting >_<.
But i am really glad you liked it.

I was never born in a world without you.
We share the same skies, breathe in the same air.
Been to the same places at a different time.
And who knew friends we knew were somehow connected.
But fate has decided to bring us to know each other on 4th Sept.
And brought us much more closer on 11th Sept.
That was when our love story begins.

But today 10th Jan.
We shared a moment.
A moment that i never expected it to happen between us.
But it did.
I felt closer to you.
Whenever i think about it, i get this weird feeling in me.
The feeling of falling madly in love.
A new chapter has just begun, a love that have grown
stronger.

Bii, i'll say it once more here and let everyone know.
Its your hands i'll hold till the day i die.
i WONT leave you, and thats a PROMISE.
If i ever do, you can use that letter and make me feel guilty =_=v
Its your hands i'll hold till the day i die.

Although people say its too early to be deciding and saying one thing.
But i'll say it once more.
'He will be my very 1st and last husband'.

Honestly this is my 1st time to write a letter and make a heart
as a present to anyone.
It felt a little weird giving him to him >_<
I was so so so so so afraid he will not like it.
But i really just wanted to give him something that he can
carry with him around so even if i am not there with him
in person, my 'heart' is still with him 24/7 =]

My mum said she really likes my boyfriend so much more
better than my ex-boyfriend.
She admitted she HATES TERRY but has just kept quiet about it.
I told her that me and him isnt friends anymore, and i told
her the story why it happened.
She said 'Ask him to say those words infront of me, no balls asshole'
and i believe 100% of my friends hated him as well.
Yup, that was how much of a JERK he is.
I wonder how the hell did i stand him for 2years?
I must have been nuts.

But who cares about my ex?
Its all about ME and HIM now.
Its all about MABEL and XIAO SER.
Its all about a girl who would do anything for her man.
And a man who would sacrifice anything for his girl.
But in my theory is
'its about a man who makes his girl soh soh dei jor T_T'
Pity me T_T

I am really sleepy right now.
I'll stop this post here.

and Happy 4th monthsary to us bii =]

The moment i hugged you, i didnt wanna let go.
When our body touched i just wish time would just end.
The warmth i felt in me.
It was simple breath taking.
I have such short time left with you.
How am i gonna survive without you hubby? =(
I LOVE YOU!

Happy bday bii =]

10/01/2010.
2.56am.
Happy birthday baby :]
Sorry for wishing it pretty late on my blog.
But i was doing something for you.
Pretty lame but its the thoughts that counts right? >_<

Cant wait to see you soon.
I miss you so much =(

its time to get serious.

Woke up this morning.
Looked at my phone.
5smses from bii >_<
Shocked me~

I texted him saying i just woke up and he called me =_=v

Went out with my mum for awhile.
To throw my stupid dog to a pet saloon.
And ate my breakfast and went home.

After reaching home.
Back to studying timeeeeeeeee.
Took out all the things i needed to the balcony.
I prefer reading at the balcony.
Feeling the wind breezing through me.
And a little sunshine doesnt hurt anyone x]
Plus the laptop in my room in a bigggg distraction.
It stops me from studying so yea balcony was my only option =_=v

Kept studying and kept smsing bii.
There was a passage i didnt understand but he called
and explained it to me ❤
Such a helpful bii ❤

While reading halfway.
I took my camera and put it on my table so that
i wont misplace it.
But somehowwwwwwww.
My biggest distraction was the camera =_=
I dont know how i ended up taking the camera and started
camwhoring =_=
I texted bii telling him to hit me cause instead of reading i started
taking randommmm picturesss.

*The table filled with my stuffs =_=*

*=]*

*Bites the pen*
*Baby said he love this picture❤*

Maybe you guys are thinking, books like
those are nothing but plain boring tales.
Actually you are wrong.
It is indeed very very addicted.
From the very 1st page when you start reading you can slowly
feel the change in your thinking.
And feel that you should know what to do and what not to do.
But reading isnt everything in these books.
After reading you must APPLY what you have read into
your life only then you can succeed.
Dont believe?
Pick yourself a copy of it from the bookstore =]

Everyday few calls a day with baby❤
And each calls isnt just few mins but almost an hour.
I feel myself getting closer and closer to him.
I am learning more and more about him.

But there are times where i just cant find a topic
to talk to him about.
Infact i dont talk to anyone much these days.
Wonder if its because i am worrying about some problems.
To the point where there are times i would just wake
up in the middle of the night. And big loss of appetite daily.

And bii just made me went into a more deeper
thinking of my dreams.
Something i really want and its just not a mere interest
nor dream. Something that i want to achieve it
to a level as successful as anyone could.
But what it is? I dont know.

But to be honest. When you ask someone.
What is your dream? What is it that you want?
You get the same answer.
To be rich. Am i not right?
But for what purpose do you want to be rich for?
And what job field are you gonna do to be rich?
You cant just sit and wait for money to drop from the sky now can you?

Think about this question to urself =]
You'll find it helpful.

More to think.More to do.
Have to find some part time job soon.
I am dying as each sec passes.

Bii, what am i gonna do without you?
After your birthday, its our 4th monthsary the next day =]
Its your longest relationship isnt it? =p
Trust me, I am the last girl you'll hold hands with.
And you are the last guy my lips will kiss.
Thanks bii.
Its time to get serious. Sit down and think straight.

baby, i love you.

*Continues*

Woke up at 8am.
Did house chores early in the morning again.
And because i needed to wait for my mum
to wake up to confirm with me if i could go
out with bii today.

So waited until 9am+
and she said okay.
So got ready and went out at 12pm.

My eye bags (panda eyes) was so so so bad!
And my eyes kept closing.
But the heart beating of excitement to see bii kept me awake.

Reached timesquare.
Met bii at main entrance.
Today he kept lying me with words again >__
He said he didnt get the movie tickets.
I said its fine and we were deciding on where and what to eat.
He said i have to do the decision. But i suggested rock scissor paper =_=v
i won but bii still didnt wanna make the decision!!
He said because he bought movie tickets already i said show it.
He took out his wallet but said he was just kidding with me.
Kept the wallet back.
Then i said since he didnt get the tickets then make the decision.
He took out the movie ticket. I was hahaha inside my mind.
The whole time i believed that he didnt get the movie tickets when he has!

Ate at Food&Tea.
Walked around and bii bought a couple
handphone keychain.

Took few pictures <3>*Stupid dak yii bii~See my face T_T and panda eyes T_T*

*Two is better than one. A love so true*

Watched avatar.
I wanna be a navi :p so cool~
Bii's arms around me tight <3
I believe bii will laugh or smile at what happened in the cinema.
*BII I KNOW YOU SMILING NOW!!*

After we stepped out of the cinema.
Even without looking at each other we kept smiling.
And laugh when we look at each other.
His smile was so evil. so yam!

And bii scare me again!
He asked me where was his phone.
Because i was playing with it while walking to the cinema
but i remembered i gave it back to him.
He said he dont have it and even checked my bag.
I was so scare thinking that i lost it.
Then i looked at him, he smiled.
YOR! 2nd time he fooled me! T__T

Walked to Pavilion met up with my mum.
Went for dinner, bii came over to my house.
And left after while.

After dinner when we got up the car, He asked
where his phone was again but i didnt fell for it
because i saw him putting his phone in his pocket~
ngek~

Bii's face was soooooo red/pink
the whole dayyyyyy~
Haha~ he said he was shy =_=
So cuteeeeeeeeeeeee <33333

*Bought and chosen by baby*

Bii brought 2 books for me to read.
Starting tomorrow study time >_<
Need to do summary for him~
He is gonna work tomorrow in a place that's quite far.
Next sunday bii's bday. <3
Going to sleep.
Freaking tired.

A perfect day.
I never had so much fun in awhile.
Once again thank you bii, for everything.
All the sacrifices you have to make.
You make me laugh, make me smile.
Cheer me up when i am down.
The thoughts of letting you go or leaving you will never
cross my mind.
I am keeping you with me for the rest of my life.
Even death cant do us apart.❤
MabelChowWillLoveNixonNgForEternity.

02/01/2010

*Before going out*

Didnt have time to update blog last night.
So i will update it now.

Last night i had to go to a house warming dinner.
My mood was so freaking down.
I remembered i didnt reply bii's sms.
He called me.
I never thought he would be so worried.
But just hearing his voice, it cheered me up so much.

So went out around 7pm+
Went to Tropicana.
When we entered the area. I was sooo stunned.
The designs of the area is so amazing.
Its more to american style type, no gate, hugee car porch.
and ofcouse amazingly big garden.

Reached the house, parked the car,
Stepped infront of the house.
All eyes were on me =_=
Scary.

What was even more shocking was when i stepped
into the house.
Extremely high ceiling, fountain pond inside the house,
and private karaoke room.
With huge Samsung LED tv.
Gosh, i want that house so badly.

Went out took some food to eat.
Met my mum's friends whom i havent seen
in a long while.
Drank whiskey given by them =_=v
Everywhere i walked i get that 'look at her' stare from all the girls.
Honestly whats with girls and giving me those
stares? i am effing sick of it.
Some thought i was a model from overseas.
But i am local :p

I actually enjoyed my mum's friends company.
Laughed like hell with all the jokes they made.
Non stop laughing and non stop smsing bii.

After hours of chatting outside we went into the
private karaoke room.
They were singing oldies songs.
I actually knew most of it :p
Had fun =)

Went home around 12am+
reached home at 1am+
Did house chores right away after i reached home.
Slept at 4am.
Woke up at 8am. why?
Continue with the next post ;P

New year eve♥

31st December 2009.
New year eve.

Went out with my mum in the afternoon,
to KLCC to buy some things.
It was new year eve.
And for some reasons i really wanted to see bii.
So i texted him asking if he would come over
to my house to meet my mum.
I thought he would say no but he said yes.
And my mum approved him of coming over.

I felt nervous and excited >__<
But around 7pm+ i had to go out for dinner =_=
It was my uncle's bday and i didnt know.
Bii reached at 8pm+.
I reached home 5mins after he reached.

My mum went to one of her friend's home.
So i walked up back home with the keys.
It was dark and i couldnt see properly up ahead.
Until i saw someone standing there.
At first i asked myself was it bii >_<
Until i could see him clearly i was so shocked!
Bii with glasses!!
and his hair!!
So xi mannnnnnnnnnnnnn xD
But he is still adorable ♥♥

So he had an 'interview' with my mum.
And he stayed till 1am+.
I couldnt stop looking at him and smiling.
Him with glasses and that hair.
Really really shocked me.

When the clock turned 12am
Fireworks set off.
I called him to the kitchen balcony to watch it together.
Who knew i could actually see him on that day.
And i thought it was just gonna be me alone on that day.
But it was him there with me, holding on to my hand,
watching fireworks with me. ♥

Baby, thank you.
I really didnt expect you to come on that day.
Sorry you have to canceled your plans with your friends.
You should have told me that you have plans >_<

I fell asleep at 2am+
But bii smsed me.
He made me CRIED!!
He texted me saying 'Today will be the last day
i will contact you'
I thought was it something my mum said?
I asked if he was just joking and he said does it look
like he was joking.
I couldnt help but cried >_<>
At the moment i wished he was just right next to me
so i can throw the rabbit soft toy at him !!
He always does this to me!
Saying things that scares me. But i dont know why
i keep falling for his trap over and over again. T_T

Woke up at 1.30pm this afternoon >_<
Was tired.
Spend my whole day reading back on History
and Geography.
All the terms seems so familiar and yet i cant remember >_<
Like Hitler story, Treaty of Versailles, World War I and II.
etc etc etc.
But its great to be reading back on what i've learnt.
As i kept reading, i slowly remember everything.
The interest of studying came back to me, but its too late.

02/01/2010.
Moments ago around 1am+.
Family argued. BIG argument.
My cousins, my brother and i.
Inside my room.
Not one word was spoken. Dead silent.
That was how down everyone was. I hate that feeling.
Its only the 2nd day of a new year.
Where i thought things could get better, but it got worst.
Feeling so down right now.
3.35am now. Nights.

Asking myself if 31st dec was a dream.
But it turned out, it really happened in reality.
Bii, Thank you so much.
I am so so so grateful to have met you and
even more grateful that i'm YOURS and you're MINE.
Even if you dont believe that i'm serious about you its fine.
I will PROVE it to you, that i will be FAITHFUL to you.
And its YOU whom i want to spend my whole life with.
Because baby, you are the BEST thing that happened in my life.♥