my short summarized updates.

BOOOYAH ! Its officially one month and i havent
update anything !
And yes yes i still do look the same. Been called thin
one min then fat the next.
Meaning my weight is always up and down never steady.

I feel like i have so much i have
to share with you guys but at the same time i forgot
everything that has happened.
I just have 2 words to described between this 1mth.
SHITS HAPPENS.

In college, from foundation in commerce i transferred
to Diploma in Mass Comm. I really have lack
of interest in numbers, and mass comm is really my main
interest. Being a journalist isnt that bad.
Filled with adventures but also, u can get ur arse in jail
if u write one single detail that seems offending.

So main course started, busy busy with test, assignments
and more assignments then rumors then gossips and etc.
you know college, anything can happen.

My sister from another mother came back to msia for
only few weeks and due to transportation probs
i only got to meet her twice. fml.
and each time i met her was only few hrs.
Longest was 3hrs. double fml.

Darling i miss you :(
I remembered the last day we got to see each other,
we hugged goodbye and we cried.
It became a tradition to cry whenever we part.
Its just so hard to part from the precious person you can find.

Decided to get new 3 lenses and threw away my old ones.
Will do a lens review when i am free i promise.

I started getting closer to my college friends :)
Getting in touch with my friends whom i've
stopped contacting with. and seriously, i cant live without them.
Remember kent chan ? :D

Tah dah ! Yeash webcammed with him again.
And he is still so mad cute :)
Always my brothaaa. not brother but brothaa :D

My 2nd sister from another mother returned from Singapore,
and yeash i finally got to meet her.
Went to TS, kenny rogers, sing k then go home.

She is soooo busy singing and cant be bothered with
me camwhoring -_-.
Thats when my hair grew longer :D
I thought of growing it back to stomach length BUT
i am too impatient when it comes to hair.
How am i to have long hair again?

I've a new kai yeh ( godfather) who takes good care of me.
He taught me alot new things from his experiences.
Things i didnt know.
I m glad to be able to meet him :)
I even attended to one of his kiwanis event. Super
new experience.

I have had relationship problems. Caused me pain,
tears and more pain. I admit i was wrong.
I fell for another person, he became my 3rd person.
I hurt 2 men at once. They did anything and everything for me,
they make me smile, they show me care.
But all i ever gave them in return was heart breaking moments.

Wanted to be single in order to stop hurting them, i couldnt.
Because of feelings. memories. tears.
But who knew, i was hurting myself too.
I hated myself for any reasons possible.
I thought of committing suicide ENDLESS times.
I cried myself to sleep, been called paled endless times.
Swollen eyes, finally they are fine now.

I felt pain LITERALLY in my heart each day.
Something i've not experienced.
But i've learnt something new from my mistakes and
i grew alot stronger.

I will go into more details sooner or later when i am free
with alot of what i've learnt.

I'm not a good girlfriend, not a perfect one.
But now i'm slowly getting on track to becoming one again.
i'm sorry for hurting you. making you lose trust in me.

i was tired of being strong and needed someone to become
strong for me but i guess i depended too much on them.
i'm standing up tall again, being weak isnt me.

i know i have to be successful in life,
its now or never :)