4.15am

4.15am , sitting on my bed.
Remembering the 1st time i met you.
And all the things you have once told me.
Remembering our 1st embrace, 1st kiss
and the 1st 'i love you' that you said to me.
My heart skipped a beat.

Everything was so dreamy back then.
Endless conversations, text messages,
and how you would call when i am sleeping
in the middle of the night and how wide awake
i become just seeing your name
on my handphone caller id.
That voice. It seems long forgotten, but somewhere
in my mind its still echo-ing there.

All the plans we have made so we could
see each other as much as possible.
Its didnt turn out like how i expected it to be.
But telling myself, its alright i can wait.

Why is it whenever you are around,
i am lost for words, or sometimes i am
having a time to find the right words to say >_<
I get so nervous around you.

The more i fall in love with you,
the fear of losing you deepens.
The thoughts of losing you, only bring tears to my eyes.
Asking myself how did i fall head over heels for you.
And asking myself how did things changed so much.

I missed how things used to be.
If only things didnt changed, and it was the same
like how it used to be.
Wouldnt it be wonderful.

But then again, it dosent matter.
Because no matter what you do,
it dosent change the fact that i love you.
And it dosent change the fact that its you
whom i am gonna call my husband.

Honestly, My life would suck without you x3