3rd march 2011 :)

2rd March 2011.

The eve of my birthday, i decided to celebrate
it with my kai yeh :)
So in the evening i met up with him at our usual place.
Had dinner there as well.
I remembered watching him stressed on the phone.
The more stressed he is, the more he laughs, my brother
and i laughed.

Then when the clock turned 12am, 3rd March,
it was my birthday. Kai yeh wished me happy bday,
everyone there did, and my fb was getting spammed with wishes.
There was a mini tiramitsu cake out of nowhere xD
It was the 1st time i celebrate exactly when its 12am.
I was happy =)

But whenever its 12am on 3rd March, bad memories returns
to me. The day someone i really loved left on that very morning.
Yes, i have gotten over him but i guess the worst
thing a person can ever do is leave you on a special day,
when the promised they'd be with you.

3rd March 2011, its my birthday so what?
Still have to wake up early in the morning just to wash
clothes and do all the laundry when i hardly even
have any sleep which caused me to have headache.
Someone spoiled my morning, the name is nixon.
I was moody, and got scolded for being moody by
the person i call mum.

In the afternoon time went to pick up my sister from
another mother JiaLin. She is staying overnight until Sunday =)

Us on the way to Jogoya for dinner.
My mum is friend with the boss so umm yea, he decided
to give free dinner for my family, friends and i to celebrate.
And even throw in 2 cakes.

The moment we reached, Jia lin and i went
walking up and down for food, we ordered spaghetti
and my mum ate it then we have to order again.
Everyone started eating except for us -_- we were too
busy walking up and down.

So we ate and ate and ate until satisfied.

The pumpkin so cute x)

After everyone said they had enough food, the cake
was brought out :)

Chocolate cake. The decoration is so vintage.

Cheese cake. Cute x)

I didnt want to cut it :/

The birthday song was sang, wishes was made,
candle was blown, cake was cut.
Then we went home. Just like that, my birthday for
the night ended.

Received 3 presents that day.

Hello Kitty cup from Jia Lin :)

Teddy bear from Jason and my brother :)
Even Jason came for the dinner :D

Swarovski from mum's friend.
Its the 1st time i received swarovski as my present.
Well actually, its my 1st swarovski as well.

A pacifier pendant -_-.
And yup, its around my neck.

Around 300+ friends on fb wished my happy bday,
it made my day so much :)
Atleast i know who cares and who doesnt ;D

Thank youuuuuuuuuuu to everyone who wished me,
gave me presents, and made me smile ! :D
Although its not any big celebration , or partying ,
or thousand of presents i dont mind.
I had fun in my own ways, and i am thankful i get to live another
year :) ( I am now 19 if u r wondering. )
i love you guys for being there for me.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart :)

my short summarized updates.

BOOOYAH ! Its officially one month and i havent
update anything !
And yes yes i still do look the same. Been called thin
one min then fat the next.
Meaning my weight is always up and down never steady.

I feel like i have so much i have
to share with you guys but at the same time i forgot
everything that has happened.
I just have 2 words to described between this 1mth.
SHITS HAPPENS.

In college, from foundation in commerce i transferred
to Diploma in Mass Comm. I really have lack
of interest in numbers, and mass comm is really my main
interest. Being a journalist isnt that bad.
Filled with adventures but also, u can get ur arse in jail
if u write one single detail that seems offending.

So main course started, busy busy with test, assignments
and more assignments then rumors then gossips and etc.
you know college, anything can happen.

My sister from another mother came back to msia for
only few weeks and due to transportation probs
i only got to meet her twice. fml.
and each time i met her was only few hrs.
Longest was 3hrs. double fml.

Darling i miss you :(
I remembered the last day we got to see each other,
we hugged goodbye and we cried.
It became a tradition to cry whenever we part.
Its just so hard to part from the precious person you can find.

Decided to get new 3 lenses and threw away my old ones.
Will do a lens review when i am free i promise.

I started getting closer to my college friends :)
Getting in touch with my friends whom i've
stopped contacting with. and seriously, i cant live without them.
Remember kent chan ? :D

Tah dah ! Yeash webcammed with him again.
And he is still so mad cute :)
Always my brothaaa. not brother but brothaa :D

My 2nd sister from another mother returned from Singapore,
and yeash i finally got to meet her.
Went to TS, kenny rogers, sing k then go home.

She is soooo busy singing and cant be bothered with
me camwhoring -_-.
Thats when my hair grew longer :D
I thought of growing it back to stomach length BUT
i am too impatient when it comes to hair.
How am i to have long hair again?

I've a new kai yeh ( godfather) who takes good care of me.
He taught me alot new things from his experiences.
Things i didnt know.
I m glad to be able to meet him :)
I even attended to one of his kiwanis event. Super
new experience.

I have had relationship problems. Caused me pain,
tears and more pain. I admit i was wrong.
I fell for another person, he became my 3rd person.
I hurt 2 men at once. They did anything and everything for me,
they make me smile, they show me care.
But all i ever gave them in return was heart breaking moments.

Wanted to be single in order to stop hurting them, i couldnt.
Because of feelings. memories. tears.
But who knew, i was hurting myself too.
I hated myself for any reasons possible.
I thought of committing suicide ENDLESS times.
I cried myself to sleep, been called paled endless times.
Swollen eyes, finally they are fine now.

I felt pain LITERALLY in my heart each day.
Something i've not experienced.
But i've learnt something new from my mistakes and
i grew alot stronger.

I will go into more details sooner or later when i am free
with alot of what i've learnt.

I'm not a good girlfriend, not a perfect one.
But now i'm slowly getting on track to becoming one again.
i'm sorry for hurting you. making you lose trust in me.

i was tired of being strong and needed someone to become
strong for me but i guess i depended too much on them.
i'm standing up tall again, being weak isnt me.

i know i have to be successful in life,
its now or never :)

brother's graduation.

I know its almost 1month since i've last updated.
You may have thought i might be dead but
bad news for you i am not :D

But seriously, i am so sick of my life routine.
Morning to afternoon college, afternoon out with mum
till evening and when i am home its house chores then
sleep. My bed time used to be 4-5am then it went to
1-2am now its 11pm -_-. The big changes how college can
do for you. But honestly i am damn sick of doing
house chores, its tiring after a long day and the worst
is despite the fact that i do everything at home,
mum still calls me lazy and the worst thing she
said to everyone was ' dont do anything at home,
when you need something done just tell mabel and she'll
do it when she is home from college'.

I was like FML. literally fml.

Anyways, 16th January was my brother's graduation day.
It was held in Segi university in kota damansara.
Rushed like mad in the morning, i had to deal
with house chores then prepare myself.

Nearby the university there was ppl selling
flowers , mum asked if we should buy one for my
brother, i knew he would hate it or feel embarrass so i said
YESSSSS. :D

Decided to buy him a mini bear but turns out he wanted
a doreamon one . So FAILED !
So we reached and yup we were late.

Speeches, speeches and speeches.
I looked around the room and i can see everyone
was being bored -_-.

And i just knew that it wasnt just subang segi that was
graduating but also KL and kota damansara segi as well.
BUTTTT, when they announced segi subang jaya all
the graduates cheered damn loud !
Meaning, subang jaya ppl knows how to have fun :D
And i had a feeling that when its my turn to graduate
with my friends its gonna be the same.

I find it pretty stupid that they dont allow picture
taking. Then how can ppl capture their moments on stage?
Got ppl taking pic la but you need to PAY for it.
so i couldnt capture my brother on stage.
If only i have that huge ass long lens that can zoom to the moon.

So finally everything was done and lunch was served
outside.

Mummy, brother and me. Why am i so short?

I dont really remembered what happened but i think
we went home after that and my brother and i
enjoyed watching tv and munching on leftover turkey.

Dear mummy and brother.
In my future graduation i want a bigger flower xD
if you girls are wondering why my eyes look diff is because
i stopped using fake eyelashes.
Will only use it when i have photoshooting sessions.
or maybe outing which i feel photo taking will take place.

You know when i was in the hall listening to those
speeches given, i felt a feeling of happiness for
my brother but yet a feeling of sadness.
Because he will be leaving to australia to
further his studies. I know he is mad excited to leave but
i know i will sobs like mad when he does.

He have always been around me for 19years,
and i know one day obviously we will leave and
be apart from each other to have a life of our own.
Maybe just maybe, i am afraid i might feel lonelier than
before when he isnt here anymore, i might
not be able to have someone i can laugh with and spill
anything and everything to. We dont treat each other like
bro or sis but instead like a friend that can never be replaced.

During the graduation i also felt another feeling.
I cant wait for my graduation, thats what i felt.
But the same feeling occurs when i thought of that,
the distances between friends and family if i were to leave
after my diploma. Well yea, we are still able to talk to each
other online or thru the phone but the gap will be wider.
or worst, totally forgetting one another.

Yes graduation seems likes the most awesome-st time
of your life but also a shittiest one perhaps.
But somehow at this very moment, i wish it was i who is
leaving. I m tired of memories here. Arguments everyday.
Stress. Pressure. Tiredness. Its getting into me.
To a point where i almost wanted to commit suicide. again.
And literally gone mad for few hrs.
I swear its real, i was just lucky enough i was able to wake
myself up. If not the only time u'll see me is when u look up the sky.

And the only word ppl can use to describe me is PALE.
fml.

Actually not only my brother graduated.
I also did.

Graduated from APP only -_-.

Currently in a crappy mood again.
soooo, i've updated for now and god knows when
i'll be free to update again.
Take care my sweethearts :)

tattoos is a form of expressing oneself.

Way behind blog schedule again !
This was supposed to be up on 27th but today is
30th ! Yea, i know you realized i dont blog as much
as before. Thats how busy i m :(

25th was christmas but i didnt do anything.
24th boyf came to my house with presents for
my family. thanks bii appreciate it much :)

I, as usual didnt get presents and i dont mind not getting
any. But boyf did give me facial masks, and vinod
his love -_-. Mum asked what i wanted for xmas
and i said 2nd tattoo but i decided on something
so i sent her a message saying
' i know i wanted a 2nd tattoo as my xmas present
but i have decided to change it to my bday present
because today god have given u as my xmas present.
merry christmas mum n i love you deeeep deeeep'
I am such a good daughter i know xD

The day after xmas mum flew oversea and she just
gave me money to get it done myself.
So since boyf decided to go sg wang on 27th and i am
not gonna touch swimming anytime soon so
i thought why not might as well get it done asap
before my college trip to desaru next month.

Take take a picture of my plain back
1st. It will be the last time i see it T_T.
I hate holidays, make me fat ! No stomach become
got stomach !

So went to the tattoo shop around 6pm+
At 1st my friend said take about 1hr+ to finish but
in the end she decided to take her own time.
And ended up finishing at 8pm+.

I have to admit, this tattoo did hurt abit as it was
near/on the bone. First 2mins i did almost fell asleep until
she made her way to the top i was like
!@#$% !! A pain i never expected to feel.

My boyf happily chatting outside with the other
tattoo artists about his next tattoo -_-

This is my new tattoo. Yup i know its a little
bigger than i expected. But what is done is done.
And yup, majority of friends thought i will be doing
angel or fairies, i did think of doing those but when i went
and asked what kind of tattoo should i do, my friend
said she just designed it herself and she showed it to me.
Love at 1st sight, 2 days of thinking i decided to go for it.

Afterall, you dont see much girls with fishy for tattoos.
I love and i want to be unique. This is what makes me special.
I dare to stand out of the crowd.

If you wish to visit the shop where i got it done, its
at sungei wang 2nd floor.
If you wish to call you may do so at
016-3370404 :)
Very friendly people, dont be afraid to ask them anything.

Honestly there is no meaning to my tattoo.
I didnt need any meaning for my 2nd tattoo because
my butterfly already have more than enough to remind
me whats my purpose of living. Thats why i didnt
bother to design one myself. You may say i might
regret but let me repeat myself again.
The word regret doesnt exist in my dictionary :)

But the meaning of fish tattoo is
. fertility
. eternity
. creativity
. femininity
. good luck
. happiness
. knowledge
. transformation

Koi fish/ goldfish represent
. Bravery
. Strength
. Courage
. Perseverance

People may say what if u regret u might not be able
to get a job, meet people/in-laws, etc etc just because of
ur tattoos.

I dont know about u guys but i've realized, having
a tattoo is not a big issue anymore as it have become
something very very common. And population of girls
getting a tattoo is increasing. My mum, used to be a very
traditional thinker towards tattoos but due to the
adapt of changes towards our modern living today, she
is very open about it.

My brother said after my mum sees my tattoo
so big confirm i 'hailat' meaning screwed,
i didnt. Instead she said its fine.

In our society now, tattoo isnt a big deal anymore,
especially in jobs. People wan to hire someone who can WORK,
not for ur outlook. In magazines, i see models with tattoo.
I see brides with tattoo. I see rich ppl with tattoo.

To some people, pictures doesnt represent anything.
Whatever happened to the quote 'picture speaks
more than a thousand words?'
To you it may not mean a thing, to the person with the
tattoo, the meaning behind it may be more than you think.

I for one, dont just get a tattoo to look 'cool'.
I LOVE arts. I appreciate every little single art details.
Tattoo, is another form of art that allows us to speak
for ourselves. I have my own meanings behind it.
And i dont need you or neither do i even care if u judge
me just because of my body arts.

I hope societies views about tattoos keep changing and
understands that its just another art form and way of
expression.
I dont understand, why porn isnt a big issue while a tattoo is.
And pornstar are praised, why ppl with tattoo are shunned.

Tattoo is just like painting on a body.

23rd app party :D

23rd APP class had a year end party.
I know its 26th today and it means i am late updating
this post -_- but i really have no time.

Anyway, on 22nd edmund, jeremy and i
was busy with our last min dance.
So we decided to go to college early in the morning to
rehearse and try to put what we know together but turned
out we ended up fooling around xD

And when we played the song 'can i have this dance'
i laughed like mad because edmund and jeremy were
dancing together like couple and when jeremy fall
on edmund, edmund let his hand go and jeremy fell
on the floor xD

The day ended with only 10% of the dance -_-.
When i went home i memorized the rest 90% of the dance.
I was dead tired, but since i am the one with experience
with dancing i should do my part to help.

Our dance group consist of Jeremy, edmund, vicki,
vinnie, cherry and i.
23rd we practice and practice and surprisingly we got
everything done within 3hrs.
Cherry even more geng 1hr+ if i am not mistaken.

But i am very sure all of us felt proud of ourselves
and the teamwork and effort we put in :)
It was fun although it was tiring.
Our attire was pink shirts and bare feet ! :D
Pants can wear whatever we want.

Cherry, vicki, edmund, jeremy, me and vinnie.
Marzuq came in, quickly stand next to vinnie,
took the pic and left haha.

Cherry and i. I am super jealous of her body lor.
Model body, leng dou bao !

At 1st they party was suppose to start at 4pm but
later announced it will be delay to 5pm.
5pm , all waiting at lobby but it was drizzling so starting
the bbq was a prob and the number of trips we made
to summit giant just to buy things -_-

I was friggin thirsty at one moment and someone finished
my water -_-, the cafeteria wasnt open.
Just so ngam, vj came walking in with a drink in his hand
and he asked me to hold on to it.
I asked for a sip he said okay, so i took a sip.
It was soooo icy cold and refreshing and i asked if could
just finish it all and he said okay. vj saved my life :D
Thank you vj !

Brian and elvin walked to summit giant to buy the fire
starter for the bbq cause the fire wasnt starting after
quite some time. When they came back, the fire started haha xD

And finally we could have our bbq ! :D
Brian our IT man became our CHICKEN man for the day.
The chicken was yummy ! rice was yummy and the brownies
alya bought was love ! i fell in love with it at 1st bite.

Peaceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

Elvin, me and Isa :)

Me, Merilen and Elvin.

After eating was performance time !
And the pink group which is us was up 1st :D
Although our dance isnt well coordinated or whatever it
doesnt matter, we had fun and thats all it matters.
And the dance we did was from the taiwan drama
'Hai pai tian xin' xD

After us was elvin, marzuq and alya.
They sang the song hero and cant smile without you :)
After that everyone sang christmas songs :)
Then we sang birthday song to celebrate edmund's
gf's birthday :) She is pretty :D

Then cake fight -_- Jeremy kena haha!
Few girls just kept chasing him until he ran into a corner
and had no where else to run -_-
His shirt and hair all kena xD

Elvin cake face me -_- made me have to wash
my face and its so oily ! I ran and chase him
but you know slippers -_- makes it harder for ppl to run.
Until Jeremy was kind enough to help me.
He just put the cake on his face but i wiped it all over his face :D

After all those sessions was done, we had our own
free session. Music was played, lights was off.
Macam like club -_-

Group pic ! :D

Our pink group ! :D

Me and Vicki.

Me and Vinnie. Sweat so much @_@.

Jeremy and Edmund.
Crazy frog pose !! xD

Egyptian pose ! it was part of our dance steps haha.

Edmund was a pole. So can u guess what Jeremy is doing -_-.

Vinnie and i. Dance till high ! :D

Brian ! Surprised me !
Even got few friends they surprised me !
Didnt know they can dance :D

Our feets ! We danced barefoot haha.

The party finished around 9pm+ i think but
Edmund n his gf, Jeremy, Elvin and i stayed back and
chat with VJ and another counselor . Talking talking
suddenly came up with the idea of going on a trip .

We were suppose to go tomorrow but no one could go due
to last min plan :(
So they are planning it for next month :)

We left college around 10pm+.
There was no one else except us and its quite an awesome
experience but yet scary.

I had fun :) and experience i never expect
to have in college.
Looking forward to whatever more events there is :D

2nd photoshoot experience.

My 2nd photoshoot experience.
Fun but not so fun also.
The photographer is Benson Law, you may see his
photography or contact him for photoshoot
service through his fb page. click here

Well actually i did it quite some days ago but only
updating it on my blog now.
It is December, and when its december we all
think of christmas, and when we think of christmas
we think of cold white snowy weather which is known
as winter. xD

But sadly Malaysia is a tropical country so there
is no snow while other countries do :(
We do have snow actually. In Pavilion 5mins
snow made of soap haha. I went there twice last year
and heck no i am not going there again.
SIBEH CROWED ! No space for you to turn also.
Snow is suppose to be cold but when u r there
it is like mother nature sauna. Open area sauna -_-.

So since its December, we decided on winter theme.
Not so winter lah, i dont wanna faint with thick
thick coats on hot days. I just decided on
my brand new Topshop dress, xmas boots and a beanie
which i went to sg wang and buy just for the
photoshoot. Someone should give me an award for being so serious
when it comes to work -_-.
And also decided a summer-ish feel theme for our 2nd
theme.

Met up with the photographer at 10am and my
driver for the day was ofcourse my boyf.
Which i feel i shouldnt have asked him to drive
and wait for me because of some probs.
The area we did it in was at ampang, near KDE club.
There is a playground there.
We were also tagged along by benson's friend. its like
2photographer. tension 99.

Not even 5mins standing there i already got my 2nd
mosquito bites. Everytime i look at my leg
confirm got FEW mosquitoes feeding themselves happily.
Damn disgusting . And when i brushed them off,
there was blood stains. I have to pose and cant
scratch ! And ofcourse sweat 99. There was
no sunlight which made it hard for the photographers.
When i took off my beanie , my hair was wet -_-.
went up the car and blew it dry with aircon then continue
with 2nd theme.

My left leg.

My right leg. Kua cheong leh.
I counted both legs got 29 mosquito bites.

Changed my attire for 2nd theme. The mask
looks cool leh xD but we didnt use it, not match
for the theme. Its not mine tho, its benson's.

I think the 2nd theme should be better than the 1st.
I sweat less and the dress and everything looks better
to me. Somemore the location also good.
actually same place -_- just different area.
And i used a bear bear xD the bear my boyf's mum gave me.
But sadly i dont have the pics to share it with you guys.
The photographer havent edited it yet.
He's probably busy so we'll give him time.

This is my personal fave of the series.

He even put snow in it haha.

I was damn damn damn damn tired after the photoshoot.
But what to do, i wan/need experience.
There is still alot more asking me to be their
model but i got no time.

And on the same night when i went to bed,
there was a mosquito in my room and i didnt know.
additional 10 bites on my face which means
i had 39 mosquito bites in one day.

If i have lack of blood in my body one day,
i know what to kill. Becareful mosquitoes.

Liese bubble hair colour review.

Liese bubble hair colour.
A product that can be found in Watsons,
Sasa or Guardian at the price range of RM30+

Ofcourse they come in 10 different colours.
What makes it so popular? Well, its a hair dye formulated
to be like a shampoo making it easy to DIY ur hair
at home without making a mess nor a big fuss.

Yes as shown in the picture above its that easy ! :D
Since i havent dye my hair in 1 year more or less,
and i m sick of my black roots i decided to try
liese. I got no time to go to saloon as well.

I decided to try the colour 'Milk Tea Brown'.
Its said to be the lightest colour.
I told VJ the colour name and he said it sounds like
teh tarik colour hahaha!

This is before. See black roots, dark dark colour.

Non matching colour gradient hair xD

Mix the solution and gently just tilt the bottle.
Dont shake ! or else the foam will come out.

The solution changes colour :D

At 1st applying it is pretty hard. Apply it from the top
and work ur way round the head.
Kinda annoying to keep squeezing and squeezing .
But once you got ur hair all coated with the foam
it gets kinda fun xD

Just leave it on for 30mins, not more than that
unless u really wan ur hair to DIE.
It does get a little itchy but even in saloon when
the dye solution is on ur scalp it gets itchy too.

So i rinse my hair off and tah dah !
This is the outcome.

Because my hair is under sunlight so the colour
seems brighter. But in reality is darker.
Maybe because my hair is black. They showed
that the darker ur hair is, the darker the outcome
of the colour will be as well.

And the roots that were once black is now brown :D

The look overall :D

The good thing about it is that :
. its easy to use
. no mess at all
. it doesnt miss any part of ur hair if you
apply it properly and massage evenly
. the outcome of the colour is not bad
. no tangle during the process !
. leaves hair smooth
. it does have a lil fruity-ish smell

The bad thing is :
. the smell is damn strong
. the smell irritated my eyes causing it to turn red
. uneven colour

If u ask would i use it again the answer is yes :D
only need less than 1hr to complete the process while
in saloon need almost 2hrs and its alot more
cheaper and convenient. One bottle is really more than enough :)

If you always wanted to try it, dont be afraid,
just go for it but dont expect the colour to
be exactly the same as the package.

Good luck if you are trying it :D
And have fun while doing so :)