Single&FuckedUp.Thx guys.

Mabel is officially SINGLE
and FUCKED UP!
In the end i just couldnt find
ways to find those feelings back.

Its hurts.
But its reality.
I promised myself i wouldnt cry.
So why is my tears falling?
Why do you keep begging me to come back?
What is done, is done.
I am sorry.
This is my decision.

Let it end here.
We werent meant to be.
We just happened.
I should've get to know u better
before i got together with u.
I am sorry.

Thank you to all those who
cared.
Thanks for calling.
Although some of you couldnt get through =P
And FUCK YOU VINOD!
you and your damn sarcastic reaction!
Haha!
Thx to babe lyn for trying to call through
no matter how hard it was x]
But thx =]
Thanks to you guys so much i am feeling
so much better.
I really LOVE you guys =]
Frank kor!!
I so gam dong T_T Thx.
I see you say that word i really so gam dong T_T

Fucked Up.

Its been few days since i last argued with him.
And from that day onwards
until now..
I am in a mess. Feel so fucked up.
I dont know what to do anymore.
Its like, i still love him but yet i dont.
So yea this is what makes it confusing.
'Too tired to hold on, Too inlove to let go'
I hate this feeling.
It hurts.
Can anyone save me?
What should i do?
Can anyone tell me?
Its been 2yrs, thats what make it hard to let go.

I called Vinod *chocolate man* =D
And i started crying.
I couldnt speak on the phone.
Tears were just falling.
Why was i crying?
I dont know.
But i stopped after Vinod told me
his house electricity went down =D
*Good for you Vinod* =D

I havent been eating alot too.
Skipped dinner for few nights.
I am losing weight but at the same time
I feel weak.
My legs trembles as i walk.

Who can save me out of this misery?
I cant make any decisions.
I wanna let go. But i couldnt do it.

I always said 'I wanna be single'
I have my chance now.
So why cant i do it?

I am falling deeper and deeper.
Who can save me from falling?

Boredom again.

Aiyor. Its so boring =/
Why is every offline when i am free?
Ishhh..

Last night i slept at 6am.
Woke up at 8am.
Because of somebody -_-

23rd August 2009.
Supposed to be a happy 2nd anniversary.
But we ended up argueing.
And almost broke up.
But if i get too tired.
I really will end it without giving a damn
how many years it have been.
I believe being single is so much more better.
Alot ppl has agreed too!
Haha x]

Vinod if you are reading this.
I am writing this to remind you.
Set a day we can go out.
And everything is on you =D
5oobucks? Haha x]
23days more before u leave =/
Dammmiiittt!
No more chocolate man =[

Whats with the internet nowadays? =/
Keep dc-ing like hell.
Cant even web cam with friends.
Sucks =[

Well that is all to
update now i guess.

The more i look into your eyes,
The deeper i am falling for you.
You stare at me while i sleep with a smile on your face,
My heart races even faster ♥

A.Day.Out.With.A.Chocolate Guy.

Tuesday at 1 or 2am i forgot.
Vinod called me and we chat about random stuffs.
We made Rm5 bets. 6 bets x]
1. Who marry first.
2. Who divorce first.
3. Who have kids first.
4. Who get car summons first.
5. Who dies first.
6. Omg i forgot =_=

Then at 3am+ we talked about Mcdonalds.
Made us hungry.
And we were talking about hanging out the next day.
Cause he said he would be near KLCC and will be free by 12pm.
So wen decided to go out.

The next day i reached KLCC at 12pm.
Vinod was 1hrs and 47mins late.
And i didnt get to eat McDs!
But we watched G.I Joe.
Fuckin awesome movie~
But i wanted to see Snakes face =/

Then we stopped by at the park.
With vinod and his cheesy pick up lines.
*Its sucks Vinod!*
And we talked all kind of craps for 1hr+
And i left =]

Vinod remember.
Aquarium next time and california pizza xD
All on you x3.

Nights.

Sick. =/

Haiz. Sick like a bitch.
Flu, cough, and sorethroat. ISH!
I cant sleep because of flu T_T
Ate medicine already but its not helping.
And to my brother
'HELL NO! its not H1N1 goddamit!'

I wanna go out =/
But all friends are too busy working or studying.
Booorring T_T

















Today i went Alor to eat dinner.
Guess who i saw?
張敬軒~ 'Cheung Keng Hins'
gosh he is sooo leng zai! <3>te tall also <3
Haha so unbelievable =3

Today in Facebook, Met alot new friends.
Chatting with them made me feel alots better =]
Thx Babes <3>

Its 1.04am. Time for bed.
Hope i recover tomorrow.
Nights.

❤ItsAlwaysYou❤

Sighs.
Another bad day. But why isit always has to be me and u argueing?
Its really damn annoying.
You stay quiet for no reason looking so damn moody.
I kept quiet for awhile thinking you were tired.
But i know you are not.
I kept asking you whats wrong. Yet again i get the same answer
'Nothing'.

In the past weeks, you've been to Johor for your work.
With few girls. What you did i don't know.
And i didn't ask.
Saturday you went camping with working staffs.
And met many more girls from other places.
Yet you held hand with them.
I didn't say anything but to hide my emotion.

I just felt that after you returned from this 2 places,
You've changed.
Just because we were mad at each other today.
You left me behind and you walked at a fast pace.
I cried in the car you didnt care.
Thats the 1st time you didnt care.
I couldnt believe it. I really couldnt.

After i reached home i managed to come online.
JiaLin just argued with her bf as well.
We think the same things.
Do the same things.
Even argue with bf at the same time.
Really good sisters =_=v haha.

Its almost 3am and i am not even asleep yet.
Why? Because i dont have the mood for it.
I didnt eat dinner as well. Why?
Because its your fault for making me this way.

Unloved.
Unwanted.
Unsafe.

❤OneStepTowardsMyFuture❤

❤Be a Model❤















My dreams have finally taken another step to being fulfilled.
I gave up hairdressing. Taking Modeling Course soon.
My mother gave me an option of few choices she preferred me doing
in my future.
I have always wanted to be model.
But i always said 'NO' to her. That was because i did not have enough confidence
in myself.
Finally after 2years of saying 'No', it became a 'Yes'.
I know i can make it to modeling industry if i try hard.
I wont let my family down.
I will let everyone know i've made the right choice.



















To those who said i couldnt do it. Thank You.
Cause you are just making me STRONGER.
=]