5th march. tiring day.

5th March 2011.
Like i said in my previous post i aint kidding with her.
Can u believe her? she is from Shanghai, staying in kl
for around 10years and have never been to zoo once -_-.
And i was bored with usual movie watching, etc routine
i decided to make a little difference.

9am+ i woke up. i dont know why i just did.
Babe lyn opened her eyes also and i said
'we are going to the zoo'
she was like whattttttt are you serious?
damn right i am serious.

Got ready and off we go and have breakfast with
grandmama and brother 1st :D
Then went to Ampang point to get something and YES !
Finally there is starbucks nearby my house !!
Now i know where to get a cup of steam milk + vanilla
when i need one !! :D :D :D

Then 1pm i think, we reached zoo.
RM20 for malaysian, RM30 for non malaysian.
Babe got away with being a malaysian -_-.
They didnt even bother with checking so yea :D

The weather was FINE at 1st not hot, not cold just fine.
We were making out way to the aquarium 1st.
The 1st thing you'll see is my relatives.

my furry relatives xD

still making our way there but pose
pose 1st, say cheeeeseeeeeeee :D

Crazy mad big fish. If you throw me inside i think i'll
get heartattack. its like 2times the size and length of me.
no matter how many times i see them i still get fascinated.

Penguins ! mad adorable.

the most romantic animal alive xD
and also smartest looking with their natural tux.

hi, its us again.

big-but-not-so-big-fish.

snakehead fish. looks like it wanna eat you doesnt it -_-.

i became dora the explorer just trying to find my way.

yea, same goes to her.

big-big-fish.

The aquarium is a rip off. nothing much
to see inside except fishes and prawns that we eat.
well only a few caught my eyes.
especially those giant ones.

Continue walking and the sun decided to burn us alive.
The giraffe caught my eyes.

i've never seen anything as beautiful as this :)
they just continue even though 5mins has passed.

hi birdie :D

after 1hr 30mins we were done !
well we decided to just call it done because we
were tired, sleepy and sweaty.

Took a cab to KDE .
bloody hell, the 1st driver we asked : RM30.
I was like are u kidding me? the driver said oh because
he needs to pay parking, send us there then go back.
I said u park ur taxi why is it my prob, i m only asking u to send me
there and what does it matter to me that u r coming back? i didnt
ask you to come back.
then he said ok rm25 i just walked away. such close distance
u wanna charge me that much.

So we walked outside to the bus station there and there
was a taxi. i asked how much to go KDE he said Rm50.
i was shocked for awhile. we decided to just wait for cab.
finally got one and it was only rm10.
wait it was rm9.

When we reached KDE i felt raindrops falling on my head.
But after a few it stopped.
So i thought it wont rain and went in.

Dont compare la, impossible to compare -_-.

Time to go swimminggggg :D

The 1.8M deep pool.

I feel my left side so empty :(

i do know, she enjoys it so much after a hot tiring day
at the zoo.

Yes no make up. 1st time i have a no make up
pic posted ! :D and my terrible eye bags.
i never have them. until college started.

After only 10mins sitting at the pool, the lifeguard
gave us the timeout hand signal.
we have to get out because it was gonna rain.
we just got there and had to get out. wtf.

But nvm, we went jacuzzi and sauna.
warm water some more.
no people and more privacy. well actually
the pool we were at also have no ppl cause its for
18+ only xD

Vincent picked us up, we had dinner at ampang point again.
Then home. I m feeling damn tired right now.
updated 3 entries tonight.
tmr have to rush revision , photography assignment
and revision. and tmr jialin is leaving :/

Love you :D

4th march. a day at home.

4th March 2011.
A day literally well not wasted but kinda wasted.
I got up, did the laundry and everything as usual.
Showered , make up and dressed up.
Who knew, mum and brother left home without a word
and the next thing u know we got no
transportation out.

So we decided to COOK at home.
Yes, we can cook. Maggie mee la xD.

Yes babe, i know u can cook. you cook i eat
thankyouverymuch.

and i'll stand behind and camwhore xD
no lahhh, in the end i cooked the mee.

To those who have been reading my blog from last year
till today, does it look familiar to u guess? xD
Yea, its like a total deja vu of last year sept.
Read here to see what we ate that time.

Satisfied over a simple meal :)
washed the dishes, cleared the rubbish.
and we were watching movies being couch potatoes.

The girl who is 19 :p

As you can see, she looks super comfy there.

5pm, did the laundry. i decided to play with the nikon camera.
was too bored seriously. just trying to
find any activity possible at home.
Sat on the stairs outside my home, wind was blowing.
super relaxing.

left me, right her.
holding hands, thru everything.
always my best friend and sister :)

nice nice nice? say yes cause i took it.

this is absolutely no doubt nice, cause got me in it. xD

Used live view option to capture both of us in it.

wasnt easy cause i have short hands. fml.

Went back inside, drink drink, camwhore somemore
BUT blur pictures goddammit.

Outside the balcony, i wanted to climb out to the other side.
but i know its impossible for me.
jia lin will definitely stop me.
its not like i will slip and fall :/

The is a 2 person bicycle at my balcony though.
both of us sat on it :D

Seriously we have nothing better to do.

anyone care for a ride? :D

After all these picture picture sessions we played WII.
unfortunately i dont know why, alot
of games cant be played. spoiled the fun.
turned it off then go back to my room and blasted my
speakers. dance to sweat off what we kept eating
in the afternoon.
oh, i forgot to mention. we kept munching on chips. -_-

But around 11pm+, we ordered pizza even when i said i
didnt want to have dinner -_-.

I told my baby lin that we are going to the zoo today.
she laughed it off and probably thought i was joking.
She had no idea i was mad serious.

Will continue in the next post ! :D

3rd march 2011 :)

2rd March 2011.

The eve of my birthday, i decided to celebrate
it with my kai yeh :)
So in the evening i met up with him at our usual place.
Had dinner there as well.
I remembered watching him stressed on the phone.
The more stressed he is, the more he laughs, my brother
and i laughed.

Then when the clock turned 12am, 3rd March,
it was my birthday. Kai yeh wished me happy bday,
everyone there did, and my fb was getting spammed with wishes.
There was a mini tiramitsu cake out of nowhere xD
It was the 1st time i celebrate exactly when its 12am.
I was happy =)

But whenever its 12am on 3rd March, bad memories returns
to me. The day someone i really loved left on that very morning.
Yes, i have gotten over him but i guess the worst
thing a person can ever do is leave you on a special day,
when the promised they'd be with you.

3rd March 2011, its my birthday so what?
Still have to wake up early in the morning just to wash
clothes and do all the laundry when i hardly even
have any sleep which caused me to have headache.
Someone spoiled my morning, the name is nixon.
I was moody, and got scolded for being moody by
the person i call mum.

In the afternoon time went to pick up my sister from
another mother JiaLin. She is staying overnight until Sunday =)

Us on the way to Jogoya for dinner.
My mum is friend with the boss so umm yea, he decided
to give free dinner for my family, friends and i to celebrate.
And even throw in 2 cakes.

The moment we reached, Jia lin and i went
walking up and down for food, we ordered spaghetti
and my mum ate it then we have to order again.
Everyone started eating except for us -_- we were too
busy walking up and down.

So we ate and ate and ate until satisfied.

The pumpkin so cute x)

After everyone said they had enough food, the cake
was brought out :)

Chocolate cake. The decoration is so vintage.

Cheese cake. Cute x)

I didnt want to cut it :/

The birthday song was sang, wishes was made,
candle was blown, cake was cut.
Then we went home. Just like that, my birthday for
the night ended.

Received 3 presents that day.

Hello Kitty cup from Jia Lin :)

Teddy bear from Jason and my brother :)
Even Jason came for the dinner :D

Swarovski from mum's friend.
Its the 1st time i received swarovski as my present.
Well actually, its my 1st swarovski as well.

A pacifier pendant -_-.
And yup, its around my neck.

Around 300+ friends on fb wished my happy bday,
it made my day so much :)
Atleast i know who cares and who doesnt ;D

Thank youuuuuuuuuuu to everyone who wished me,
gave me presents, and made me smile ! :D
Although its not any big celebration , or partying ,
or thousand of presents i dont mind.
I had fun in my own ways, and i am thankful i get to live another
year :) ( I am now 19 if u r wondering. )
i love you guys for being there for me.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart :)

my short summarized updates.

BOOOYAH ! Its officially one month and i havent
update anything !
And yes yes i still do look the same. Been called thin
one min then fat the next.
Meaning my weight is always up and down never steady.

I feel like i have so much i have
to share with you guys but at the same time i forgot
everything that has happened.
I just have 2 words to described between this 1mth.
SHITS HAPPENS.

In college, from foundation in commerce i transferred
to Diploma in Mass Comm. I really have lack
of interest in numbers, and mass comm is really my main
interest. Being a journalist isnt that bad.
Filled with adventures but also, u can get ur arse in jail
if u write one single detail that seems offending.

So main course started, busy busy with test, assignments
and more assignments then rumors then gossips and etc.
you know college, anything can happen.

My sister from another mother came back to msia for
only few weeks and due to transportation probs
i only got to meet her twice. fml.
and each time i met her was only few hrs.
Longest was 3hrs. double fml.

Darling i miss you :(
I remembered the last day we got to see each other,
we hugged goodbye and we cried.
It became a tradition to cry whenever we part.
Its just so hard to part from the precious person you can find.

Decided to get new 3 lenses and threw away my old ones.
Will do a lens review when i am free i promise.

I started getting closer to my college friends :)
Getting in touch with my friends whom i've
stopped contacting with. and seriously, i cant live without them.
Remember kent chan ? :D

Tah dah ! Yeash webcammed with him again.
And he is still so mad cute :)
Always my brothaaa. not brother but brothaa :D

My 2nd sister from another mother returned from Singapore,
and yeash i finally got to meet her.
Went to TS, kenny rogers, sing k then go home.

She is soooo busy singing and cant be bothered with
me camwhoring -_-.
Thats when my hair grew longer :D
I thought of growing it back to stomach length BUT
i am too impatient when it comes to hair.
How am i to have long hair again?

I've a new kai yeh ( godfather) who takes good care of me.
He taught me alot new things from his experiences.
Things i didnt know.
I m glad to be able to meet him :)
I even attended to one of his kiwanis event. Super
new experience.

I have had relationship problems. Caused me pain,
tears and more pain. I admit i was wrong.
I fell for another person, he became my 3rd person.
I hurt 2 men at once. They did anything and everything for me,
they make me smile, they show me care.
But all i ever gave them in return was heart breaking moments.

Wanted to be single in order to stop hurting them, i couldnt.
Because of feelings. memories. tears.
But who knew, i was hurting myself too.
I hated myself for any reasons possible.
I thought of committing suicide ENDLESS times.
I cried myself to sleep, been called paled endless times.
Swollen eyes, finally they are fine now.

I felt pain LITERALLY in my heart each day.
Something i've not experienced.
But i've learnt something new from my mistakes and
i grew alot stronger.

I will go into more details sooner or later when i am free
with alot of what i've learnt.

I'm not a good girlfriend, not a perfect one.
But now i'm slowly getting on track to becoming one again.
i'm sorry for hurting you. making you lose trust in me.

i was tired of being strong and needed someone to become
strong for me but i guess i depended too much on them.
i'm standing up tall again, being weak isnt me.

i know i have to be successful in life,
its now or never :)

brother's graduation.

I know its almost 1month since i've last updated.
You may have thought i might be dead but
bad news for you i am not :D

But seriously, i am so sick of my life routine.
Morning to afternoon college, afternoon out with mum
till evening and when i am home its house chores then
sleep. My bed time used to be 4-5am then it went to
1-2am now its 11pm -_-. The big changes how college can
do for you. But honestly i am damn sick of doing
house chores, its tiring after a long day and the worst
is despite the fact that i do everything at home,
mum still calls me lazy and the worst thing she
said to everyone was ' dont do anything at home,
when you need something done just tell mabel and she'll
do it when she is home from college'.

I was like FML. literally fml.

Anyways, 16th January was my brother's graduation day.
It was held in Segi university in kota damansara.
Rushed like mad in the morning, i had to deal
with house chores then prepare myself.

Nearby the university there was ppl selling
flowers , mum asked if we should buy one for my
brother, i knew he would hate it or feel embarrass so i said
YESSSSS. :D

Decided to buy him a mini bear but turns out he wanted
a doreamon one . So FAILED !
So we reached and yup we were late.

Speeches, speeches and speeches.
I looked around the room and i can see everyone
was being bored -_-.

And i just knew that it wasnt just subang segi that was
graduating but also KL and kota damansara segi as well.
BUTTTT, when they announced segi subang jaya all
the graduates cheered damn loud !
Meaning, subang jaya ppl knows how to have fun :D
And i had a feeling that when its my turn to graduate
with my friends its gonna be the same.

I find it pretty stupid that they dont allow picture
taking. Then how can ppl capture their moments on stage?
Got ppl taking pic la but you need to PAY for it.
so i couldnt capture my brother on stage.
If only i have that huge ass long lens that can zoom to the moon.

So finally everything was done and lunch was served
outside.

Mummy, brother and me. Why am i so short?

I dont really remembered what happened but i think
we went home after that and my brother and i
enjoyed watching tv and munching on leftover turkey.

Dear mummy and brother.
In my future graduation i want a bigger flower xD
if you girls are wondering why my eyes look diff is because
i stopped using fake eyelashes.
Will only use it when i have photoshooting sessions.
or maybe outing which i feel photo taking will take place.

You know when i was in the hall listening to those
speeches given, i felt a feeling of happiness for
my brother but yet a feeling of sadness.
Because he will be leaving to australia to
further his studies. I know he is mad excited to leave but
i know i will sobs like mad when he does.

He have always been around me for 19years,
and i know one day obviously we will leave and
be apart from each other to have a life of our own.
Maybe just maybe, i am afraid i might feel lonelier than
before when he isnt here anymore, i might
not be able to have someone i can laugh with and spill
anything and everything to. We dont treat each other like
bro or sis but instead like a friend that can never be replaced.

During the graduation i also felt another feeling.
I cant wait for my graduation, thats what i felt.
But the same feeling occurs when i thought of that,
the distances between friends and family if i were to leave
after my diploma. Well yea, we are still able to talk to each
other online or thru the phone but the gap will be wider.
or worst, totally forgetting one another.

Yes graduation seems likes the most awesome-st time
of your life but also a shittiest one perhaps.
But somehow at this very moment, i wish it was i who is
leaving. I m tired of memories here. Arguments everyday.
Stress. Pressure. Tiredness. Its getting into me.
To a point where i almost wanted to commit suicide. again.
And literally gone mad for few hrs.
I swear its real, i was just lucky enough i was able to wake
myself up. If not the only time u'll see me is when u look up the sky.

And the only word ppl can use to describe me is PALE.
fml.

Actually not only my brother graduated.
I also did.

Graduated from APP only -_-.

Currently in a crappy mood again.
soooo, i've updated for now and god knows when
i'll be free to update again.
Take care my sweethearts :)