the feeling of love part 2 & i hate snakes !

Just moments ago when i went out to
collect some of the dry clothes in
i felt something watching me.
A cloth fell on the floor so i bend down to take it up
but holy !@#$% !! A friggin snake was there.
Thank god its a small one but freakishly long.
I told my grandma there is a snake *she was with me*
She ran and said WHERE WHERE !?
I was laughing but i went to call my grandpa to get
rid of it. When my grandpa came , i asked
my grandma where did it go she said no idea.

She didnt keep an eye on it zomg.
So nvm i kept a close eye on the floor to see if it
was there. It wasnt.
I was standing at the thingy where we hang
our clothes i felt something near my leg
and when i look down it was there -_- thank god
i didnt panic, if i did it would have bite me.
I called my grandpa out again and he took a stick
and whack it on the head.
Good job grandpa :D

This morning there was a medium size snake wrapped
around my house gate. My grandma encounter it, she
thought someone tied a rope on the gate until
she saw the snake's head moved ahahah xD
My grandpa got rid of it too. He may be old
but isnt afraid of anything ._. i mad praise him.

Anyways, yesterday i got woken up by mummy
saying we are going out to eat seafood.
I was like i dun wan seafood i just wan my bed.
She said get up T~T.

Turned out the place is quite amazingly beautiful.
I forgot whats the place called.
You can fish there :)
There is several ponds.
Some view of it.

I just had to edit the colours of it,
forgive me ._. i just like giving a different
feeling in every photos.

Huge aint it? :D

When my brother walked close to the pond,
a snake was in it .
WHATS WITH SNAKES ?!
I am already dating one isnt that enough ? :p

Food was delicious except the tom yum
soup was so so so spicy !
The amount of water i drink is more than i eat.

But didnt matter because i was mad happy for
one reason. I finally got my brown lens !
YES ! After few months of waiting and hearing
ppl say oh its out of stock at the moment
i finally got it !!

Not using fake eyelash :)
Got tired of using it.

Without fake eyelashes i look more
natural anyways.

Close up of it :)
But i really miss my green lens :(
I blame you hong kong sink !

Few days ago i was jk to my boyf about
him not writing a love letter to me,
he surprised me by doing it.
Instead of just writing it on a A4 paper he went out
to buy cute lil books and biscuits that i love.

Not one but few.

This was part of his creativity.

Love will really make someone go far just for their
special half. Its really unbelievable.
And when i say special i really mean special.
You know you are their special someone is when you
can totally change them without having
to try your hardest and the small lil things they are
willing to do for you no matter how many times
you say they dont have to.

They make you feel loved whether you want to
feel it or not. They make you feel super
protected with their security and warmt
aura around you when you are with them.
Putting you 1st. Sacrificing things they loved to do.

You know whats the best feeling of love?
From what i have experience is when you 1st
fall for someone so hard and making
them yours was all you think about.
And how you would read their msgs over and over again.
Every love songs relates to them.
But when they hurt you, every emo song is
for them as well and thats when you know you are not over them.
Sometimes the tears of pain you cry is part
of the best feeling of love.
Those feelings, i swear not a single word can
describe it.

My brother fell for a girl without knowing.
He have never been emo for someone and
yesterday he was. And i came to realize maybe
she is the special one who could change him?
And maybe he could change her? He would
just come to me and ask for advices, thats
something very rare of him to do especially its about LOVE.

Even till today we always wonder
is love really such a powerful things in life?
Its like a life and death situation thingy if you
know what i mean.
Some people get hurt and they are so afraid
of getting into another relationship.

Sometimes we have to understand, not
everyone is the same. Just because someone
treated you like a total rubbish doesnt
mean the next one will. Dont be afraid to love and
step into a new relationship. As much as you dont
want to, but admit it, ur heart does.
Everyone needs a little love and care in life.

If you ask me how do i always stay in a long
relationship the answer is easy.
Current boyf is better than my previous.
We have to be understanding and patience.
When argument arrives, just apologize and let it go.
Well i dont know about you guys but for me
meeting everyday isnt something great if u r
looking for a long distance.

Sometimes distances is required in a relationship to feel
the feeling of ' missing them'. So when
you meet up again that close feeling you'll
feel is totally different compare to meeting everyday.
And i have a friend who told me his ex gf broke
up with him and her reason was 'i am used to being
with you that i dont feel the feeling of love anymore'
Total bullshit but it might be true ._.

Do something new together !
Whether its exercising or walking the dog or
whatsoever, it will bring a new change to relationships :)
The book my boyf bought, i decided to make
it our lil love story/journey book. To fill
up whatever we feel or unforgettable memories and
can you imagine after few years you bring it out
and read it again? You can laugh and it and be like
'did we really did all this?'

And when you have zholy crap its 5pm+ already ?!
Crap i hate to say this but i got to get ready
because the boyf is coming round at 6+ to
pick me up for a movie.
Part 3 coming soon. in god knows when. :p

Short review on calorie off massage shaper :)

Okayyy so ummmmm.
This afternoon i received my Calorie off
massage shaper and when i took a pic of and
it posted it on twitter, many ppl ask about so i've
decided to do a short review on it :)

Ofcourse the question ppl ask is
'Does it work ?' -_-
Well i just got it today and havent use it at all
so yea, will let u guys know after a week.

But i did read the review 1st before getting it.

Here it is.
For arms and thighs.
It also have waist as well but i did not need it :)

This product is said to burn 399 calories per hour.
Recommended usage frequency is 4~6hrs.
Some review i saw said its fine to use it during bedtime
and some say its not safe to do so.
But i too would recommend not to use it
during bedtime cause it is wrap tightly around ur body.
There is no telling what it might cause.

Its a pair inside.
The size is approximately between 22~35cm for arms.
And for thighs its 42~57cm.
Its quite stretchable so i think its should fit everyone :)
The material is Nylon & man made fiber.

The wave-like patterns on the fabric creates friction
during movements. It massages ur arms/thighs
to tone and firm, burning off calories at the same time.

This is for the arms.
Sorry for the blur picture.

And this is for the thighs.
Can use as a legging :D

So i am done with the short review :D
Will let u know if its work or not
after a week kays ? :)

Now that i am done i am gonna do my mask !

Yay ! bought it at watsons today :D
They had this buy one RM5.90 and
get the next one for RM1 ! :D

Oh and if you are interested to buy
the piggy massage shaper tell me :)

grandma's bday dinner and i wan my egg tarts.

First i would like to apologize if this post is short
because my head is currently in pain and
i am not in a good mood.
Anyways this post is for yesterday. I reached
home at 2am so yea it was too late for me to update.

23rd October it was my grandma's birthday.
My mum and family decided to have a dinner
celebration for her. It was held in Flower Drum restaurant.
If you are wondering where its just around bukit bintang.

I woke up feeling dizzy like literally, as if i just
woke up with a hangover. Took my medicine and
i wanted to go back to sleep but my mum
started asking me to do things and make up and hair
for my aunty, grandma and whoever is female.
I was like HEAD DONT FAIL ME !
And it stopped hurting. Thank you panadol.

So it was my time to get changed.
I think i've changed more than 5sets of clothes.
Long dress = boyf hate.
One piece jumpsuit = mum said no.
another jumpsuit = mum said no.
and so on and on. How i wish dinner attire can
just be PAJAMAS ! Cute , comfy and hassle free ! >:(
In the end, thank god i found my 3yr old dress that i wore
to my uncle's wedding and thank god it fit me.

Wait and wait and wait for my boyf to come
and pick me up from home since he dont know where
the dinner is held in.
Mum called and brother called asking me to
hurry and what not.
Then i got pissed.

Outfit of that night.

Boyf came, i went up the car and mins later
we reached. Turned out mum didnt need me anymore.
And my baby and i had to stand and wait
until she finished with her stuffs before we can get
to out seats because we didnt have enough place.

We were placed on the table with my mum.
It was alright because she have friends that i know
seated next to me. A really kind and friendly uncle.
He gave me food while i wasnt looking.

I felt super pampered yesterday night tho :p
Baby took food for me and i didnt have to move at all.
Mum's friend took food for me as well and both
of them peeled off prawn shells off for me ! xD
See ? Thats why my boyf calls me little princess.

These kind of dinner very traditional one.
The 1st dish that comes out confirm 100% is this .

Then hor, followed by this.
And then and then a piglet. I really feel
sry for those piglets that have to be killed and eaten at
such young age :(

My mum kept pouring alcohol for ppl and
keep drinking and drinking and drinking.
Then started taking a microphone and started
singing and singing. Oh did i mention i had to
do a welcome speech? I didnt even know what i said.

My god-cousin a small boy at the age of 4 or 5,
kept wanting to play with my iphone games and
!@#$% he wont give it back nor let it go !
At 1st i was like fine i have 90% battery and he might
just play with for awhile. but fuck no, he wont let go
until ur battery life is DEAD ! My mum's friend gave
the kid his iphone and he finished the battery -_-.
But atleast he is a good kid so i didnt mind, some more
i gave him half of my seat and feed him half of my food.

Yes i love kids and i may or may not be very good
with them.

Cutting cake them !
HAPPY BDAY GRANDMAMA ! :D
Me love you :)

The cake which i didnt eat at all.

Dont worry grandpa, i love you too :)
*everyone had their kiss from me just that
the photographer aka my cousin, went to toilet
when these touching moment happens*

Oh ! and my mum intro a girl to me.
Not just any girl.
She was born on the same time, same day, same mth,
same year and same hospital as me. ZOMG !
But no we dont look alike, i look way way way more
mature than her :(

Hey baby ! stop eating !

My aunty who treats me as her daughter :)
She always wants to meet whoever is my boyf -_-

So my boyf officially met my whole family and
they know who my current boyf is.
Super super super official already lor muahaha ! xD
Everyone said he is handsome i was like -_- but
no joke, he is :p But i have someone who is much more
handsome and cuter than my boyf by 100%.

' YOU ! Dont mess with me ! '
Yup this little man right here :D
My super adorable baby cousin who never
fails to make me go awwwww ! x3

Everyone left, said goodbyes,
mummy hugged my boyf and ask him to
take care of me -_-

So the night ended.
Slept at almost 4am and woke up at 10am.
Beautiful morning because the 1st voice i heard
was my boyf's :) He called me the moment i opened
my eyes. I bet he put cctv in my room -_-

Went back to the same place for brunch.
Cause they gave us one free table for dimsum !
Everything was free :)

Beautiful chandelier. I swear when
i have a house of my own i will have atleast
one of these lights. And no, they arent cheap.

All we had to do was just sit and enjoy.
Dont even need to order.
One type of dimsum they bring 3-4plates of each.

I felt like i hardly ate but i was so full.
*sorry for the dirty plate :p*

EGG TART ! I freaking ate the whole plate !
Well not whole just 3 actually :(
Yes i love mini egg tarts and it have been a year
since i last ate them. Yea 1year no joke.
And right now i am craving for more :(

Family enjoying the food and karaoke .
Yes they gave us a room with karaoke which
made us stayed for 3hrs.

Cannot finish~ Anyone want ? :D

I dont know who took this but
its epic because my brother , me and my grandma
have the same hand gesture.

And lastly, happy birthday to two of my cousins.
Forgot to mention we celebrate their bday today -_-
My bad :p

You know i seriously really pity my boyf sometimes.
Because he doesnt get mad at me, nor scold me,
and whatever i ask him to do he does,
he gives me care and calls me at night when i m asleep.
Pamper me like a real princess, no joke when i said that.

The night before yesterday, he called when i was
sleeping i was annoyed. When he cant sleep he calls me
i get annoyed and mad at him. When i cant sleep
i call him, he stays up even when he have to work
the next morning.

Yesterday he was busy with work but yet he
wanted to attend to my grandma's dinner because
he felt as a boyf he really should.
He was late picking me up and i got angry becuz
mum gave me pressure of being late.
I scolded him but he didnt get mad.

Baby i am sorry >_<
I really thank you for having you with me.
I love you deep deep ! xD

get a life you copywhores !

I want this !
Hello Kitty instax mini ! SO CUTE !
And i can have random pics to stick around
in my room ! But idk how much it is now.
When i saw it in HK i wanted to buy but
wasnt sure but now i am damn sure !
Save money , save money & save money !

And noooooo, i dun want my boyf to buy
it for me. I prefer getting things myself.
He even insisted that he sign up for
iPhone4 and give me the phone and he
take my iPhone3Gs.
I said NO ! Save ur money biiiiiii ! >:(

I also want a new digital camera T~T
Canon ixus 100 IS.
I just really like the colours xD
Aiks ! I want cameras so badly :(
I am a camwhore afterall anyways :p

I ammmm currently in a bad bad mood because
of some very same-old-scenario thingy that
happens all the time in my family life.
So umm yea. no use repeating it again and again
and again. Still being called 'LAZY' when i am doing
almost every house chores at home is really FML.
I even have to change bed sheets for my mum and brother
and wash their dishes. Thank god i dont have to wash
my brother's boxers or else imma just throw it in the bin.

I am pissed enough and on facebook when i approved
someone , i saw her info and i literally boom to flames.
she COPIED and PASTE my whole freaking info
and just changed the name and age.
I just shoot her and told her not to copy anyone's
info or whatsoever. Its freaking ANNOYING !

Its like helloooo !
YOU ARE NOT ME !
You think just because you copy and paste
my 'classy and rude at the same times' means
you are? FUCK NO !
When i wrote that i really really mean that .
People think i am SUPER ELEGANT HIGH CLASS and RICH
girl on the outside with goood manners but when
you really get to know me, you'll know i am
pretty rude and i do swear some times.
I have my own attitude and i m hard to deal with at times.

Why cant some people just be original?
Just be themselves?
Why is it a must to feel the need to copy someone
so you'll feel better about yourself?
If you like someone's way of writing something
or whatever and is afraid to use them,
give them credit and ask for permission to do so.
If they say no then fine, leave it and come up with
something better with ur own unique style.

Its not the 1st time that someone copied me.
i also found someone else that literally copied my whole
fucking self introduction and just changed
her name her school blah blah and i really wanna
boom her to ashes but i didnt.
WHENTHEFUCK will you people stop copying me ?
I FEEL NOT UNIQUE ANYMORE BECAUSE OF
YOU PEOPLE !

I am not even a celeb .
Why copy me? Because i am unique?
I know i am. But you know what?
You guys are unique as well.
No matter how hard you try to copy my every
way of doing something, maybe even blogging,
*if i ever find out someone did imma sue you !*
or whatsoever, you cant 100% be me.
Face, body, hair and everything is already different
to start with. you got ur own and i got mine.

Be happy with it.
Stop making people pissed off because of u copying
their everything. Its not cool yo !
Can you imagine if u met a drama bitch and
she starts spreading the news about you copying her
like deadly virus? If you do not wish
for that to happen then i think you should know
what you should not do now :)

I am done with scolding.
Infact i am in a bad bad mood.
What's worst? My baby is friggin sick !
He is coughing and sneezing non stop on the phone !
And i feel crappy that i cant do anything !
BABY GET WELL SOON ! :(
I LOVE U ! :D

B to the O , to the O , to the B to the S. BOOBS !

BOOBS !
B to the O , to the O , to the B to the S.
I dont know why i just got that cheerleading
kinda spelling it way in my head.
Oh well once again !
B to the O , to the O , to the B to the S ! xD
Just dont get it stuck to ur head like i did.
Its kinda umm wrong and perverted.
But normal at the same time *i think*

Boobs also known as breasts in a more scientific
term, is just two fat of lumps that come in different
shape and size. But why is it they are such a big
drama fats that people fuss about?

To girls, boobs are part of our confident assets.
Especially to those whom doesnt have a brain
to show off, they use their body assets.
*i am not offending anyone but its just a form of expression*

Yesterday i got my 1st argument with my boyf
that made me did not answer his calls
and only forgive him after an hr was because of BOOBS!
See how evil these 2 lump of fats is?
I believe we are not the only couple who had argument
over this. Millions others have too.

As you all know, i am not a girl who is gifted
physically with the so-called perfect stats of
36-24-26. I have been created with rather big bone
for a girl structure but there isnt anything i can do about it.
Not only am i not gifted with a body of a goddess,
i am also not gifted with my assets aka boobs.
I am flat.

When i was 17, pretty much my last year of puberty.
My boobs didnt grow much but infact it DEFLATED itself
when i turned 18.

Push up bras is the only option if i wanna show
off cleavages that i dont have.
But i hate it because it uncomfy and i dun wan breast cancer !

How come i looked so cute when i was 17 and not now?
Sorry random :p

My ex boyfs, current boyf, friends, etc etc
keep saying i got small boobs and if
i ever thought of getting it bigger.

My answer is always NO but i guess it never got
into their head. The body is mine, what has it
got to do with them?

When i talked about it with my BFF
Vinod, i was telling him,
'how do you think i look with super big boobs?'
He said i would look very very very weird.
Its not me anymore.
Its like small defines who i am.

I am so sick of ppl making fun of my boobs but i dont
say it to them. I just keep quiet and laugh it off with
them but it really does hurt inside.
I am already not satisfied with my body shape,
thats already hard enough for me to look at the mirror
and now you wanna rub it in my face and make
me hate my body even more. Its like should
i just cut my head off and attached it to a perfect man made body?
Or should i get like thousand of plastic surgery?

What i am really trying to point out is,
THINK and THINK and bloody hell just THINK
before you insult someone body figure.
Especially to girls ! Girls are super super super extremely
mad super sensitive about comments ppl made
to their body ! So if u have nothing good to say about it
just shut the eff up. It will save you from drama.

The body is not yours, if you think they can do something
to improve their body just say it once and not
thousand of times. If the person really wanna
do something to it like lose weight or whatever why would
they until today?
If its for HEALTH purpose then fine, MOTIVATE them.
If its for SEXY purpose then fuck you, you may go
die and burn in hell.

Do you know, the sexier/attractive a girl is, the more
danger they are likely to get in?
1st. perverts, thats more than enough.
kidnap, rape and murder. the end.
That is pretty much big boobs gives you.

And whats the funniest thing about boyf asking
their girlf to make their boobs bigger is that,
when it really succeeded to being big,
the girl cleavage shows out abit the bf will be
' pull ur shirt up higher ! dont simply let it out !'
when other people stares the bf says
' imma scoop his eyes out !'

Do you see any advantages to making boobs bigger?
If you are gifted with a perfect size then
good for you, be proud of it but not flaunt it too much.
Set a limit, dont make urself a pornstar without knowing.

If you arent, still be proud of it.
Small boobs allows girls to do alot more things without
knocking things over with it or having
men stare at it as u run and it jiggles up and down.

I am not strong with my body outlook
but i am strong in my heart and with my brains.
Thats really 100% much more sexier than boobs.
Girls be proud.
Dont go destroying what your mama gave you !
There is a reason to why we have what we have.

I found my reason.
God must have knew i love dancing so he
gave me smaller boobs which makes it
easier for me to dance and yet just enough
to feed my future baby ! :D
And i dont attract men who just love me for my boobs !

Dont do whatever you dont want
just to make people like you.
Its not worth it.

Always love urself for who you are and what you have.
Its all YOURS and no one have the rights
to change that fact.

The dog i am holding is currently having
her period and is wearing diaper ! xD

Goodnight :)

success cant be measured with material.

Whoever doesnt love this picture is an ass!
I'm JK :p but no seriously.
Self timer pictures can be so awesome if u
know where to stand and bend ur knees xD

Or maybe sit.

Or stand.

And whatever you do just strike a pose.
as sexy or as bitchy as possible.
Thats what makes picture perfect.

And have u meet ms.long hair?
The one the tangles all the time and is
super dry which imma snip off soon.

My boyf asked why am i taking pics with SHORT
shirts now. I asked him what he loves about me.
He said my STRONG CHARACTER
So therefore, instead of just voicing my
strong character, i want my pictures
to speak for itself as well.
They stand out strongly dont they? ;3

Yesterday i had conversations with alot of ppl.
And majority of them said besides journalism,
if i master in motivation skills more i can have
my own seminar in future, just like how i do in my blog.

I told my boyf about it he said NO i cant do it.
I was thinking to myself 'wow, what a supportive boyf -_-'.
He said because i cant take control of my own
emotions. And motivators need to control their
own emotions.

I dont know how being a motivator works but i
know not everyone follow rules.
Majority of ppl is good at motivating or cheering
someone up or giving super good advice but they
dont apply whatever they tell ppl to themselves.
Plus its not like you are gonna suddenly go mad
or have mood swings when you are
giving speeches now am i right? Unless
you are a psychopath then i wont blame you.

But despite the fact my boyf said NO i cant do it,
i am not pissed. I am HAPPY !
Because i now have another person to prove
that i CAN do ANYTHING i want providing
if i want.
Which means i am now able to find another reason
to push myself to SUCCESS.

Now when we speak of success, whats the
1st thing that comes to your mind?
Money? Fame? Being a boss?
Actually all these so-called success is stereotyped
by our thinking. All these cant measure success.
If u ask me what is success, i will answer happiness.
Not just any happiness but TRUE happiness.

When someone sees you truly happy they will see
you as success. Can you imagine,
with ur other half, ur own kids and a house to call ur own.
Whats more happy than that?
Material happiness only last for awhile.
Families and friends last ur whole life.

I have a friend who kept speaking of fame to me
last night. I personally dont see the big deal
of being famous. Even if you are famous you are
still a human being, you still have to die.
Its not like being famous gives u immortality.
And what is the big deal if u r going to work
with celeb? Its not like they are superheroes that saves the world.

And does being famous means you have upgraded and
think you did a good job? And fame doesnt
leads to big money? If you answered yes,
you may go jump off a cliff.

You know you are doing a good job and moving
up to a better progress is when you are much
more prouder of who you are and the outcome
of the works you done.
You dont have to famous to know that.
When you have fame, people will have their eyes on
you and target you as their next cash cow.
Meaning making money off you.
And the fella argued back saying no.

I was trying to point out to him fame isnt everything.
I want him to realize that.
Because when people want fame so bloody much
they over try and do things which usually makes them
destroy everything themselves.
What does fame give ppl?
To be LCLY only. Then they forget and neglect
all the things that was once important to them.
Thinking they have a higher status to diss
anyone they want. And make us 'normal' ppl as slaves.

That fella said he 'have' fame now and isnt
making money. And he is a 'living example' of someone
'famous' but not making money.
I was like fml am i really gonna explain further to him?

1st. his so-called fame isnt CELEB fame.
He doesnt appears in books, newspapers let alone tv.

2nd. just because u have a fb fanpage of 2k-3k doesnt
mean you are famous. 2-3k in a fanpage is only 0.001%
of fb percentage which means you are not even well
known in the WORLD except in ur little gang,
in ur same country and same state.

To measure fame is by using world. that's fame.
Incase you dont know, famous means to be known by
1/2 of the world and whomever speaks of ur name
is like 99% of their friends will know who the eff
you are even if they havent seen ur face.

So just because i have one fb acc that have 5k friends
in my friend list and 3k+ in friend request
then i have another acc with 2k+ almost 3k friends
in friendlist, and i used to have a fanpage of almost 3k
but deleted due to lazy to use it and now i have
a blog with 100+ visitors a day so i am famous?
So should i have a meet-the-fans day and take
pictures with sunglass on and give u my
signature on ur naked butt?
I have fame, i am not making money as well.

I guess some people just dont know how to differentiate
between net-famous and world-famous.
And when you truly love what you are doing,
fame, money and position wouldnt matter
to you. Thats call love.
I am writing my blog that entertains people
and yet i am not charging anyone.
Its because i love writing and the biggest
payment to me is having people reading it.
Thats really more than enough for me.

Before i end the post always remember :

To wish you were someone else is to
waste the person you are.

Be yourself. Let who you are, what you are,
what you believe, shine through every sentence
you write, every piece you finish.

and

Everything is possible. When you make a choice,
you change the future.

We only have one life and each sec passes is a sec
irreplaceable. Instead of just sitting and wondering
if you can do something you always wish to do,
why not make it happen?

Whoever you are, wherever you are,
i believe you are not alone.
There will always be someone who have your back.
Even if i may or may have not meet you
nor know who you are, i will have ur back as well :)

Spread ur wings and just fly like there is no tomorrow.

be proud of who u r.

Hello to all my little sunshines ! :D
Before i start, i think most of u should see
that i have never link any blog on my page :)
I rather use the followers option.
Its way convenient and less messy.
So if u wan to link me just click follow as shown below :D

Just one click, and when u login to ur blog account
dashboard, u can see whether i have update my blog
without having to click on my link everyday :D
Simple, easy and convenient :)

I had to sleep last night without aircon :(
It was fixed quite some time ago and
the same problems occurred. But i guess
sleeping with fan is alright except when the sun
rises its omfg hot.

I cant wait to cut my hair.
Having bad hair day 7days a week.

Yesterday, my boyf asked me to go Sepang goldcoast
with him but i couldnt because its my family day.
So we got to a mini argument and he said he hates me.
When i saw that msg i was like OHH ! I HATE U TOO !
But our argument is never big to the point
i yell and cry and it never exceed over 10mins.

Today, woke up with the heat from the sun.
Got ready to go out with my family.
Went to Telok Gong today for brunch.
Today is just 10.10.10, and everyone is making
a big deal about it but i dun see whats so special about it.
Its not like i won any lottery.

Well, had my brunch and the next thing u know,
the family decided to go Sepang Goldcoast.
When i heard it i was SPEECHLESS !
why couldnt i go with the boyf instead ?!

When i called my boyf, he was on his way back already.
FML. It was like a 3hrs drive i think.
And at 1st we stopped by at another beach which
is just 30mins away from goldcoast.
Give our butts some rest and off we go again.
FINALLY WE REACHED !

TAH DAHHH !

The man-made beach with oily water.
My aunty was like
'Yea its really GOLDEN PALM, the water especially' xD
I didnt even wanna soak my feet at all.
I can see the oil shining on the surface of the water.

And ofcourse, filled with little holes those small
crabs made and little sand ball they left behind.
I find it rather disgusting well not disgusting but kinda
like irritating feeling when i see alot of small little
ball stick together closely like the picture shown above.
Do you guys feel it too? one of my cousin does as well ._.

I drew this with my feet ! HUGE !
and i didnt have my camera with me so all these
pictures are taken with my phone.
All of a sudden i remembered something so i drew
a little something else :)

Thank god for the branch nxt to me.
Wanted to draw a heart but was afraid it might
be too big for my phone to capture it :(
When i posted it on twitter, friends said it was sweet
of me to do so and the picture is priceless :)

What is more priceless is that my boyf and i went
to the same place on the same day except
different time. Walked on the same path, breathe
the same air, under the same skies.

I bet a million bucks my boyf never thought of this
at all >;( Why am i so sure? Because i know
him too well and he enjoys teasing me.

Reached home at 10pm.
On my way home it was effing jam !
And the funniest thing happened was, there is
another way back to KL but thru Nilai and that route
there is jam-free so had to make a turn.
A car infront of us turned, and the next thing u know,
the front left tire went into the drain hole and got stuck xD
Thats what u get for making short cuts turn !

Moments ago, i think i might have or might
not have made an enemy but at the same
time i dun freaking care.

It was just about college inquiry thingys
and i went there to asked and even registered so
i just told him what the counselor explained to me.
and the next thing u know he said i am WRONG.
I was like mmhmm right, i just went and registered 2weeks
ago and i am pretty sure its fresh facts.

And he was like who is studying in segi?
1. Like i said, i went there 2 weeks ago.
2. I am in Subang segi, and he is in idk where.
3. My brother GRADUATED from segi subang.
4. Do i have to give him the counselor number whom
explained to me about it?
5. If you are so smart why not u go be counselor instead?

I am pointing out what i have been thru in plain
total none bullshit facts and i was being
nice he said i m starting an argument.
I was like lolwtf?

Okay, maybe WESTERNERS and ASIANS ways of talking
things out are different and when i am pointing
out my facts i m used to using DUDE infront.
Plus, majority of my friends gets my humors in
each sentences and when i start argument i wont
leave u chances to give feedback because i hurt
ppl without having to even try in less than one paragraph.

I may be asian, but i am international educated
so i m pretty much grown up with a westerner
attitude which i think is pretty cool cause it
keeps me open minded and dare to try new things.
Thats why i can address friends like dear, hun, darling or
whatsoever without feeling weird even if they
are the same gender. I can say out sex, vagina, penis or
dick without feeling embarrassed because its super normal
plus words are created for us to use and mouth to talk.
And whenever ppl call me bitch, slut, whore or whatever
i dun feel offended but i feel loved. I see ppl making
a big fuss over other ppl calling them these names and i m
like 'its just a word'.

Fuck you is like saying love u to me.

So once again, if u dun like me i never ask
u to be friends with me in the 1st place.
If u hate me for who i am now, please leave, i dun
need/want drama. Its effing annoying and troublesome.

When that dude said i am arguing with him,
all i said was, dun talk to me anymore, settled and kthxbye.
I dun need to apologize, i dun need to beg n say i am wrong.
For me to do that is like waiting for cows to fly
and pigs to climb on tree.

If u dun step on my tail or pull my horns, i wont
bite and chew ur flesh. I will love u with tender, love
and care.
I am proud to be who i am , i am not afraid to be myself.
If u think i used to be the girl who is easy to pick on,
i am truly sry. I guess i've been a pretty good actress
that none of u noticed. I m tired of acting. I learnt
nothing from it except i m not enjoying my life.
Now i am 100% being myself, and fuck yes i love my life.

If u think i've changed into someone nasty.
You are wrong. I've just grown up and saw the world
clearer than u'll ever see. I have been and met ppl you
wouldnt meet nor see in ur whole life.
My painful experiences changed me to who i am today.
Someone stronger, fearless, proud to be me.

If you wan to mess with me, think again :)

To everyone out there, never be afraid to stand up
and fight for ur rights.
Never be afraid to be urself.
Never be afraid to speak for urself LOUD & CLEAR.
Dont let people take advantage of you & step on ur head.
If anyone tries to pull you down be PROUD,
because you are on top of them ;)
yours truly - Mabel Chow

3am.
11.10.10.
Baby, 13th monthsary already . teehee ! ❤

Wohoo ! ppl fixing my aircon tmr !
YES !

call me BIIKACHU !

Yesterday i went over to my boyf's house.

His grandmama cooked dinner.
While he was on his way here, the traffic
was so freaking heavy !
It was like STUCK and not moving :(
I texted my baby sry because i made him get
stuck in the jam :p

When we reached his home, his mad dog
obviously welcomed me vigorously.
He just wants to hump my leg bad.
He grabbed on the my leg damn tight and when
i pushed him off his scratched me -_-.
The worst part is, his dog is almost as tall as i am. FML.
My boyf smacked the poor dog but i hugged it
like a small kid. Every dogs just enjoy playing,
and i love pets as much as i love anything else.

They are living species as well, the
closet thing to human after monkeys.
Just that they walk on 4 feets and cant talk.
So if we want to keep them in the 1st place we
should treat them right.
I treat my dogs like little babies.
Not just any little babies but MY OWN zai zai
and lui lui :)

Anyways, i entered the house and the dog
CHARGED into the house -_-.
I guess no one plays with him at all.
I helped grandmama with some stuffs and what did
my boyf did when he entered?
Greeted his grandma and then sat his arse on the
couch and the TV on.
TYPICAL MEN ! Tell me this isnt my future husband
way of living ! or else imma not buy a TV at all ! ;D

And when i sat next to him, he completely did
not look at me in the eye EXCEPT when
he asked me to go and help his grandma but
grandmama said no she doesnt need help at
the moment and he smacked me HARD !
I swear i felt stinging feeling on my lap when he hit me !
I really wanna !@#$% boom him !
Because he ignored me for TV.

Had our meal. YUM ! :D
Then went up to his room and have a lil rest.
He asked me to go downstairs to talk
to grandmama but i really felt unwell.
So my boyf, left me in the room, went downstairs
for TV. again.
He DUMPED me for TV ! >;(

30mins later he came back in with a cup of water.
I was up standing and stretching and he
was like ' BII what were u doing ?! '
like as if i sneaked around to check for his idk
old stuffs i shouldnt see? xD
He held me in his arms :) ❤

And i asked for his childhood pictures.
When i saw it i was like 3 words.
HOU LENG ZAI !
But in the middle of growing up, also 3 words
NOOB DOU SEI !
Ahahahaha ! His face didnt really changed much
at all . Its like 80% same?
But ofcourse, during his transformation period
he was cuter ! ;D

Then he showed me all his certs, drawings, etc.
At that moment i've just taken another step
deeper into his life. I know him a little more.
I love him so much more.
A small history can bring a person so much
closer to you. Its incredible.

And the next thing you know, we both
fell asleep. I couldnt sleep the night before and i had
to wake up in the early morning then followed my
mum out to do her stuffs.
But my boyf ? I have no idea.
Stealing chickens in the night i guess.

I jumped up at 11.22pm, and woke the stupid up.
The 1st thing he did was pout his lips -_-
I had to kiss him. yer.
I'm 18 and i cant be out later than 12am ._.
Yea, soooooooo said goodbye to grandmama and left.

The dog was on his humping mood again !!
I jumped in the car ! When i looked outside
from inside the car, the dog was seated right
outside the door and looking at me thru the window.
Mad cute la ahahaha !

Reached home, showered and waited
for my baby to call.
I know he will definitely call and if he calls when i am
asleep i just annoyed and scolds.
So yea, better wait than letting him tease me the next
morning about it -_-.

Stayed home the whole day, and
watched POKEMON !
I missed it so much ! ahahaha i guess my babyhood
came out of me again.
Its nothing wrong with watching kid movie at our
age right? It proves i know how to enjoy life and AGE
doesnt matter. Its how u think with ur heart that matters.
Age is just a number to see who is younger or older.
Besides that, nothing more.

I am once again obsessed with pikachu
and mew.
I asked my baby to call me BIIKACHU !

I am thinking of cutting my hair short.
My hair is currently stomach length and
its dry at the ends, tangled and flat.
This is what i am planning to get.

Shoulder length hair.
Can style it as shoulder length bob
or

Wavy hair that isnt too exaggerated like
long hair when we curl the whole hair.
Simple, young and elegant.

And i might dye it to black, matte brown
or strawberry brown.
*its pink + brown but i just call it strawberry*

I always look alot better with poofy hair and
fringe. But i dislike fringe for few reasons tho.

When i was 17 but i had poofy layers.
Use ur hand or fingers to cover the bottom curls
and thats maybe how i will look with the hairstyle above.
Think it will suit me?
By the way, this is the shortest haircut i have -_-v

Actually i wanted to keep my fringe long like this.
Some say doesnt suit me.
some say mad suit me because it brings out
a different side of me -_-.
other says too mature for me.

But even if i do cut it short there should be no
regrets. Even if i miss having long hair there
is always wig or clip on hair extension which
is super convenient and i dont tie my hair much
because whenever i tie it up, the boyf ask me to take it down.

I'm only 18 so why not try whatever i can now? :)
Why always try to act old and look damn mature?
But i guess i am only doing it next year or something.
Mummy always goes to the saloon before CNY :p
And that's when i tag along ahaha.

Dont be afraid to try new things that arent
hurtful and reversible. We only get to live once.
Experiment and have fun - Mabel Chow ;)