fun fun college days.

Everyone has been asking how is my college life lately.
seriously at 1st it sucks balls but i guess
after u meet the right friends it gets awesomely awesome.
I've allowed few ppl more into my life so therefore,
you'll be seeing names u have never seen me mention before.
Starting off we have 3 guys, Elvin, Edmund and Jeremy.
And another guy Brian. With 2 girls Valerie and fazilah.

We have all only came to get close and got to know each other
after we were put into a group for a class presentation.
And pity Elvin, he have been my driver for few days xD
But i really have to thanks those 3 guys because they
have been patience with me, especially with picking me up
from home and sending me back. Plus listening to their
conversation in mandarin, i slowly pick up and improve.

Anyways, this morning i slept at 1am and woke up around 4am+.
I got ready, and waited for Elvin.
He was the one who was gonna pick me up,
We had to go class a lil early than usual to finish our presentation
touch up. But turns out we got locked out of class -_-.

In class, i was seated at the back as usual with my dear Valerie.
We both saw edmund and elvin doing other
stuffs on their laptop and it caused us to start laughing.
And when Mr.Rao our malaysian studies lecturer,
said JOKES ASIDE, Valerie and i burst into laughter.
Dont ask why, we just got our personal reason xD

Elvin so good lor ! Made salad for me. Because i dont
eat breakfast at all so he decided to make
something for me so that i wont get gastric easily.
Some more hor, today we had a black theme attire for vijey class,
i didnt have any black shirt. Elvin saved my life again.
He even brought few out for me to choose lor xD

Dunno why we all feel especially tired today.
All in class fishing with out head -_-

My gorgeous Fazilah, my adorable Valerie and
me with elvin shirt -_- i look so weird with guy shirt.

After class ended, we quickly do what we had to do for our
presentation. Thankfully we have Brian in our group.
He did an awesome job on putting all the scenes and everything
today. Yea we created a drama on drugs xD
Behind the scenes was epic-ly funny. so many NG because
of Jeremy cannot stop laughing -_-.

The boys doing everything xD

During Vijey call i can see few of us struggling to keep our
eyes open. Especially me. 1st time i was tired
in class. Did acting really take up so much energy?

After our presentation and class ended, i met
up with my dad but the moment he got up the car
we had to send him off to kl central. And its
crazily jam everywhere !

I really and seriously need to make a habit to have breakfast
every single morning i have class. I am losing
appetite, have 4times gastric pain within 1mth.
I've lost so much weight, my pants are falling as i walk -_-.

But anyways, i really have to thanks elvin for
doing so much stuffs for me =)
And the rest of you for being such great frens that we
never ever stop laughing at all.
I am actually looking forward to classes but not exams ._.

doors of opportunies opened.

I think majority of ppl know that i've went for my
1st photoshooting. yes 1st.
Everyone seemed surprised at it because
the outcome of it was really good but you dont have the
slightest idea of behind the scene -_-.

Starting the day, as usual 6.30am i wake up to get
ready for class but i slept late because
i didnt sleep. I rushed out and panic. I dont like to
be late for class and it was freaking jam !
Thank god i reached exactly at 9am but class started.

Feeling cold in class and i did not bring my jacket :(
A jacket i brought for photoshoot i didnt wanna
bring it out because i packed it soooooo nicely inside
a small bag. Class ended at 11.40am.
I walked over to submmit and waited for the photographer
aka ah ming my kai kor.
I've got to know him for about 1yr+.

He reached and i got up the car, i wasnt nervous at all.
All i wanted to do was just close my eyes T_T
then we noticed the weather was slowly turning dark.
When we reached the abandon railway, it was super windy.
I liked xD but 5mins later it rained.
We were like yoorrrrr. Photoshooting pics are way nicer
with natural sunlight.
When he was adjusting his camera setting i was adjusting myself.

Pull up my pants, dont wanna show my butt crack.
If not my boyf is gonna kill me xD.

My fav shot of the series. I look super thin
and super tall. cheh fake one. dont believe it k? xD

My fav fav stomach.
The whole session my kor was like
'Mei more expression! feel the theme ! move ur hands more,
just do any pose you wan'
My expression was totally just 'zzzz' i wanted to close my eyes so bad.

I tried to edit it myself with photoshop.
FAILED ! :(

I kena the rain during the photoshooting session,
and it was windy. I left my bata shoes outside the abandon
house it got wet. Then after the shoot ah ming and i ran
to the car, we were wet and was in the aircon.

2nd theme was casual, so we headed off to sunway
pyramid, new wing.

'Mei touch ur shoes' ahaha, ah ming is funny when
he posed as an example for me.

'Mei pretend you are looking at a beach, be happy
just smile'

And this is my fav shot of the series.

If you wish to have photoshooting session, or view more
of the pics you may click here
Like the page then like the album i am in and
write super nice comments k? i am just kidding xD

After the session ended, he took me to Sushi Zanmai =)
yup he kept his promised :D so nice~
but i didnt have any appetite to eat anything and i felt
a headache was coming. i knew i was gonna be sick any min.
After brunch, he sent me back to submmit.

Ah ming korkor, thanks for the photoshoot and
sushi :D sry if i've spoiled the photoshoot for you :(
After he posted and tagged me on fb, instantly
my fb request went up like mad and inbox msgs too.
All photographers asking for their turn to have a session
with me. wow :D thanks to ah ming kor , he opened
an opportunity for me =)

Back at submmit, i went to the ladies to changed
my shirt and wear back my bata shoes all though
its wet. I dont think wearing heels in college is
quite good -_-. i am not a big fan of heels anyways.

Our counselor organized a bowling outfit for us.
Thats why i had to go back to college all though class ended.
I started having super big headache.
But i still went anyways. But i requested to go
to watsons 1st just to get panadol. thank god headache stopped.

I was the 1st person up. Its was 3 person per lane.
My friend, counselor and i was in 1team.
Next to us was 3 guys which is super funny.
They made me laugh alot =)

So i took the ball, rannn and swing my hand back,
the ball fell behind me -_-. it was so oily !!
Thank god no one laughed. paiseh paiseh.

counselor VJ and friend Elvin :D

Well, we had fun although many of us complained having to go.
When i reached home i was getting
more and more feverish. I had to wait for
my mum to come back for the medicine but she
came back around almost 2am.
I woke up at 6am+ for class today, but my head felt heavy
and the moment i stood up i fell back down on my bed.
Sighs, i missed a class. I have said before even if
i am sick till death i will still go to class but
it was really hard. Havent felt this sick in such a long time.

I am feeling alot better. still a little feverish.
Just got home from dinner with my boyf.
its 1.18am right now, have
to get up early for class tmr.
Sorry havent got time to update blog much.
I will do it as soon as i got free time. =)

i've decided to give up.

Its been few days. I'm tired of breaking,
tired of falling, tired of crying.

You know guys, i always thought love is a wonderful
feeling but now i've realized, its wonderful yet heartbreaking
at the same time. Especially when you fall so hard for someone,
jealousy arise, and you tend to become so sensitive over
your guy talking to other girls, meeting their ex or anything
that has to do with girls.

If people say its because you dont trust them enough,
thats wrong. You trust them but you are just
so AFRAID to lose them. Especially when
you've been hurt by them the way you never expected but still
stayed with him because of love and promises you've made
with him whether or not he remembers it.
The first cut is always the deepest.

I guess when you grasp something so hard, you really
just spoil it yourself in the end. So, baby i've decided.
No, i wont stop loving you madly each day.
But i will set you free once again. I dont want you to lose
everything because of me. I've lost everything
because of my ex, i know how it feels. Nothing compare to a loner.

Maybe to you, there isnt anymore sparks to everything
we do together. But to me there is. No matter when/where
or how, you come and pick me up, i still get all excited
with the thoughts that you are on ur way, and every
date still feels like its the 1st date. Whenever i hear
my phone ring, and its ur name i see, i feel a warmth in me when
i answer the call and melt at ur 1st 'hello'.

Although we talked about going to college together,
having lunch together, going to college and home together,
and wait for each other no matter what time
the class ends. But now i know, plans doesnt always work out
even though we planned it ages ago. In the end, its just me
walking the path we planned. But i will still promise
to wait for you, and we'll get out of the country together.
Even if i am alone now, its fine.

I know i've became a complete loner, a complete anti-social girl.
I guess i have no choice but to stop being this way.
I should start mixing with more ppl. Its time
to brighten my life.

Baby, i know you may think i dont appreciate what you do
for me just because i dont say thank you often.
But honestly, i appreciate you more than anything else.
I appreciate things you do for me, even if you just let me
drink a sip of water from ur cup i thank you for it but
i just dont say it out.

I know i am no longer the girl you once thought i was,
i know i am no longer the girl you 1st fell in love with.
But i'm always the girl who stick with u no matter what.
Always the girl who loves you without reasons.

Although it may hurt me, but i dont want to be like
other ppl putting leashes on their partners like
dogs. Its not fair. You have ur friends, i got mine.
Its ur life, i cant take control of it.
I know i've said hurtful things like 'i dont need a man'
and 'i think i should stop loving u so deeply and set a limit'.
But i guess, i just cant make it come true even though i said it.
Because i need u more than anything else.

I've realized jealousy really KILLS.
So let me get over it, let you do whatever you want.
Go back to how it was in our 1st 3mths. I feel
you were happier those days. We girls may
call it flirting, but guys calls it making friends.

I'm tired of waiting for you to talk to me.
I'm tired of waiting till late nights for ur call and some times
i get none, then i wake up with a headache the next morning.
I'm tired of thinking you are flirting just because
you start a conversation with other girls.
You made promises with your ex or whoever fine, carry on.
Dont let me stop you anymore.

After our conversation last night, i did not go back to sleep but
instead i stayed up and think and think.
Yea you are right, i am over sensitive. I am selfish and
i am sorry. Which is why i am giving up on controlling you.
You never do control me at all. So why should i?
And yet you dont make a sound neither do you scold me.
Why? And you dont want anything from me except my
dog LuiLui.

Please dont make me change my mind. Please stop
telling me you want me to control you.
Its hard for me as well as you. I know i get insecure all
the time but i guess thats just how girls are.

And for all the guys out there.
We girls dont need to hear anymore lies like,
i only read ur blog and no one else,
i dont talk to any other girls, or,
i'll stop talking to them.
In the end the next day, we just find you talking to them.
Its ridiculous.

Whenever i login and happens to see u talking with other
girl on ur facebook, i call you a jerk, and the girl a slut.
See? Thats totally over sensitive now isnt it?
So, you might as well change all ur password.
I dont want a mini- heart attack anymore.

Baby, i know ur an awesome guy. I know you love me.
And i know other girls dont matter to you but
just like what you said, maybe because you cheated and that
made me feel so insecure. Just because i dont want
to care about what you do doesnt mean i dont love you,
i dont care about u in my own way. I am still being me bii.
I want to go back to the girl whom you fell in love with.
I want you to love me with no regrets.

As painful as it may be, bearing with it is all i can do.
Because i was able to hold those hands of urs.
I dont think i'll ever wanna let it go.
But if one day you were to leave, i'll just set you free.
I'll die as a widow, because your the last man i'll ever love.

girls that are taken is never fun to mess with.

Firstly before i start my post, i would like to
deeply apologize to friends that i havent
talked to anyone in a few days. I have been
stressed, annoyed and tired, and i didnt wanna throw
anger on anyone except myself.
So once again SORRYYYYY :)

For those who didnt know i started college
at Segi college in subang. So anyone studying
nearby can call yum cha k ? :P
i need more friends there !!

My student ID with my super gay picture xD
Cant believe i actually used it xD
I just wanna get it done asap.
I just censored my IC number -_-v.

Can you believe it ?
I didnt sleep for one night, i was sick the night before,
my eyes was dry but yet i wore lens to class.
My eyes was red and i didnt know !!
Ppl must have thought i cried omgosh xD
And i didnt eat from 7am till 8pm with only half bottle
of water down my throat. oh and ice lemon tea
with a new friend i met :D

This is my current state. A MESS and not a hot one. fml.
If i am a hot mess i wont mind. wtf.
I had like 30mins nap at my boyf's house
before he sent me home until my mum decided to call
and wake me up.

Actually i am still having gastric as i am writing
this but you know i am super dedicated to my blog.
well more like i have no medicine at home -_-.
Anyways, 4 girls including myself have inspired me
to write this entry. And its about how we feel about guys.
Some may say yes, some may say no but this is
just information i've gathered.

As we all know, GIRLS tends to be super jealous
over their boyfriend talking to other girls.

1st lets talk about the meaning 'jealous'.
There is two saying :
1) Being jealous is a sign of loving someone so much
to the point where u r afraid to lose them.
2) Being jealous means you dont trust your partner.
Which is the right meaning for you ? :)

I have asked many girls, how/what do you usually feel
when you caught ur bf talking to other girls.
ALL said JEALOUSY. If bf talks to other
girls its fine PROVIDING they tell their gf
who they are talking to, what relation do they have together,
and wants to know every single details from top
to bottom NO MISS !

If you are wondering do i feel the same, the
answer is YES. i do. worst. i feel insecure.
Yes i know my boyf loves me. But because everyone
have the 'when there is once there is twice' thingy
in my head, i feel way way worst.

Some girls does it worst than me. i usually
just question my boyf until he tells me.
some girls adds the other girls xD which is totally epic to me.
Or some will take pic and post it out and say
'this bitch is flirting with my bf ! she is so cheap !'
hello, blame ur bf too ok? he is flirting too.

The worst crap you can possibly hear is
'Oh that girl doesnt have any friends in KL cause she
moved from some other place so she just
want to share her probs and she trust me' which is totally wtf.
Hello, 1st of all she got no handphone isit?
No friends from her place is it?
She havent met you / talk to u before and so what?
she decided to trust u even when she barely knows u and not
friends she knows better ? then decided to crap her history out?
And worst is guys decides to trust their crap without
knowing if its real or not and have pity on them which is double wtf.
What about ur gf who have been thru worst for u?
Got appreciate them or not? got pity them or not?
Got give them advice or not? or just tell
'hey baby, its gonna be fine'
or
'hey baby be mature for once'. triple wtf.

I have asked those girls whom inspired me to do this post
about stuffs like this and they said
BULLLLLSHITTTTT. all of them said
1st, whoever girls does the example i stated above said
' just who is she to ur bf ? '
' she created all this herself who is he to care? '
I was like =______=. pretty interesting answers.

I am the type of girl that when i am in a relationship
i prefer giving my boyf spaces too. I allow him to go
out with anyone, anywhere and anytime providing
he just tells me when he is going out.
Friends scolded me and said i broke the girl's rule to keeping
boyf loyal. meaning have them tell u who they are going
out with, when, where and how. and expects them
to do it with total facts and non bullshits.
girls are just epicly ftw -_-.

If you are a boyf reading this, we allow u to talk
to other girls but can u atleast not keep it a secret?
Because once we find out about it , we get all
insecure and start thinking crap.
And some of us girls may find it hard to confront to u
guys about it because we dont want u to think
we are making a big deal out of it but we just want you
to tell us and show the world that its us you love.
Even a simple *ur gf name* i love u at ur fb status
we are mad happy and i believe when we girls do it for you guys
too u will feel the same am i right?

Opening up to each other and trust with no
secrets in a relationship is hard i know.
Everyone will have a dirty little secret of their own.
But if you wan a long lasting one, i prefer u do so.
Secret only kills things.

We girls are rather dangerous species as well.
If we found out and we dont like it,
who knows we might find our way to send a hate msg
to that particular girl u r getting close with a little
something like this :
'hey bitch, if u dont wan trouble i prefer u stay
away from my bf before anything happens to u'.
Then thats where problems starts ESPECIALLY it will
be more epic if ur bf happens to defend for that girl and scold
you. yes you. his gf. then u will know their relationship
isnt something so simple.

And guys one more thing . If you are online, talk to ur
gf. let her know you are there missing her.
Dont come online, ignore ur gf and talk to other girl because
once we find out about it we cause drama only.
We want truth from u even though we already know.
And when u tell us, we will wanna diss about other girls.

I dont know why but i guess girls will always be girls
because men will always be men.
We too hate being so super sensitive over something
that seems so small but bothers us so much.
How easy it is for u guys to think and take it as such a light matter.
Totally envy boys -_-.

Anyways, this was all i've managed to gathered.
I havent got the time to gather up my girls
and bombard them with questions about this topic xD

forever a part of me ❤

I would like to dedicate this blog post to my
long long hair.

Dear long hair, you have been my best best
buddy from when i was a baby till today.
You were so so so smooth, silky, gorgeously black
and you SHINE for no reason at all.
Every friends in high school said i should put you
to good use in shampoo commercials but i apologize
that i couldnt bring u to stardom because i was fat,
dark and ugly. What tv commercial would wan an ugly model?

Whenever i give u a haircut its only off an inch or 2.
you have never been cut off above chest level.
i remembered when i was about 3 or 4yrs old,
mum took me to cut a bob hairstyle . i cried because
i lost you. I said no to saloon until i got u super long again.

After i finished with high school, i went to hairdressing.
and thats when i killed u slowly.
I colour , perm , cut , rebonding and so much more.
Atleast once a month i must do something to it
but most of the time its dyeing it. And never bother
doing treatment after that.

After 4yrs i stopped being so immature,
i kept you straight, and only visited a saloon
6mths or 1yr one time.
But realized its was too late. you were suffering.

Even after the shower with conditioner,
you were still tangled, dry with split ends.

Hair dryer is an evil to our hair. and yet i use
it everyday at the maximum heat to
blow it straight to keep it looking healthy.

See? Big difference.

And from time to time i use the 2nd
evil thing to the hair. I burn it so much :(
And i always use wax, hairspray after curling it.
Causing me to wash my hair crazily.

Can you believe i kept u this long ? :(

It was a stomach length hair.

I have to admit, i abuse you like mad.
I get angry at you whenever u decided to
go and have a bad hair day but i guess
hair have PMS as well. and worst is how you adsorb
all the oily smoke and air and decide
to bully my forehead with mini pimples.

But its because of you i can look so elegant
and mature.

You know where to fall in place whenever i
want a good picture.

You let me experiment anything on you.
And keep me being fashionable at all times.

People are jealous of me having you.

You look healthy at all time, keep me looking
gorgeous and keeping me in a good mood.

I love it when the wind blows, the way
you blow across my face, lingering traces
all over me.

I've seen how u suffered madly these few days.
And i've decided to set you free.
I hate to see you being tangled and pulling
you with a comb and you break apart.
So i've decided to set you free.

It was so hard to do so, but i cant stand
to see you suffer so much. College is starting
and i dont have so much time to take care
of you anymore :(

I remembered my legs was shaking when
my stylist cut you off -_-v
My mum loves you so much more the way
you are now :)
I look so much younger :D

Even though you are gone,
your younger generations are still growing :)
But you are still forever part of me ❤

*sorry i havent edit my layout :(
I am having orientation tmr zomg ! have to wake up
at 6am T~T. nights ~*

short notification :)

I hate to say this guys but there

wont be blog entries for couple of days.

I am trying to change my blog layout

to something much more simpler and

less messy with bigger spaces for pictures,

words and whatsoever so it doesnt look mad long :D

Html codes are killing me so goddamn much x_x

Anyways take care !

Much love :)

Mwwarks ! *flying kisses to u reading it,

u yea you ! :D*

you may be a bitch. but i am the REAL bitch.

I am loving them fake nails and my newest lens !
No more lens for me!
*well atleast for now, shh dun tell my boyf :p*

My brother is pretty much an arse.
He allows me to buy lens at pasar malam but not online.
He said thats the whole point of treating a sister.
Because online is cheaper.
Thats why i always sit at my living room and stare
at the gate, so when the mailman comes i can rush out,
take it and hide it.

Few days ago, well actually wednesday,
my brother and i went to Connaught pasar malam.
I wanted to buy i-phone cover but turns out
NONEEEE ! Went thru the crowd and have ppl staring like mad.

Speaking of STARE, do you know its incredibly RUDE
to do so ?! When i say ppl stare i really meant
STARE to the point that they will turn their
head until it cannot be turned anymore.
My brother was like 'why so many ppl staring at you ?!'
I was like i have no freakin idea ! why dont u ask them ?
I wasnt dressed crazily nor fashionably, my head
was omg messy and it was in such a neat bun .
My eyes was normal like how u see it in the picture above.

Its okay to look at someone who caught ur eyes for
awhile but stare until they disappear out of sight, now
thats a big no-no. You ppl should be glad ur in malaysia.
If you stare at bitches at overseas you
are gonna be bitch slap ! :D
Not once, not twice but until you cry and be humiliated big time.
Maybe i should be like them bitches ! ;D

Even when my brother and i were standing and
waiting for table to eat asam laksa *yum ! :p*,
a girl STAREEE and eat at the same time.
Even when she was taking noodles out of the bowl,
she stareee. usually we look at the food so it doesnt falls out.
I was like omgosh i wanna ask her whats her prob man !

Well actually its only been like this ever since
my blog has gotten more viewers and my
fb request suddenly rose up as well.
Then how come i dont see 100000likes on my pics? jk :p

As my bro and i was walking back to the car,
the lane we were on was STUCK, meaning
not moving at all. Everyone waited patiently
for their turn to pass, a bitch, yes literally a bitch,
walked in the MIDDLE like as if she owns the path.
Not only that, she PUSHED and SHOVED every single
person with her bitchy hand. Yes even elderly ppl too.
I was already mad that she have NO RESPECT at all.
When i saw cigarette on her hand and high heels,
i knew she was one of those only 'for show typical chinese girl'

Why do i say for show?
Because some girls only know how to act tough,
look tough, raise their voices, and say swear words but
NO ACTION at all. We call them IMMATURE/CHILDISH
with their brain stuck up their arse.
I swear all you gotta do is give them a slap they will
cry and run but some who doesnt know what is face
they wont kick/punch you but instead they pull ur hair. ahaha xD

Anyways when she was almost close to me i was
thinking 'she better not put her hands on me', but guess what?
SHE DID ! She used hand, all i gotta do was use my shoulder.
Simple as ABC. She looked at me like 'whats ur prob bitch?'
and obviously i gave her back that look.
Like i said only 'for show', she stared at me like
wanna slap me i said ' u own the road isit ? '.
Everyone stared at her and she opened her mouth
wanting to say something but obviously she couldnt
because NOT TOUGH AT ALL.

Yea she may be mean, but i am mean-er.
She may be bitchy but i am bitchy-er.
She dont respect ppl, why should i respect her?
These kinda girls, dont have to be afraid of them.
If they bully and harass you and record it then put
it on facebook even better. Bring it to police station and
file a report on them. Because they wanna show ppl how
'tough' they are so confirm will have their face on the video one.

One girl was also no common sense.
The lane was moving already but stuck few secs also,
she was next to me and she said
loudly ' we THIN people can go faster than those ppl '.
She looked at me but i gave her the bitchy eyes stare,
her smile turned into a scared face.
Neither did she realized she said it in a wrong place.
She was surrounded with big sized ppl and i was like
BWAHAHAHA dai 9 sei in my head xD
Every gave her the eyes >:( <-- xD

Seriously, is there no more people especially teenagers
that have GOOD common sense and RESPECT for ppl ?
Hello ! Elderly you also wanna push ? I hope
one day you grow old and give ppl push you back !
See how it will feel !

Criticizing big sized ppl ?
Since when did size mattered on the road ?
So only thin ppl can walk and only kancil can be driven ?
While fat ppl stays home and lorries can be crushed to dump ?

I swear, the community today is getting worst and worst
each sec. The reason why i became anti-social was
because of ppl like this. The reason why i became
a loner was because of dramas caused by them.
They really ought to go back to kindergarden and
learn some respect and common sense.

If you think selfishness is by human nature then
i guess you are wrong. Yea it true everyone will
have some selfishness in them. My selfishness ? FOOD !
*only when i am with my brother xD*

When we were infants, we were taught how to speak
for what we what. But we already have our selfishness then.
When we are thirsty, we cry out loud or when we
dislike something we just throw it, then cry.
We were commanding ppl with our cries.

As we grow up, we learn how to mingle
and respect ppl and to be less selfish by social contacts.
We try to act as a part of community not individually
but as a team/group. We listen and act together, slowly
that part trains us to be less selfish.

But then we turn to adult we become selfish again
for the sake of money and power that
we would sacrifice ppl to do so.
Everyone thinks this is part of life cycle that we cant
escape from. NO. absolutely NO.
What/who we are, selfish or not is depended on ur own mindset.
Some ppl says ' i must be a good person. help those in need '
while some says ' heck! this is a free country ! as long as i dont
break the fucking laws who the fuck cares? "
But ofcourse in the end they do break rules -_-.

If each sec, a corrupted person in making is
more than a good person in making,
there WILL be no such thing as ONE.
You might as well start training how to be bitchy
so fake bitches will be afraid of you.
Help needed ? Just look for me.
Being a bitch is as simple as 123 BUT
being CLASSY and a bitch at a same time,
is something not everyone can master ;)