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Just started using twitter due to boredom!
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My twitter!
Those who have follow me :p

Sighss.

*Look like a kid =_=*

Havent updated blog in awhile x]
Was lazy sry :p

Bii created a new facebook account.
And sent me a relationship request there ❤❤
Happy happy~ ❤❤
Last night i fell asleep waiting for his call.
I woke up at 3am and send him a msg
telling him i was going to sleep.
And he suddenly called =_=
After we hung up, i couldnt sleep =_=

So right now i am really damn sleepy but its
only 8.51pm.
And i wont sleep unless its after 12am :p
You can see those heavy dark circles under my eyes.
And ofcourse bloodshot in my eyes.
Red =_=v

Muahaha~
I am slowly improving in my mandarin.
Friends calls and speak to me in mandarin nowadays.
Bii always ask me to speak mandarin to him
on the phone but i cant >_<
I am afraid i might say or pronounce a word wrong
and he might laugh.
Give me time to improve more bii~ :p

My hair colour have become lighter yay :p
Only after a week i am starting to like my hair
colour. Actually i dont mind having dark hair
colour. Looks innocent this way :p
I am thinking of dying it fully black next time.
Back to black :]

New year is coming.
Lets all welcome 2010 with a wide
open arms :]
Hoping it will be a better year for everyone.
Hopefully no phone calls and messages tomorrow.
I cant go out. I am staying home :|
Everyone is pissed at my mum for being so strict.
But you guys have to understand there is a reason behind it.
I wont tell the reason but i know its because she cares about me
that is why she is only treating me this way.
Think positively for once guys :]

For those who dont know.
I will be going to Singapore for my air stewardess courses
next year.
Probably February or March or i dont know haha.
I checked for the interview for SIA.
Its on 10th January haha!
bii's bday >_<
Hopefully i can accompany bii on that day :(
Start praying from today onwards~
Hopefully god hears my prayers.

I need to buy so many things!
Make up, clothes, lingerie :p , etc.
I havent bought clothes in 2mths?
GOSHHHH.
Must must must stock up on my clothes already.
And i am looking for leopard spots lingerie set :p hahaha.

The thoughts about going to Singapore..
Alone is fine with me but the thoughts
of the distance that my bf and i will face.
One in KL, one in Singapore.
The limited time i have with him now and when
i start working the less time i have with him.
Tears just starts dropping.
The fear of drifting apart. To be honest i am afraid.
Afraid of so many things, of things that are coming my way.
The worst is afraid of bii leaving me.

And i 've just met more awesome friends.
Jason Tan my ah jie T_T
My TWINS!
Different gender but everything we do and think
is sooo much in common.
Such a friendly guy :] He is in love with my dog :p
Haha yes he is a guy but i call him ah jie >_<

Sighs.
I dont know what to do :(

Baby, i am just getting more and more attached
to you. You are making me fall head over heels for you.
It is me who loves you more then you love me.
You know thats true :p
The distance, will you be able to handle it?
10th January, i hope i can spend that day with you.
Let me have a better memories before i leave.

Tiredd dayyyyy.

Tiredddddddd :(

Woke up around 11am this morning.
And went out at 12pm.

Went to The Curve.
Cause mummy had to go Ikea to buy a table.
Walked around 1st before going to Ikea.
Gosh the amount of ppl and its was only 12pm+
almost 1pm. =_=

Went to the pet shop~
Here are some pictures i took :D

*Snake >_<>
Bii it is you? :p*

*Lizardddddd*

*Big butt spider :p*

*They are sleeping x] so cutee*

*My favvvvvv fish!*

After looking around in the pet shop,
we went to ikea.
Omgosh the amount of ppl was crazy.
pushing and pushing.
The worst thing was after hrs of deciding on the table.
My mum wrote the code down and we went
to collect it. It was OUT OF STOCK!
OMGOSH!

After ikeaaaaaaa.
Went to pavilion.
Also alot of peopleeeeeeee.
Went to see the 'snow' again.
The amount of people was INSANE!
Yes, INSANE!
The was seriously no space to even turnnnn.
My cousins and i ran back inside pavilion.

*I just noticed this tree >_<*

*Wheee can you see me? :p*

Went shopping and walking.
My feet hurts :(
And i was so so sleepy.

When i reached home i ran to my room
and threw myself on my bed~

Reading back all the smses bii and i sent
to each other.
I smiled.
I love him more then anything else :]

Its currently 4.11am.
Night guys.
Happy belated boxing day x]

XiaoSer is a wolf.
And i am his prey T_T
He want to devour me one day.

phone calls.

24th December.

When the clock strikes 12am.
It turned 25th December.

Yun lou po and i were chatting on MSN.
She said she called her husband and wished him
merry xmas already and ask me
to call my bf and wish him.
I say i will~ and i said she doesnt have my heart at all~
Only call her husband and not me.
Who knew my phone rang and it was her xD
Hahaha laugh sei me~

Lou po!
you wait me!
When i rich jor i supply you two years
baby pampers! xD

After i forgot how long i talked to her.
I called my husband-to-be.
Yeee~ Havent heard his voice in a long long long time.
Still so dak yi de :p

Bii i am very very very very faithful de na >_<
Trust me~~
Some more like you said~
I am married to you~
But my diamond ring ne?~ ;p

Although i am unable to meet you.
I am happy that you stayed and be with me.
Thank you and sorry :(
I love you bii.

Finally lvled up to 12 in Petville~
Just to buy the pirate costume to match back bii~
See see~
So cute couple :p

*Ready to blow kiss for bii~*

*Mwarrrrrkss <3*

*Bii pet keep looking at my pet :p shy shy de leh~*

*high 5 bii xD*

Its 3.28am right now.
I am still getting merry xmas msgs x]
I am going to bed.
Goodnight :]

When i heard that voice.
Hell eventually turned to heaven for me.
Bii i wanna hug you so bad :(
I want to feel your warmth embracing my body.
Xiao Ser/Nixon Ng.
I love you.
No matter how far the distance is,
I will still be faithful to you.

Merry xmas guys :]

*My dark dark dark hair*

Todayyyyyyy.
24th december 2009.
Probably the worst day for me >_<

The moment i open my eyes.
Messages and calls kept pouring in.
Asking me where i am going tonight,
would i like to join them,
do i need transport, etc etc.

But i told them i couldnt go out because of some problems.
What i really appreciated was that all of them.
That called.
Was willing to meet my mum just to bring me out
and have fun tonight.
That really really touched me.
I feel so loved by them xD

KentChan, a guy i knew from facebook
came to KL.
I called him.
But i couldnt meet him :(
He came all the way from ipoh to meet someone
but something happened between them.
Seriously, such a sweet bf :]
Where to find?~
I am so so sorry kent :(

But today, KL traffic is so bad.
and its gonna be crowded everywhere.
I really rather just stay home.
I am not so into crowded places.
Although its fun but there are disadvantages to it too.

Currently in a very very fucked up mood.
Can someone cheer me up? :(
Feeling so fucked up.
The ringing of my phone got me annoyed.
I switched it off.
Just on it, i recieved a msg from digi.
78misscalls, and 20+ smses.
I am so sorry guys.

Someone said 'We need you, because you are a party animal'
haha wtf? maybe last year i over did it a lil? x]
But i have settled down alot.
I just think maybe its time i should be serious
if i wanna have a better future.
Maybe 17 is the time to enjoy and have fun.
But in my current family situation its not for me.
All those stress, worries and pressures.
Keep pouring in.
Everyone thinks i am always happy. But i am just not
showing it out. Because i dont want
to make those around moody because of me.
When i see those around smiling i smile too.
Thats just the way i am.

But HEYS!
Today is XMAS EVE! :D
Be happy man!

I envy those that have made such romantic plans
for their other half.
Have a great night :]

All my party animal kaki~
Next year la kays? :p
I wont promise now~
But next year la xD
Maybe next year i'll be able to make it out without
having to give you guys trouble. :]
You should know i dont like troubling people.
I am so sorry lor T_T
No need shout to me on the phone
'Sei 8 po nei bei yan diu la' isit arh T_T
And no need keep 'diu diu diu diu diu diu' on the phone gua T_T
allah enjoy urself la guys~
Me love you guys too xD

Its almost 12am soon.
Time to start sending smses and calling ppl
to wish them :]
I sent a message to UK just to wish Vinod >_<

Once again.
Merry Xmas Guys!
Have an awesome one :]

Honestly, i cant please everyone at one time.
Tell me, what the fuck am i suppose to do?
Will it be better if i just disappear from everyone without a trace?
Will it make everyone happier this way?
If it will, then i will leave.
To a place where no one can find me,
To a place called HELL.
I believe satan awaits my death.

22/12/09 late update >_<

Didnt update blog for a few days x]

Was freaking tired.
Sorry :(
So i will post one by one.

Starting with 22nd.
I forgot what day it was.
But my cousin and i made 'Tang yuan'
at home. :]

*My hand bleeding :O*

My mum pour red colouring on my hand =_=
ish.

*A big heart :]*

*Smiley face~Smileeeeee~*

*Creativity x]*

*The outcome of the hearts :p*

My cousin and i got bored with the same old
circle tang yuan =_=
so we started making hearts , stars, etc.
And my grandma told us its okay to make any shape :p

But my mum didnt like most of it
and she destroyed it T_T
And the colouring on my hand took me few times
to wash it off >_<
But it looks like real blood dosent it? :p

Okay.
I dont really remember what else happened on
that day.
So i'll end this one here.

21/12/09

Yay~
Finally after 1yr+ i met up with Edwin~
A friend of mine i met from Kimarie.
See~Without my ex i can meet anyone i want~

Met him in sg wang around 1.30pm.
Went to U-Village makan~
Haha~ Edwin knew every worker there.
The funniest part was one guy kept coming
to our table pretending to talk to him but his
eyes were staring at me.
And he kept saying 'You are very beautiful' to me. xD
Edwin and I knew he wanted to know me.
But edwin kept shoo-ing him away haha.
But he keeps coming back every 5mins.

And another waiter.
Stood next to Edwin.
And he stared straight into my eyes.
Scary >_<
And he said 'ta zhen de hao piao liang' to Edwin.
I ask edwin faster pay bill we siam >_<

Then we went to Kimarie to visit our teachers :]
I saw dou Ice Ice again :p
But i just hi to him, didnt have enough time to talk >_<
*Soweee iceice~*
So i went 4th floor said hi to Jennifer~
and went back down said hi and talked with Joan for awhile.
I told Joan try not to miss me so much xD
Then i siam back to Sg Wang.
At 1st my mum called and said she wanna leave already.
But after i left Kimarie she said wait for awhile more =_=

After i left around 4pm.
My mum went to Saloon to colour and perm her hair.
So i decided to colour my hair as well.
My mum chose the colour for me without asking me.
When i finished i was like OMGGGGG >_<
Its BLACK at the end of my hair but
DARK BROWN on the roots of my hair. wtf =_=
But it looks black.
I am not used to seeing myself with such dark colour >_<
And they cut my hair 1 1/2 inch T_T
I show them the sob face when the stylist cut it T_T
He say too long not nice. I still show him this face >> T_T
But nvm~ Hair can grow. Just need a long time =____=

They finished my hair in 2hrs. From 4pm+ to 6pm+.
And i waited my mum till 9pm+ =_=
5hours T_T My butt damn pain~~

Then went Bangsar.
Me and my brother along with one of my cousin.
Went mamak eat~
Reached home at 12am.

I wont be getting my tattoo anymore.
I have decided to finish my air stewardess course
before getting the tattoo.
Because no tattoo is allowed in this job field.

Every plans i made, keep getting screwed up.
I am damn sick of it.
And yes i am staying home for xmas so stop asking
and stop inviting me out.
I cant go out T_T i am sorry guys :(
Enjoy without me this year.
Just let me stay home and cry that day.
Because i know i will..

Infact i just feel like crying now.
Dont ask why.
I am tired of tears already.
Just fall if you want.

Dead, Gone and Wasted.
I never meant a thing to you.
Never.