Egg Mask Facial :]

Moments ago i did an egg mask facial :]
Egg mask facial is for your skin and pores
that needs to be tighten and whiten.
Perfect for oily skin.

I did it and my face feels extremely smooth and
i can actually feel it tighten and whiten. :D
So it you wanna try it here are the steps.

What you need.
An egg.
2 bowls and a fork.

Step 1. Take the egg and break it, separate the egg white and egg yolk
in 2 bowls.

Step 2. Take a fork and beat the egg whites until it becomes foamy.
Its easier to apply after beating it.

Clean your face, removing all make up.

Step 3. Apply the egg whites on your face evenly while avoiding the eye area.
Leave it on for about 15mins or atleast until you feel its dry.
How to know if its dry? Simple! When you feel you cant smile at all :]

Step 4. Rinse your face. You should feel a very refreshed and see
a bright whitening on your face :].

What to do with the egg yolk?
The egg yolk is a natural moisterizer.

Step 1. Poke the egg yolk.
*The fun part , for me haha.*

Step 2. Apply it evenly onto your skin. Wait for it to dry.
Try to smile and you know when its ready :]

Step 3. Rinse your face. Your skin should feel silky smooth.

Step 4. Treat your skin. By using a very good moisturizer.

Step 5. Ice facial. Take an ice cube and just run it over your skin.
To tighten up your pores.

And you are DONE! :D
You should feel nice and fresh seeing a difference in your skin.

What to do with the leftover?
You can add extra eggs and cook omelet for breakfast.
Dont waste food. :]

Give it a try and Good Luck. :]

Going to bed a little early.
Sick =(

26/01/2010

*My eyes without fake eyelashes :]*

*Yawns*
I woke up at 8am today! :O
Totally unbelievable but yea its TRUE :D
'Sleep early, Wake up early
Makes you healthy, wealthy and wise'
Haha, this line has been stuck in my head for
god-knows-how-many-years but i remembered
it was from a 'better yourself' talk thingy the school once
organized and i actually attended. It was fun tho :]

People often mistaken me for a ABC girl
meaning American-Born-Chinese.
I am tired of repeating this over and over again but
i just want to clarify myself clearly thats all.
I am PURE Malaysian chinese.
No mixture from whatsoever blood.
Just cause my english accent and my personality can
sometimes be very american-ish and open-minded
doesnt mean i am an ABC.
I mean i studied in international school my whole life
and i used to mix around with different races people.

So which is why i CANT read chinese nor can i write them.
But i can speak chinese.
Mandarin sucks but cantonese i get a little tongue-tied
once in awhile. but still i am slowly improving myself
*Its hard because i learn it by myself without anyone
teaching ever since i was a kid*
So yea.. not taiwanese, not japanese, not abc
but pure malaysian chinese. :]

A friend posted a comment on my facebook wall
saying she saw me in TS last Sunday.
Laughing and giggling with my bf.
She wasnt sure if it was me until she saw my bf's tattoo.
But she didnt dare to come over and talk to me, afraid
that she might interrupt us.
She said i am indeed very tall haha.
*thanks babe :]*

And i was wondering, when did i laugh and giggle
when i was with him?
Because whenever i think of last Sunday,
all i can remember is silly arguments of
'buying clothes' and giving each other 'options' that can
never be chosen because whatever options we gave
each other was something we hate :p
But who knew in other person's eyes, we were seen
as a happy-sweet-couple.

Well okay, i admit i did laugh and giggle.
But that means he makes me smile
all the time :]
even with those silly arguments we still laugh if
off. Although he can be veryyy stubborn
*in a good way* and i admit i am stubborn too.
*in a good or bad way? i dont know. ask him :p
but nvm i know his answer, he will obviously say
my stubborn-ness is in a bad way*

But anywayssssss.
If you guys see me anywhere, it wouldnt
hurt to say hi :]
I dont bite~ My stupid bf might look scary
but as long as i am around i am sure he doesnt bite :]
But i am sure if anyone tries to hurt me he'll
definitely bite ;D
And i am very sure if anyone tries to flirt with him
i will bite. Definitely. ;3

Its only 11.33pm and i am sleepy.
Omgosh i blame you bii.

Its going to be 5mths soon and yet we havent
reach to the point where we would argue with raising our voices
to the loudest and be mad at each other for few days.
Its pretty unbelievable but its reality :]
Another 5days till i can see you again :(
I heart you. <3>

Just some random sayings :]

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

24/01/2010

I was supposed to update this post

yesterday but i couldnt. refer
to my previous post ;]

Anyways, Its a sunday and obviously i went out
with my bf. It was a last min thingy.
The night before my mum said no cause i had to
go back hometown but the next morning
she woke me up saying she can send me out. lols.

So i reached a little earlier, i went to visit Ikki.
Been a while since i last saw him.
We were chatting away until a cockroach climbed up the
table and started running left.
Ikki started talking to it. He pointed his finger right and said
'Go back to your home' but the cockroach turned to me.
He said 'say hi to her and go back!'
It actually turned back right and run. LOL!
Hahaha! Then it climbed up and looked at me again.
I touched its antenna xD It ran.
Ikki said it was embarrassed.
What idiots would talk to cockroach? We.

Moments later he reached.
And for some reasons he kept wanting me to change
outfit because i was wearing a long dress.
I dont see a problem with it but he does so..
off to outfit hunting.

I was arguing with him saying i dont need pants.
But who knew when i tried on the dress
It was sooooooo short!
Just covered my underwear haha.
And he blames me for being tall when he called me
short last week.

*The short short dress*

*Hot hot leather jacket.*

*Atleast there is leopard prints inside x3*

*Random*

*The whole set. Chosen by bii*

We walked over to sg wang after that.
But he said he would only buy his clothes next week.
When we went to Madam Wong,
i almost wanted to fall asleep on the chair >_<.

Walking back to TS we saw a 'Just married' car.
I looked at him, i could see him smiling.
All he ever thinks about is getting married with me.
And he ask 'When is it gonna be us?'

It was getting late and we took lrt back to Ampang.
And his father sent me back home from there.
*thank you uncle >_<*

Bii sent me sms late at night.
He said he wants to have a wedding, that in my whole
life it will be the best one i will ever hear about.
A dream wedding.
I wonder how will it be like :]
to be honest i cant wait. Surprise me when the time comes :]

I got bad feeling, bii is going to be
much more stricter towards me. Because yesterday
whatever options he gave me i said no.
And whenever he gives me that 'fierce' face expression
it gives me chill down my spine.
Scary but i'll have to deal with it for my whole life.
Because that's how long i'll be stuck with him =_=v.

I cant wait to be your wife officially.
I may have lost something precious, but i know
i'll gain much more in the future.
We all have to learn to let things go.
Whether you like it or not, that is how life is.
Stand strong dont let anything push you down,
be strong, keep moving forward.
That's my personality.

Screw you mr.laptop and mr.modem.

MCB!
I fucking wrote the whole post and
my laptop fucking hanged.
And it auto restarted and everything is
GONE!
And dude it was a damn long shit ass post dammit!
What the fuck is the meaning of this!
you fucking shit ass gay laptop!
Might as well throw you in the fucking bin!

And i dont know whether is facebook
or my internet is being a bitch
because its really slow!
I cant even reply wall properly!

My day was fine and you Mr.Laptop
and Mr.internet connection just had to ruined
it and its just right before i go bed.

So SCREW you i am off to bed!
Be good to me tomorrow or else i am seriously
going to throw you Mr.Laptop along with your best
friend Mr.Modem outside and in the rubbish bin. ;D

Honestly guys just ignore this post.
I was just pissed and needed to scold it.
I mean who wouldnt be mad?
And forgive my swearing. Nights :D

say you love me.

I miss you♥
I want to hold you♥
I want to kiss you♥
I want to be right next to you♥
Especially when you sleeping♥
So i can secretly kiss you on the lip♥
I want to lay my head down in ur arms,
on your chest to feel your heart beating♥
Feeling safe in your arms♥
Feeling loved and secure♥
This feeling its one in a million♥

Can you replace the rabbit so its you that
i'll be hugging tonight? :(

When can we move in together? :(
So that its you i'll be seeing 24/7.
And we dont have to worry who leave who.

Because i know it wont be me.
Promises have been made between us.
And promises are made to be kept not broken.

No matter how far the distance is,
My heart will always be right next to you,
staying connected.

Even though i might be all around the globe.
Flying everywhere.
With different kind of people i will meet.

I will be coming home to you.
Into your arms where i belong.
Whenever i think of my future, i see you in it.
Even death cant do us apart.♥

I love you just the way you are.
Each and every single thing of you.
Dont change a thing about yourself.♥

Baby, I Love You.
You know thats true. ;]

I will give you all of me.
My soul, heart and body.
You are the 1st and last man i'll call my one and
only love.♥
Goodnights.
Another night with Mr.Rabbit and not you ;(

A day out with my sweetheart :]

7.30am. My alarm on my phone rang.
Called bii to wake him up.
After half an hour and over 20+ tries
he DIDNT wake up. And somehow i fell back asleep
with the phone in my hand.
He called at 9am i think. I slept back. Woke up after awhile.

My mum sent me out, since she had no one to meet
at 11am, she and i had breakfast at Food&Tea in TS.
2 small pieces of sandwiches and Jasmise tea.
Kept me full the whole day.
My mum left and JiaLin came :]

Walked over to Sg Wang.
Went to 3rd floor.
Sat in a cafe which bii and i went last Sunday =_=v
We just ordered a Mango dessert she bought something else to eat.
Gosh this mango thingy is so SWEET!

*So so sweet*

We talked about our problems.
Family, Friends, Boyfriend.
I showed her the msgs my bf sent to me.
She said it was so sweet of him, and is better than me ex.
Even she noticed that in 4mths i have never argue with my
bf before except that one time misunderstanding.
Before with my ex was every week argue.
Thats why she hated my ex =_=.
Took a few pics tho x]

*faveeeee :D*

*faveeeeee no 2 :D*

*see that sweet sweet dessert =_=*

Went walking around.
Talking talking. Gosh we had so much to catch up
with each other x]
We held hands while walking. hahaha.
she was mine and i was hers for a day.

I told her to press my stomach.
It was hard ;D
Her face expression was like O_O and she
gave me thumbs up ;D
I am getting OBSESSED with pumping abs!

She took out something from her bag.
Handed it over to me.
When i saw it i was totally lost for words.
The Hello Kitty watch.
Given to me by my ex.
She was like 'Its a bad time to give you isnt it'
I said its alright with a smile on my face.
That watch kept me with him when i wanted to dump
him earlier. The gift that made me cried cause i felt
guilty before. I wanted to throw it away but for some
reasons i couldnt. Its not like i am not over him but its
just..indescribable.

My brother came to pick me up at 3pm.
*Sorry i had to leave 1st babe =(*

*Inside the car*

After moments of leaving my mum got a call
and we are back to TS again =_=.
So she went to meet her friend, my brother
and i went to KFC.
I was full just from eating 1 piece of chicken.
'Time of the month' gives me smaller appetite =_=.

When i left TS, Ice ice smsed me.
He said he shouted my name but i didnt heard him.
*sorry ice ice >_<*
When i am walking alone i am always deep in thoughts.
And i am unaware of things surrounding me.

The moment i got home.
The 1st thing on my mind was to call my baby.
But i was so freaking tired that words could hardly
come out from my mouth. After we hung up i put on
loud music, danced, abs crunch, push up.

I wanted to sleep at 11pm+.
said my goodnights to bii.
But when i was on my bed, the moment i closed my eyes,
i could see him. And i felt like hugging him.
I texted him and he called me.
I cant help but smile when i saw his name on my caller ID.
And my heart felt so warm.
I rushed out of my room, away from my brother.

We just hung up on the phone not long.
He went to bed, away to dreamland.
Goodnights. Its time to meet him in dreamland :]

Sunday❤
Cant wait to see your baka face.
And i cant wait to wrap my arms around ur waist,
looking into ur eyes all i see is me there,
slowly our lips just somehow connects ❤

Girls Need To Realize: WRITTEN BY A GUY :)

Okay i was randomly reading a friend's blog
and i just stopped by at this post.
Here goes ;]

Girls Need To Realize: WRITTEN BY A GUY :)

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys..

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you,
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.

Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.

That it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!
dont 'feel bad'
We enjoy doing it.

It's expected.

Smile and say 'thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.

or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously.

Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.

It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'
i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!!

Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population
and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

Give the nice guys a chance.

hate him for being skinner than me.

Today woke up at 8am because i heard

my phone sms tone rang.
Bii smsed me. After i replied i slept back =_=v
Woke up at 10am ~

Went out with my mum, went to KLCC to deal with
some stuffs. And suddenly she said 'we have to
wait for your 'dad' to have brunch together'
*rawrr* i totally forgotten that he came back.
Was fucking pissed at him but i guess i have no choice.

Went to pick him up from the hotel he was staying in.
He said hi to me i ignored *score! ;D*
He drove my mum's car and ask me what i wanted
to eat, i said 'whatever' *score again! ;D*
And from that moment he knew i was fucking pissed
at him so he didnt dare to speak another word to me.

Went to Bangsar for our brunch.
Ate Dim Sum.
And after that went to KLCC again =_=
My mum said 'Welcome back to KLCC' haha =_=.

She and my dad went somewhere to get new glasses.
She sent me off to help her do something.
After i finished with her stuff, i was thinking
to myself.
Starbucks 'ice blended mocha' or New zealand natural 'mango tango'.
I dont know why but i was having a craving for
ice blended drinks. I know i am not suppose to
drink such cold drinks while having my 'time of the month'
but oh well. Bii wasnt around to scold me :p

Yesterday while he was eating he caught
me chewing on ice T_T.
Yeeeee Yerrrrr!
I tried to make him believe by saying i didnt chew
on ice but ofcourse he didnt believe. T_T
I just like biting ice :3

But anyways, walking walking.
Saw coffee bean, i had no idea where starbucks was again.
And yes i get lost easily, no sense of direction haha.
Ordered 2 ice blended mocha. One was for
my dad. Yes i am that nice to even buy for him while i was pissed at him.

Rawrrrrrrrrr. Enjoyed it so much!
Such satisfaction. <3
But my feet hurts.
I wore my leopard high heels T_T.
Need to train myself to wear high heels.

Went home. Went jogging straight away.
Love the sun <3 i was freezing cold from drinking
that mocha in the car >_<.
Needs to go HARDCORE to get my abs back.
It did come back a little.
Press my stomach its hard :p just need to
get the shape back now.
100 push up, 100 sit up, 100 abs crunch.
2 hours of dance practice.
and 100 times of jumping. I would do anything to get TALLER!

*Jogging isnt complete without songs.*

*Messy hair.*

*Tiredddddddddd.*

I hate standing next to my bf because
i feel like a fcuking FAT bitch!
Needs to keep fit!
Why the hell must i have big bones!
Or should i say
Why the hell must he be so THIN!
SWITCH BODY WITH ME BIIII!! ;(

Took few pictures of my dogs :p
1st one is Kaka.
Bii loves her more than me.
She is damn naughty!

*She looks dead*

*Sleeping. Her eyes are closed haha.*

*She is fcuking adorable sometimes.*

This is Kaka's mother. haha.

*Extremely nice to hug because she is fat :p*

*Sleepy head*

Bii called me, but guess what he was doing.
Playing PSP.
Which means 90% of his mind was on the game,
10% in our conversation.
But he still manages to hear what i have to say :]
He wanna play and wanna complain.
PICKY BII! i dont know what to do with his picky-ness =_=.
His place is currently in a no-electricity-state and the
1st thing he said was 'I scare the PSP run out of battery'.
I want to hit him with the rabbit soft toy so much =_=.
GEK SEI ME EVERYDAY!
But still i fucking love him <3>

Fucking tired, fucking bored.
Strictly toning my body.
Strictly keeping fit.
Strictly trying to get taller.
I hate you for being skinner than me ;(

Baby thank you.

Sleeeppyy.

But have to update my blog x]

Woke up at 8am this morning.
But its SUNDAY!
Means i get to see bii x]
Once my alarm set off, i called bii to wake him up.
When he answered the phone all he could say was
'en en' at 1st, but managed to ask what time
would i go out and stuffs.
After he hung up, i slept back haha xD
It was too cold to get out of bed >_<

Went out with my mum at 9am+
Some dude said i looked like 24.
24? 24? lol 24?
I feel so old T_T But whatever.
Looking mature is better than looking like a small kid.

Reached TS around 12pm.
Waited for bii at the main entrance.
My mind was drifting away, deep thoughts about something.
That my body was just there but not my mind.
When bii reached, he was just standing next to me
and i didnt know until he said a word and i
got scared. But my mind came back to me.

After a week i can see him again.
Just being able to see him, hug him, feel the warmth
of the love and care he gives me, all
the thoughts in my mind just blew away.
I really feel there isnt anything else in this world that i
need except him.

Few days ago he texted me saying
'I am making a fcuking complicated origami for u'
I was surprised.
To think a guy like him would do a origami for a girl.
When i called him he wouldnt talk to me except
complain on the boxes he was making.

He gave it to me today :]
At 1st i thought it was plain colour boxes
but i was wrong *as usual*.
It was indeed something different.
I'll upload the pictures :]

He held me in his arms :]

*Bii's tattoo looks like a smiley face.
-> x)
haha xD*

*The only man i need to survive.*

And ofcourse here's the box x]

A little black box.

Tadaahh. 8 reasons why i love you :]

I took out the card and started doing random
photography.

Tang's Arts x]

Without Flash.

With flash, looks 3D xD

He is the 1st man who made something
and gave it to me.
But i had to do something in return as well.
Whenever he gives me something there is always a price
i have to pay =_= unfairness.

I looked into bii's bag today xD
I am always curious whats inside a guy bag but i know
its usually messy.
When i opened it i was like *eyes opened wide*
Not that there was porn or anything but
He is so much more organize than me =_=
Its like everything is there.
*For a guy needs*
And i thought there was nothing inside xD

The jacket he wore today.
He looked so adorable x3
Infact he looks adorable in anything to me.
And since he is so picky i believe all his clothes in his
wardrobe is adorable.
When i say he is picky i mean it. picky bii =_=

Everything went well except my
'time of the month came' so
i was kinda down. Not moody but just you know
quiet-ish. Cause the pain was like hurting for 1min
and not the next.
i fcuking hate 'time of the month' but i have no choice
but to deal with it.
Why cant guys have it instead? =(

Extremely sleepy.
Going to bed.
Have to meet someone i hate tmr.
someone kill me instead.

Must you tell me 'Dont Leave' everytime you meet me?
When you say that and we stare into each other eyes,
I really find it so hard to leave.
That pain in my heart hurts.
I feel completely safe and secure in your arms.
I love you, so much more than words cant describe.
And the feelings just keep building up each day.
You said my smile attracted you, but now
its your smile i am attracted to :]
I'll do anything to keep that smile there. Anything.

no promises anymore.

I didnt said bye was because i didnt
want it to end.
I made you do it because my hands and body just
wont move to even press the end call button.

'You always promise something but couldnt do it'.
This was enough for me to keep my fucking mouth shut.
From the moment onwards, I Mabel Chow
will cut off this word PROMISE off
my dictionary.
This fucking word will not exist in me anymore.

I am back to the 2yrs ago emo me.
Its so clear now.
Negativity has taken over me.
Everytime i think so positively and smile thur all
the shits i get thinking
'things will get better'
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
WHO THE FUCK WAS I TRYING TO KID?

But whatever.
Just let me bitch on twitter.
and i know i will be fine the next morning.
*i think*
But yea i know i will be fine.

I am so stupid!

*BABY I AM SORRY*

I know what i did was wrong.
To be honest we are both mad for nothing.
And i know it was just me being childish.
I know i shouldnt be mad at you.
You called me back and you tried to cheer me up
but yet i was still being a bloody immature childish bitch.

I wanted to say sorry.
But those words wont come out of my mouth.
Instead tears came out.
I was afraid. Of what?
I didnt know.

My life is indeed becoming worst and worst
each day passes.
We never been this way before.
The 1st time in 4mths and it was because of ME.
Yes i ADMIT that it was ME who caused it.
Everything started because of misunderstanding.
I really.. Gosh i dont know what to say..

What i want to know is where is my cheerful self?
Why am i so fucking emo?
I HATE BEING EMO FOR FUCK SAKES!
And hell yea i am fucking sick of crying every night
and waking up to fucking swollen eyes and look
like a damn sick ass bitch.
so when the fuck is my MISERY gonna end huh?
WHEN ?!
Fuck MIRACLE as i do not believe in this word anymore
and yes i have a fucking reason for it.
Fuck 'I PROMISE' but this word only applies to one fucking dude.
And ofcourse last but not least.
FUCK MY FUCKING SHITTY LIFE!

But whatever, this isnt important now.
The only thing important to me is for bii to forgive me.

Baby, i am SORRY.
Nothing is more important to me than you.
I just received that verrryyy long sms from you.
Gosh my tears just fell.
I really.. OMG i wanna DIE!
I am so TOUCHED! T_T
I fucking screwed things up this time.
Baby baby baby i am truly SORRY!
I feel so fucking guilty for being such a BITCH!

I wont leave you. Never in my life.
If i ever leave you i will definitely be the
STUPIDEST woman alive!
Only you made me feel SPECIAL.
Only you will wanna give me everything on stupid
wishlist on my blog.
Only you will endure everything for me.

Stupid baby!
i dont need all those stupid stuffs.
I dont want you to be doing things you hate.
And its me who is supposed to make you feel special
and cared after a long day of hard tiring work.
Baby i am sorry i really am.

You said the sweetest thing anyone could say.
And yet you still asked if i am still mad at you.
How can i stay mad at you?

squeals*

Currently 7.21pm.
Just finished dinner.
Nothing tastes better than home cooked meal.
Too bad bii have to work =(
If not he would be having dinner with me at home.

Currently sitting at my balcony.
Nothing feels better than 'fresh' polluted air.
And wind breezing across me.

This afternoon, accompanied my cousin sister
to the clinic along with my mum.
She had to get an operation done or should i say
stitches? =(

I wanted to wait outside cause i couldnt stand
the sight of flesh and blood.
But she needed me. She needed to hold my hand.
It was really hard for me to watch.
Even with my head turned aside, when she held on tight
to both of my hands she cried in pain.
Her sweaty palms, squeezing on to my hand so tightly.
That the blood of my hands stopped flowing.
And my fingers turned purple.
But even though it was painful, she didnt cried a tears.
But my mum and i were weak from seeing it =_=v
Shes such a strong girl =]
The doctor looked at me after she finished and gave me an evil smile.
Just cause i whined when she did my operation =_=

Reached home, called baby.
His voice stills make me smiles.
Still, yesterday was like a dream but it was reality =]

Okay i have been squealing the whole time on twitter.
What was it about?
*SQUEALS!*

Baby said if i am going to Taiwan next month,
he wants to follow too!
*Squeeeeaaaallss*
*getting all excited for no reaons tho =_=v*
Its not confirm yet but still him wanting to come along
just to be with me in a place far away.
Its way beyond what i expected from him.

I mean just imagine yourself with your loved one.
In a place across the world.
The feeling is so different.
Its like a fucking fairytale.
And someone who would go that far with you and just to be with you.
Wouldnt you feel you are the luckiest person alive?
Wouldnt you feel that you have finally found someone who loves
you with all their heart and treasures you to bitsy itsy pieces?

Well, i for one sure have =]
When i thought i was the only one who is silly around him,
he is much more sillier around me.
Laughed on the phone so much.
He kept asking me not to go Singapore =(
But bii i am sorry, it is confirmed.
Right now at this moment, i am missing him .
To the point where no words can describe how much i miss him.
I still get butterflies when i think of him.
Its enough to tell myself how much i love him.

We just started being official.
And started seeing each other more often.
But who knew, we have such limited time.
It hurts me that i still cry when i think about it.

But i know i will always stay faithful to this man of mine.
Because we are engaged.
But i am still waiting for my ring bii ;D
Its not official without the ring you know ;D
And i know him being my fiancee now, he will be my husband
few years later.

8pm right now.
I watched the skies turned dark.
wondering what is stupid bii doing.
I'll call him later tho :]

I cant live without this stupid but yet smart bii.

I cant even survive without you for a day.
Tell me how am i gonna survive when i am GONE.
Please tell me how baby.
You are the best thing i never knew i needed.
And its so clear that i need you with me.
Gosh you are making me crazy over you!
And you says it me who makes you crazy over me!
But the truth, we are just crazily in love with each other =]

4th monthsary baby :]

Met up with baby today :]
Its his birthday.
He was 2hrs late.
I wanted to be mad at him.
But when he adorably smiled at meeee my
heart melted and i could never be mad at him. never.

Instead of giving him 'normal presents'
like how every other people would give as presents
on birthdays or any occasions.
I decided to write him a letter and made
a heart origami with money.
I felt that money doesnt matter.
Infact its really the thoughts that counts.

Bii, that was my 1st time making a heart shape
out of money >_<
Sorry if it was ugly.
And forgive me for my stupid handwriting >_<.
But i am really glad you liked it.

I was never born in a world without you.
We share the same skies, breathe in the same air.
Been to the same places at a different time.
And who knew friends we knew were somehow connected.
But fate has decided to bring us to know each other on 4th Sept.
And brought us much more closer on 11th Sept.
That was when our love story begins.

But today 10th Jan.
We shared a moment.
A moment that i never expected it to happen between us.
But it did.
I felt closer to you.
Whenever i think about it, i get this weird feeling in me.
The feeling of falling madly in love.
A new chapter has just begun, a love that have grown
stronger.

Bii, i'll say it once more here and let everyone know.
Its your hands i'll hold till the day i die.
i WONT leave you, and thats a PROMISE.
If i ever do, you can use that letter and make me feel guilty =_=v
Its your hands i'll hold till the day i die.

Although people say its too early to be deciding and saying one thing.
But i'll say it once more.
'He will be my very 1st and last husband'.

Honestly this is my 1st time to write a letter and make a heart
as a present to anyone.
It felt a little weird giving him to him >_<
I was so so so so so afraid he will not like it.
But i really just wanted to give him something that he can
carry with him around so even if i am not there with him
in person, my 'heart' is still with him 24/7 =]

My mum said she really likes my boyfriend so much more
better than my ex-boyfriend.
She admitted she HATES TERRY but has just kept quiet about it.
I told her that me and him isnt friends anymore, and i told
her the story why it happened.
She said 'Ask him to say those words infront of me, no balls asshole'
and i believe 100% of my friends hated him as well.
Yup, that was how much of a JERK he is.
I wonder how the hell did i stand him for 2years?
I must have been nuts.

But who cares about my ex?
Its all about ME and HIM now.
Its all about MABEL and XIAO SER.
Its all about a girl who would do anything for her man.
And a man who would sacrifice anything for his girl.
But in my theory is
'its about a man who makes his girl soh soh dei jor T_T'
Pity me T_T

I am really sleepy right now.
I'll stop this post here.

and Happy 4th monthsary to us bii =]

The moment i hugged you, i didnt wanna let go.
When our body touched i just wish time would just end.
The warmth i felt in me.
It was simple breath taking.
I have such short time left with you.
How am i gonna survive without you hubby? =(
I LOVE YOU!

Happy bday bii =]

10/01/2010.
2.56am.
Happy birthday baby :]
Sorry for wishing it pretty late on my blog.
But i was doing something for you.
Pretty lame but its the thoughts that counts right? >_<

Cant wait to see you soon.
I miss you so much =(

its time to get serious.

Woke up this morning.
Looked at my phone.
5smses from bii >_<
Shocked me~

I texted him saying i just woke up and he called me =_=v

Went out with my mum for awhile.
To throw my stupid dog to a pet saloon.
And ate my breakfast and went home.

After reaching home.
Back to studying timeeeeeeeee.
Took out all the things i needed to the balcony.
I prefer reading at the balcony.
Feeling the wind breezing through me.
And a little sunshine doesnt hurt anyone x]
Plus the laptop in my room in a bigggg distraction.
It stops me from studying so yea balcony was my only option =_=v

Kept studying and kept smsing bii.
There was a passage i didnt understand but he called
and explained it to me ❤
Such a helpful bii ❤

While reading halfway.
I took my camera and put it on my table so that
i wont misplace it.
But somehowwwwwwww.
My biggest distraction was the camera =_=
I dont know how i ended up taking the camera and started
camwhoring =_=
I texted bii telling him to hit me cause instead of reading i started
taking randommmm picturesss.

*The table filled with my stuffs =_=*

*=]*

*Bites the pen*
*Baby said he love this picture❤*

Maybe you guys are thinking, books like
those are nothing but plain boring tales.
Actually you are wrong.
It is indeed very very addicted.
From the very 1st page when you start reading you can slowly
feel the change in your thinking.
And feel that you should know what to do and what not to do.
But reading isnt everything in these books.
After reading you must APPLY what you have read into
your life only then you can succeed.
Dont believe?
Pick yourself a copy of it from the bookstore =]

Everyday few calls a day with baby❤
And each calls isnt just few mins but almost an hour.
I feel myself getting closer and closer to him.
I am learning more and more about him.

But there are times where i just cant find a topic
to talk to him about.
Infact i dont talk to anyone much these days.
Wonder if its because i am worrying about some problems.
To the point where there are times i would just wake
up in the middle of the night. And big loss of appetite daily.

And bii just made me went into a more deeper
thinking of my dreams.
Something i really want and its just not a mere interest
nor dream. Something that i want to achieve it
to a level as successful as anyone could.
But what it is? I dont know.

But to be honest. When you ask someone.
What is your dream? What is it that you want?
You get the same answer.
To be rich. Am i not right?
But for what purpose do you want to be rich for?
And what job field are you gonna do to be rich?
You cant just sit and wait for money to drop from the sky now can you?

Think about this question to urself =]
You'll find it helpful.

More to think.More to do.
Have to find some part time job soon.
I am dying as each sec passes.

Bii, what am i gonna do without you?
After your birthday, its our 4th monthsary the next day =]
Its your longest relationship isnt it? =p
Trust me, I am the last girl you'll hold hands with.
And you are the last guy my lips will kiss.
Thanks bii.
Its time to get serious. Sit down and think straight.

baby, i love you.

*Continues*

Woke up at 8am.
Did house chores early in the morning again.
And because i needed to wait for my mum
to wake up to confirm with me if i could go
out with bii today.

So waited until 9am+
and she said okay.
So got ready and went out at 12pm.

My eye bags (panda eyes) was so so so bad!
And my eyes kept closing.
But the heart beating of excitement to see bii kept me awake.

Reached timesquare.
Met bii at main entrance.
Today he kept lying me with words again >__
He said he didnt get the movie tickets.
I said its fine and we were deciding on where and what to eat.
He said i have to do the decision. But i suggested rock scissor paper =_=v
i won but bii still didnt wanna make the decision!!
He said because he bought movie tickets already i said show it.
He took out his wallet but said he was just kidding with me.
Kept the wallet back.
Then i said since he didnt get the tickets then make the decision.
He took out the movie ticket. I was hahaha inside my mind.
The whole time i believed that he didnt get the movie tickets when he has!

Ate at Food&Tea.
Walked around and bii bought a couple
handphone keychain.

Took few pictures <3>*Stupid dak yii bii~See my face T_T and panda eyes T_T*

*Two is better than one. A love so true*

Watched avatar.
I wanna be a navi :p so cool~
Bii's arms around me tight <3
I believe bii will laugh or smile at what happened in the cinema.
*BII I KNOW YOU SMILING NOW!!*

After we stepped out of the cinema.
Even without looking at each other we kept smiling.
And laugh when we look at each other.
His smile was so evil. so yam!

And bii scare me again!
He asked me where was his phone.
Because i was playing with it while walking to the cinema
but i remembered i gave it back to him.
He said he dont have it and even checked my bag.
I was so scare thinking that i lost it.
Then i looked at him, he smiled.
YOR! 2nd time he fooled me! T__T

Walked to Pavilion met up with my mum.
Went for dinner, bii came over to my house.
And left after while.

After dinner when we got up the car, He asked
where his phone was again but i didnt fell for it
because i saw him putting his phone in his pocket~
ngek~

Bii's face was soooooo red/pink
the whole dayyyyyy~
Haha~ he said he was shy =_=
So cuteeeeeeeeeeeee <33333

*Bought and chosen by baby*

Bii brought 2 books for me to read.
Starting tomorrow study time >_<
Need to do summary for him~
He is gonna work tomorrow in a place that's quite far.
Next sunday bii's bday. <3
Going to sleep.
Freaking tired.

A perfect day.
I never had so much fun in awhile.
Once again thank you bii, for everything.
All the sacrifices you have to make.
You make me laugh, make me smile.
Cheer me up when i am down.
The thoughts of letting you go or leaving you will never
cross my mind.
I am keeping you with me for the rest of my life.
Even death cant do us apart.❤
MabelChowWillLoveNixonNgForEternity.

02/01/2010

*Before going out*

Didnt have time to update blog last night.
So i will update it now.

Last night i had to go to a house warming dinner.
My mood was so freaking down.
I remembered i didnt reply bii's sms.
He called me.
I never thought he would be so worried.
But just hearing his voice, it cheered me up so much.

So went out around 7pm+
Went to Tropicana.
When we entered the area. I was sooo stunned.
The designs of the area is so amazing.
Its more to american style type, no gate, hugee car porch.
and ofcouse amazingly big garden.

Reached the house, parked the car,
Stepped infront of the house.
All eyes were on me =_=
Scary.

What was even more shocking was when i stepped
into the house.
Extremely high ceiling, fountain pond inside the house,
and private karaoke room.
With huge Samsung LED tv.
Gosh, i want that house so badly.

Went out took some food to eat.
Met my mum's friends whom i havent seen
in a long while.
Drank whiskey given by them =_=v
Everywhere i walked i get that 'look at her' stare from all the girls.
Honestly whats with girls and giving me those
stares? i am effing sick of it.
Some thought i was a model from overseas.
But i am local :p

I actually enjoyed my mum's friends company.
Laughed like hell with all the jokes they made.
Non stop laughing and non stop smsing bii.

After hours of chatting outside we went into the
private karaoke room.
They were singing oldies songs.
I actually knew most of it :p
Had fun =)

Went home around 12am+
reached home at 1am+
Did house chores right away after i reached home.
Slept at 4am.
Woke up at 8am. why?
Continue with the next post ;P

New year eve♥

31st December 2009.
New year eve.

Went out with my mum in the afternoon,
to KLCC to buy some things.
It was new year eve.
And for some reasons i really wanted to see bii.
So i texted him asking if he would come over
to my house to meet my mum.
I thought he would say no but he said yes.
And my mum approved him of coming over.

I felt nervous and excited >__<
But around 7pm+ i had to go out for dinner =_=
It was my uncle's bday and i didnt know.
Bii reached at 8pm+.
I reached home 5mins after he reached.

My mum went to one of her friend's home.
So i walked up back home with the keys.
It was dark and i couldnt see properly up ahead.
Until i saw someone standing there.
At first i asked myself was it bii >_<
Until i could see him clearly i was so shocked!
Bii with glasses!!
and his hair!!
So xi mannnnnnnnnnnnnn xD
But he is still adorable ♥♥

So he had an 'interview' with my mum.
And he stayed till 1am+.
I couldnt stop looking at him and smiling.
Him with glasses and that hair.
Really really shocked me.

When the clock turned 12am
Fireworks set off.
I called him to the kitchen balcony to watch it together.
Who knew i could actually see him on that day.
And i thought it was just gonna be me alone on that day.
But it was him there with me, holding on to my hand,
watching fireworks with me. ♥

Baby, thank you.
I really didnt expect you to come on that day.
Sorry you have to canceled your plans with your friends.
You should have told me that you have plans >_<

I fell asleep at 2am+
But bii smsed me.
He made me CRIED!!
He texted me saying 'Today will be the last day
i will contact you'
I thought was it something my mum said?
I asked if he was just joking and he said does it look
like he was joking.
I couldnt help but cried >_<>
At the moment i wished he was just right next to me
so i can throw the rabbit soft toy at him !!
He always does this to me!
Saying things that scares me. But i dont know why
i keep falling for his trap over and over again. T_T

Woke up at 1.30pm this afternoon >_<
Was tired.
Spend my whole day reading back on History
and Geography.
All the terms seems so familiar and yet i cant remember >_<
Like Hitler story, Treaty of Versailles, World War I and II.
etc etc etc.
But its great to be reading back on what i've learnt.
As i kept reading, i slowly remember everything.
The interest of studying came back to me, but its too late.

02/01/2010.
Moments ago around 1am+.
Family argued. BIG argument.
My cousins, my brother and i.
Inside my room.
Not one word was spoken. Dead silent.
That was how down everyone was. I hate that feeling.
Its only the 2nd day of a new year.
Where i thought things could get better, but it got worst.
Feeling so down right now.
3.35am now. Nights.

Asking myself if 31st dec was a dream.
But it turned out, it really happened in reality.
Bii, Thank you so much.
I am so so so grateful to have met you and
even more grateful that i'm YOURS and you're MINE.
Even if you dont believe that i'm serious about you its fine.
I will PROVE it to you, that i will be FAITHFUL to you.
And its YOU whom i want to spend my whole life with.
Because baby, you are the BEST thing that happened in my life.♥